im not enthusiastic about anything. the only thing that approaches that for me is sports officiating, and even that i am too apathetic to try to advance
The other week I tried to make a thread about a possible series adaptation of The Black Company and no one replied. At the same time I counted seven(7) Euphoria threads on the catalogue full of replies. Make of that what you will.
The Limper is based
That is all
Maybe you'll get your chance when new info comes out (when the cancellation is announced)
tbh I wouldnt mind it getting cancelled if it means Eliza Dushku doesnt get to play The lady
The issue is that The Dark Company is gay, and by extension your thread was gay + retarded as well. Euphoria is shit to but at least it's fun to shit on it. Nobody cares about your faggy fantasy kiddie books.
>Write me something fucking honest. >I wish this site would talk about what they're enthusiastic about more
Despite making up only 13 percent of the population, black people commit more than half of the violent crime in amercia
Enthusiasm, passion? You can't be passionate about anything past the age of 25. Innocence completely lost. It's so bleak out here for some of us it's not even funny. Every day I'm suffering mentally. I can't get that spark in my eye I used to have. I'm also so humiliated to be back at square one. I don't know what society expects me to do with myself. And the anger. The anger is so strong. The idea that I have to grovel on my hands and knees as an older person now, just to get somehwere. As if I haven't tried, as if I haven't had lived experiences that were important to me... I hate this world. I'm always tired. No room for enthusiasm
>this board sucks! this site has gone to shit! >Ill just make my 500th thread complaining about this here... >what do you mean l-leave?! ive been here since 2015 (thats BEFORE election cancer, newfags!)
I'm so burned out burned out burned out. It's been years now and things just go away. I only feel manic universal happiness or purely numb.
Even when things seem to go my way for an instant. This girl, my girlfriend is coming over for a week and so far I don't feel a thing. My dick doesn't work due to nerves and impotence and some other stuff. But besides that my heart isn't overlowing. I don't know what to tell her. It's like I'm not really here. I'm sad. It's hard to say that kind of thing. I don't know.
It's better to let her know what's going on, than to let her think it's something she is doing wrong. You just tell her you have something kinda serious to discuss, and say, "I'm not trying to lay a trip on you, I'm not asking you to do anything about it, I just don't want you to think it's your fault that I'm being like this. I'm cripplingly depressed, and I don't know what to do about it, nor do I have any plans regarding what to do about it".
you might have dopamine/seratonin imbalance, which would explain the mood shifts and maybe also the sexual problems.
could also be thyroid related, either too low or too high.
go to have a blood test at the doctor, you have to request it.
ask for a full hormone panel blood test with thyroid. say you haven't felt yourself for a while and that someone recommended you check your hormone levels out.
just insist.
hormones can seriously affect your perspective on things, so while you're inside it, you can see things for how they really are.
just do it and don't think about it.
it might be a lot of other stuff besides that, but it might be one thing that can be sorted and could lead to giving you a basis to fix the rest.
I'm 31 and probably the biggest loser on this board. I have literally nothing in my life. I'm absolutely despondent about it but I feel that the change needed to fix myself is so insurmountable I don't even see a point. especially thinking about an entire lifetime wasted with no happy memories. I don't see the point in anything. I spend most of my waking hours wanting to kill myself but I'm too afraid to.
what are you talking about man. i have left my childhood, my teens, and my 20s with nothing to show for them. socially, romantically, life milestones, career, i have nothing. literally not a single happy memory of my entire life to look back on. and the worst part is that all my problems stem from a lack of social life but now i have become so jaded and misanthropic that most people just annoy the fuck out of me
That's my age and I'm big and strong with a big dick but when I was 18 I suffered a rare skin condition that basically left my head looking like I've been a victim of an acid attack, never had a job never had a gf just waiting to die and trying to do the best I can for the people who care about me
i had a shit skin condition for over ten years starting when i was 18 too. they never explained it, and in the end it sort of went away by itself.
it cut out a massive portion of my life though and made me more or less not exist.
i managed to find my way out of it, for a couple of years, then life threw worse shit at me.
i really feel like i've been cursed, as in someone actively chose me to suffer for some reason, because i don't see other people having this shit happen to them.
i didn't want much, just a pretty simple life, i wasn't greedy i don't think.
i know how you feel dude. i've just been waiting to die for years.
maybe you should buy a jason mask and start your own live action film.
That sucks, I hope you find your footing. From what you're saying it seems like not all is lost just that there were a few pitfalls along the way. I wish I was born in a different country or a under different circumstances. Like into a family with a farm where I could just work all day out of sight and out of mind a be useful. It is what it is, life isn't fair.
had similar kinds of feeling to that, wanted a simpler life.
maybe you can find a place to be, have you tried farm or forestry work. you could also try volunteer stuff.
once people in a team see you're good and trustworthy they'll accept you.
i think you need something like that so you can start feeling yourself.
I try and stay buy, like today I spent a few hours setting up a gaming pc I built for my cousin. But you're totally right what I should so is put myself out there I'm sure there are plenty of volunteer spaces in the area, like dog shelters at whatnot but in reality what I want is a bullet in the head while I sleep because I can't ever see myself forming a relationship or family, just being honest.
3 months ago
Anonymous
you're stuck in this game man, might as well try some different character choices.
think of it like you're in an mmorpg and your character generation was bugged or something, you aren't satisfied with the character, but you can either hang around the start zone or you can just do all the quests you can and try out different skills. you're in the game anyway.
things could be far far worse. you don't want to imagine how, it is hard to see from your perspective now, because things seem to suck to such a horrible degree, but then think about it, your body works well, you're strong like you said, you have knowledge and skills, your dick works, you can see/hear/taste/smell/touch fine, you think pretty clearly. you seem to be a decent human being.
like they say, try to count your blessings. i don't mean delude yourself, but take pleasure in the things you do have, maybe learn to enjoy nature - i don't mean in a hippy way, but a lot is the angle you see the world at.
volunteering might help.
helping people or animals, or even forests/plants. and appreciating them.
it might help to heal what you feel.
i wish you luck man.
3 months ago
Anonymous
God I wish, maybe this spring/summerI will fucking bash my retarded self restraint into submission and actually reach out into the world again. It seems so easy just talking about it. Hope the best for you to fella.
3 months ago
Anonymous
don't wait for the right time or the right motivation or anything like that.
start in some small way, however tiny, and do that. the moment you do the first thing, even spending 2 minutes looking up some info about one subject that you've thought of but never researched, then it starts becoming more real, and you start believing in yourself and it.
even if it is just to discount one idea, or to find or try another. it is a step forward.
start writing notes on your ideas, look some stuff up, then apply to it.
if you want to do something different, even for just a few months, maybe look into some training courses and do some of those.
you just have to forget all the mental obstacles, and do it, even if it feels silly.
I'm a pre-op transexual and I'm about as progressives as they come but I can't stand to be around black people. Say what you want about white people but they are nowhere near as transphobic, racist, violent or regressive as the average black person. The hypocrisy is from some is astounding. I want a better life for them (for everyone really) but I don't want to be near them in large groups.
It's not a race thing, It's a culture thing. I grew up in rural Canada and the black fellas I grew up with are just like everyone else here. If you live in the USA, my condolences, my country is fucked up, but holy shit, America is a wildly fucked up place
I have to do a miracle week of work or I will lose my degree in my final year after passing every class without difficulty. Everyday I feel like shit and I want to cry.
I'm so depressed. I could really use a hug. I don't think I've had any physical contact for over 500 days. I'm so sick of this fucking world. I'm tired, always tired.
Oh shit lol, sorry been drinking a little bit and didn't realize, yeah in that case it's 100% his own fault, assuming it's a guy, which I'm pretty sure it is.
3 months ago
Anonymous
You don't know the circumstances of anyone's life. It doesn't matter if you're white or black or yellow or red, if you get fucked over by life or fate or circumstance or whatever you want to call it, the result is the same.
You are not going to get better than the Donner Superman even with the dated effects. Christopher Reeve just nailed it. Superman, fake Metropolis Clark and real Clark Kent. He was just perfect and won't be surpassed
Doctors said I had 6 months, so I started drinking and smoking every day, that was about four years ago, still feel pretty good. Looking forward to Kung Fu Hustle 2 if I make it that far.
I’ve been here off and on for over 14 years and now married with kids. I still love movies so come back on at night to see what’s up. Unfortunately there hasn’t been anything good in years it feels like. Everything has to be black and gay. So I look out for older stuff I haven’t seen or haven’t seen in a while. Hope anyone that’s reading this is doing well. I’ve always enjoyed talking with anons over the years.
I haven't tried to get a girlfriend because I move every few months to do low paid field technician work. I have decided to learn everything about the history of Rome to escape from the bleak insignificance of my own life. This has unintentionally cured me of any suicidal urges but now I want to acquire land where I grew up and make alcohol on it. And be around family and my true friends.
I'm on episode 112, everyone in the empire has become mentally disabled and the legions keep ruining everything. I've also read The Enneads and am currently reading a compilation of Cicero. Next I'll read Lucretius' On the Nature of Things. Someone also linked a Romanian movie called Dacii that I plan on watching.
I want France to revolt hard enough to start the powder keg everywhere else only so I feel everyone's made of organic matter again, not this pointless manequinism
i can't get a job because i just can't be bothered to deal with people and all the paperwork and numbers and passwords and shit
they make giving them money a chore
and i'd rather basically live like a homeless person as long as i can
i don't really mind working Cinemaphile is fun because you just peacefully get on with it
This afternoon i clicked something i shoudn't have, and done something i shoudn't have. Now i can't stop thinking about it and i'm probably in a list already. I wish god have mercy upon me. Porn destroyed my brain and i keep making horrible decisions.
I love myself, but after this, i don't think so. I proven myself to be a horrible human being.
Most of you are grown men who live with their parents. They want their privacy too and they resent you every time they notice a couple more years pass and you still you do not have a plan to leave. Someday they'll pass so you'll be homeless. Even if you were given the home you wouldn't be able to pay the taxes on it.
>Most of you are grown men who live with their parents. They want their privacy too
my parents do nothing but work (even though they "retired") because they have no friends or hobbies, and spend every night watching television in separate rooms
If you're not moderately well-read and well-versed in culture in general (music, paintings, previous movies) you'll often feel lost and outside looking in when watching movies in general. Culture is one, you have to educate yourself in several areas
I can't maintain long term relationships
I've never had a gf
I'm failing my studies
My father is dying
I'm broke
Soon my house of cards will collapse and everyone will know I'm a failure and a fraud
do something about it now before it all falls then.
don't wait for it, don't procrastinate. just start right now in any way you can.
you know what you have to do.
find a way to improve your studies, get a part time job, even a few hours a week will help. save as much as you can.
then find time to spend with your father every day, good time. talk to him. tell him stuff, ask him about stuff.
you have to make yourself stronger. you will do it.
i don't think it is a matter of wanting to. it is that you have to do it and there is no one else to do it. you have to say "fuck it, I'LL do it then!" and just do it. don't rely on mood or want, just do it because no one else will.
like you'd see your dad do a chore he didn't want to do, or your grandad.
they probably didn't want to either, but at some point they realised no one else was going to do it, and they took up that responsibility on themselves.
doesn't matter what kind of person you are, but the reality is that in the future you will need to be the guy doing these things, so start now. do it for the guy in the future, not for yourself.
and when you reach the future, say thanks to the guy in the past who gave you a break and did the hard work that meant you were in a better spot and not in the shit.
then think again at that point, about the guy in the future, and do it for him.
Honestly? I'm a huge Peanuts fan. Love Charlie Brown and Linus and Pigpen and everyone. I've read every single Peanuts comic that was every published. I love Peanuts.
Whenever I see stories of people committing suicide, especially children of celebrities, rather than feeling sad I feel admiration for them having the courage to do that. I also had a cousin who was from rich parents and seemed to have everything going for her in life but she overdosed on a drug/alcohol combination when she was in her early 20s and I regularly look back and envy her.
it is in everyone's best interest that humanity not continue. think about it
given enough time someone WILL invent a way to resurrect people and put them in a tube and torture them forever. someone will invent a way to bring you back, put your head in a jar, and prod your eyeballs and fry your skin and fill your brain with the most horrible torment and pain imaginable for ALL TIME. think about the worst pain you've ever felt now multiply it by 100x and imagine it never ends. that is what awaits you if humanity continues. the ethical thing to do is to stop having children. everyone.
humanity NEEDS to end before this happens, before we invent literally hell on earth. it is ENTIRELY in your best interest to advocate for everyone not having kids.
ZERO argument against this. if humanity just keeps going and going and going you really think nobody will ever invent a way to bring people back and that it wouldnt be used for nefarious purposes? seriously? you're fucking retarded lmao
oh okay so you'd rather hedge your bets against virtually INFINITE TIME of research into it? very smart. why not just advocate for humanity to end instead of betting it maybe possibly wont happen?
Why would anyone do this to someone that wasn't famous? What torture me cause I voted trump?if we had the technology now nobody would be doing it to torture people
who knows. maybe its a future science-jihadi cult that feels it religiously necessary to resurrect and torture infidels
I'm saying it won't happen like you say. If it happens it's just gonna be cloning or, if I happen to be alive, a digital copy of me. Neither is me since once I die it's the end for me.
its naïve to think we 1000% understand consciousness and that the sensation of "you" seeing out of your eyes, couldnt be brought back. im asking you to imagine literally 500,000 more years into the future here
Why do you think that in 500,000 years we'll understand how to perfectly recreate someone that existed in the past in such a way that that long dead person will exist in the future?
3 months ago
Anonymous
they cloned a sheep in the 90s but it was a bit botched, if they have a sample of someones DNA they could clone them probably in the future assuming the DNA sample didnt degrade too much over time. They probably cant clone Hitler becuase none of his DNA exists anywhere in order to clone him and have someone raise him as their own son to see if he grows up to be a chud in a study of nature vs nurture.
3 months ago
Anonymous
but the clone isn't me so why should I care?
3 months ago
Anonymous
it wont have your memories, i guess it would kind of be like an artifically created identical twin. But in a way you are living on, your genes get another shot at life.
>I can think it therefore it is possible
Given enough time someone WILL invent for me a perfect tomboy gf that doesn't shave her armpits or pussy and likes to suck my dick.
I'm saying it won't happen like you say. If it happens it's just gonna be cloning or, if I happen to be alive, a digital copy of me. Neither is me since once I die it's the end for me.
based night show sleeper
we need some late night sleepcore
nick teen sitcoms are pretty good, pretty much all nick at night stuff is good tbh
personally i’d add shows like psyche and the original YGO anime as good comfy shows to fall asleep too as well.
occassionally some early adult swim stuff like space ghost and sealab also do the trick
had a really stressful time once, went to try to sleep and my heart was beating hard and fast like thunder for an hour or so, like my body couldn't calm down.
i put the tv on and it zoned me out quite soon after, heart became normal and i fell asleep thankfully.
i know it doesn't sound like much, but it was hours before that too, and it might as well have been an anaesthetic in terms of how effective it was.
that time was particularly noticable.
tv has a hypnotic effect, i guess it's been a companion for a long time.
I'm a married man with children and I've spent a decade in here and the things I've learned and the friends I've laughed with is invaluable to my story
I'm a compulsive liar and one day people are going to see me for the fraud I am.
But whatever, this is a TV board, so let's talk about movies. You guys ever see Misery? It's based on a Stephen King novel, and it's a pretty good suspense/horror movie. I liked Kathy Bates performance, but I think James Caan was the one who really captivated me, he transmited the horror, vulnerability, and charisma of his character extremely well.
HEY, PAUL!
You need to stop lying, anon. I've seen Misery too many times to count and I don't even like it. I wish James Caan spoke up a bit more about why he was being kidnapped or tried to change her mind instead of passively accepting it. COCKADOODY!
I'm a compulsive liar and one day people are going to see me for the fraud I am.
But whatever, this is a TV board, so let's talk about movies. You guys ever see Misery? It's based on a Stephen King novel, and it's a pretty good suspense/horror movie. I liked Kathy Bates performance, but I think James Caan was the one who really captivated me, he transmited the horror, vulnerability, and charisma of his character extremely well.
HEY, PAUL!
I'M GONNA KILL YOU, YOU LYING COCKSUCKER
What was her problem?
There is no real reason for the poetry lecture from Encolpius at the beggining of Petronius Satyricon. It doesn't mesh well with the rest of the text and even as someone who read all of Plato and Homer I didn't understand much of it. I wonder if it was originally intended for some other story or essay and it got lumped in with the other fragments somehow.
I'm not afraid of hard work, manual labor can be meditative under the right conditions. I just want to live in the forest in a log cabin. I want to grow things, build stuff, and see physical manifestations of the fruits of my labor. Maybe be a farmer, literally. Being a wagie sounds like hell on earth. I hate people and want to be away from them but I also need them. I just want to stop thinking. I want peace and quiet the constant fighting is too much sometimes.
ive heard so many people say DUDE SHROOMS AND LSD CHANGED MY PERSPECTIVE ON SO MUCH. I LITERALLY THINK OF LIFE DIFFERENTLY
fast forward a few months and they are living exactly the same, they process things exactly the same, they get mad at the same shit and get happy at the same shit, nothing fucking changes.
It does and can but it's hard to hold on to in the long run. When I've done it its like it resents my perspective and lifts the mental stuff that's been weighing me down. It's hard to ultimately escape everyday life.
it's just more masturbation you fags are doing. it doesn't change you. it doesn't make you a better person. it probably makes you a worse person, since you're spending your time masturbating and rationalizing this fundamentally narcissistic activity as somehow beneficial. this is like when fags say that "feminine penises" aren't gay. no man. lusting after cock is lusting after cock. and getting high to feel good is getting high to feel good.
You're just talking shit about something you don't understand. I get that you're too scared to try it. The other anon explained it better than I did. You seem to be equating lsd to booze or weed. It's not the same experience at all and I would never treat it as such. It's a once or twice a year kind of thing and unless you've experienced it you can't understand it.
you probably didn't notice this, but you're not even disagreeing with me. you're just rationalizing your masturbation as not bad because you're a narcissist and ashamed about it. well, at least that's good, I guess. too bad you didn't stumble upon that realization. almost like the """insights""" are just delusions resulting from your brain literally breaking apart. woooooh, I'm so in tune with the world, and shit! meanwhile, you're ACTUALLY just sitting there trying to have a conversation with your dog, because you're having a psychotic episode. and then afterwards you actually think that you did have a conversation with your dog, because your brain was damaged by the drug-induced psychotic episode.
LSD will make you rethink things and abandon your preconceptions, very literally. It's part of what it does to your brain, forces you to actually process information instead of your brain instantly jumping to its pre-prepared conclusion. If asked 2+2 while on LSD you will work out the answer in your head.
Of course, if you don't actually ask any meaningful questions of yourself or do any actual soul searching you're probably just going to end up thinking you're thinking something really profound but you're actually just stupid and on drugs saying 'dude we're like.. all connected'
Psychadelic therapy works but the 'therapy' part is kind of important to the process.
I form intense inappropriate emotional attachments to women for almost no reason and when they inevitably reject or abandon me it makes me feel like I am dying and to avoid feeling like that I make increasingly desperate attempts to get them to like me which just ends in threats of reporting me to the authorities
I asked the doctors for benzos and they weren't dumb enough to give them to me. If they had, there is a legitimate possibility I may have killed myself this week because a girl I had never spoken to might not like me and I may never get the chance to talk to her, and this has made me feel like I am on the verge of a heart attack for almost 3 weeks straight now and I simply want it to end
this might stop happening if you had a real relationship. your obsessions might go away, a lot of it is fantasy based.
don't know how you go about having a relationship though - but maybe cognitive behavioural therapy could help. have a read about it.
It helped somewhat when I did have one, however I was extremely suHispanicious(for somewhat good reasons) that ultimately put too much of a strain on things. Lots of those feelings don't actually go away. I wish it were fantasy based because then it would be a lot more controllable but the simple fact is that when you have people that have these extreme forms of attachment that I do it's because I experience emotions differently from other people. I am actually totally aware exactly of what the psychological issues themselves are, but there is very little you can do to change the way your brain is wired and it takes a lot of effort and time regardless, in therapy, which I have not been able to get into and stay in, and with social support, which I reflexively distance myself from.
If I were more of a normal person I could probably get a relationship very easily. But I have a habit of scaring women off as soon as they get close to me. My neediness and emotionality, which I see no problem with, is inherently disgusting to women. I have no desire to be less dependent because I strongly feel like people who are not totally committed to their relationships are awful people, and I strongly enjoy spending time with any potential partner, and don't care about anything else when the opportunity presents itself. But there are very few people out there that want that, or can even stomach it, and most of them are just as damaged as I am, but far less aware, and doomed to fail. Plus they are women, so even if they are exactly the same, they have an in-built tendency to view this behavior as inherently unattractive.
Yes, they are exactly BPD and it's not a question. I am close to being diagnosed but you can't fix it with a pill and can only modestly control it. That's actually not true, the worst aspects can be totally controlled with benzos for a limited duration, but benzos give you brain damage and there is a risk for dependency and obviously just having them presents as a suicide risk for me. I legitimately have already tried to kill myself with benzos and I probably will again but there's no other real options for controlling the emotional pain I feel with rejection so if I don't want to get kicked out of school for stalking and harassing girls I probably need them
I struggle with exactly the same crap, I have BPD too. Come here, anon. I know exactly what you struggle with. People say all kinds of shit and demonize us but the truth is we are simply too sensitive for this world
3 months ago
Anonymous
3 months ago
Anonymous
and for the record i would never criticize you for being emotional and needy nor would i be repulsed by that. In fact, I see honesty in that. You show how vulnerable you are to people, you open up and all you get in return is disgust. Boy, do i know how that feels
3 months ago
Anonymous
Thank you anon. It is hard. I wish things were easier for the both of us. Wouldn't wish this hell on anyone. It does feel very unfair, to be honest
i don't know how long your relationship was, but i think if you are in one you can work on yourself and have more of a realistic view, more balanced, without being fake or losing yourself.
it is small changes over time, and making constant decisions so that your brain is trained a certain way so that it eventually naturally sits like that, while still being true to yourself.
have a read about cognitive behavioural therapy, it is about changing habits/behaviour as in actions, which in turn over time leads to changes in the brain, rather than the other way around.
you aren't nuts, but maybe during upbringing or something you missed out on something, or maybe you're just more sensitive or need something else. you can finish off the proper formation of those parts of the brain now though, just be patient and it will happen, even if it takes a few years, bit by bit.
it's more like building habits, than constant effort. the beginning is the hard part, but look back and think about what you've improved in your life compared to the past and you'll see you've already done a lot.
I am more emotionally sensitive and was a very empathic child but was raised in an emotionally volatile environment and I was also raped by some other kids when I was really young. Probably also experienced abandonment and dejection/disappointed my caretakers who had extremely high standards for me(who the fuck can play piano at 5 years old)
There's actually a fair amount of structural malformation in the frontal lobe, specifically the orbitofrontal cortex and other parts of the PFC and the amygdala in BPD. As far as I'm aware you can't really fix the reduced mass in these areas, but parts can be rewired over time as you said.
You're right of course. At the end of the day I need to be in therapy and to make small changes. Wait times have been annoying and I already burned myself with a previous psych institution so I've had to switch.
Thank you anon. I can't really control my emotions so I started to cry at the end of this post. You did not have to write these things for me but you did. Thank you
that's alright dude.
i don't know what kind of psychiatrists etc you've spoken to or looked into, but from what i've read before, bpd has fairly decent success rates of treatment with cognitive behavioural therapy, like i said.
i don't think medicines are the answer, they just mute symtpoms, but cbt makes sense when done consistently over a long period of time.
as for brain areas, like you said the brain is adaptive. there have been people with severe physical brain trauma, injuries and so on, that have managed to recover, their brain reroutes and makes use of other parts for the functions they require, it just needs some time and patience and reminding to rewire to those parts.
one of the first things is learning to consciously recognise the times when your behaviours/emotions are happening, and tell yourself "this is one of those times". the step after that is to try to calm them down, or even distract yourself, or have a replacement/alternative thing/habit you do whenever you recognise it happening.
over time, that redirection or distraction can calm the behaviour and make it more manageable. then you can build new things on top of that.
it isn't easy or quick, but it isn't impossible either, and it will become a bit better each time.
I've been on this site since 2005 and haven't really experienced any enjoyment from it since all the chud/moron/havesex/drumpf posting started years ago but I only browse it from the toilet and I shit for like 20 minutes each time and don't really have any other website I want to be on that long so I just keep coming here hoping it'll get better at some point. It doesn't.
don't know when i started but it was probably 2006/7 - i have stopped for lengths of time between now and then, sometimes a year at a time, sometimes just very infrequent viewing.
i stopped /b/ quite a few years ago because it became ultra shit.
i started coming to /misc/ to clear my habit somewhat, since it was inoffensive and i didn't really care about anything that was posted here anyway.
i dunno, we're stuck here until life becomes interesting enough not to come here.
nothing wrong with literal shitposting.
no, it will never improve, it was absolute dogshit in the first place, but yet there was a thousand times the amount of goodness to it at that time.
My life is pretty good too be honest, I just go here because I don't know what else to do on the can. I tried reading, but it takes some processing power and I end up focusing on the story instead of forcing my IBS-ridden bowels to do their fucking job so nothing ends up happening.
I guess it's mostly the politics that's pissing me off, it used to be somewhat ironic or just poking fun but these days the only thing people talk about is how everything is politics and everything is fucked and although that's certainly true, I go here to get away from that shit not to be pelted by it. If I wanted that I'd just read the fucking news.
buy a puzzle book.
first few times will suck, after a few weeks you'll start enjoying them.
try all different kinds of puzzles, see which ones you like.
you won't miss anything by not coming here for a few weeks, so set yourself a mission to skip here for 3-4 weeks, maybe don't take your phone to the toilet at all, and take a little pocket puzzle book instead.
can be thinking puzzles, crosswords, riddles etc.
for a while now, i've been playing a crappy puzzle game on the 10-15 minute train ride to work. it was free for some reason a year or two ago. i didn't think much of it at first, but it has a lot of levels and requires a bit of thought, but the levels/puzzles don't take that long to do. if i don't solve it within 5-10 minutes i just try the next time.
i've almost never played it outside of that train ride.
My life is crumbling away and there's almost nothing I can do about it except just struggle. And it's not even my fault. And there's no hope.
I keep coming here because I come from a country with a culture different enough that this place always takes me out of my reality and distracts me, almost like it's a whole other world with a completely different context where I'm also a different person.
I guess life sometimes can fuck you so hard there's nothing to do and there is no single comforting thought to have other than imagining myself an old man doing a hobby some day or just dying in my sleep.
Internet is truly a wonder in these times, the only reason I can still regain sanity.
I don't know how people would escape from reality back in the day, I guess reading, or writing, or drawing, but it all seems much worse than the Internet.
P.S.
Jazz threads and Harry Potter threads are the best on /misc/, in my opinion.
P.P.S
I reread the post and it sounds too bitchy, so don't worry, I will probably make it somehow.
>I come from a country with a culture different enough that this place always takes me out of my reality and distracts me, almost like it's a whole other world
are you from Russia by chance, anon?
not that anon but i am a Ruski so I can elaborate. Man, where do I start lol. I think about getting out here every single day because life is getting more dangerous here by the day and not just because of the new conscription wave, the entire country is overwhelmed by ethnic crime committed by mudlsime immigrants that commies import by thousands ever day. You think Canada has a migration problem? Gimme a break. Russia is drowning in violent crime and poverty. We probably aren't any different from failed states like Mexico and Zimbabwe
/misc/ helps me escape this reality to an extent though I can not neither relate nor empathize with most of the 1st world problems you guys post about in off-topic threads
was russia a good place before the tsar and his family were killed? or did it always have this undercurrent of drunk criminal character.
i read a lot of old russian folk tales, from 100-200 years ago at least, and it seems a decent place, isolated people, but a lot more sane seeming.
the garden gnomes killed russia's spirit when they killed the tsar, and everything since has been because of it.
most russian's i've met - all while outside of russia, have been pretty cool, with a sense of humour.
3 months ago
Anonymous
>was russia a good place before the tsar and his family were killed?
I dunno, the Russian empire was a little before my time kek. But yeah life certainly used to be infinitely better before the garden gnomes took over. Not western Yurop tier good but at least we had real prospects and people were not dying of hunger by millions >did it always have this undercurrent of drunk criminal character
well there was always a stratum of lowlife poor criminals in society but the commies made them and their way of life mainstream. It is still like that today. >the garden gnomes killed russia's spirit when they killed the tsar
if only it was just the star. The garden gnomes killed most everyone who had something to do with monarchy, science, art, culture
3 months ago
Anonymous
maybe one day in the future, people there will remember who they are and russia will become russia again.
or maybe that time has passed, and only comes once, and will only be remembered as an idea in the folk tales.
the whole world has been cancered, not just russia.
russia was just one of the first to be really brutalised by the garden gnomes.
the french "revolution" was pretty similar really, killed off anyone with proper blood ties to the country, anyone with morals, and left the rabble to eat each other while the garden gnomes took power.
that's why there are 950k yids in france now, more than the rest of europe combined.
after ww2 they scaled up their plans to destroy every other decent country, rip it apart, flood it with foreigners and destroy the souls of the people.
if this is the end of beauty and civilisation, and human striving, i would rather it came as an asteroid hitting the earth and just ending things completely and abruptly. not this poisoning and corruption.
is irkutsk not a better area to live? i heard it has a ton of chinese tourists though.
3 months ago
Anonymous
That time has passed I'm afraid. Most people here don't think like I do. They don't see or prefer not to see how everything is fucked up beyond repair here. Most people in their 40s and older seem to have Soviet mindset engraved in their minds terminally. Perhaps that is what a hundred years of commie abuse and torture does to a mf. >is irkutsk not a better area to live?
never been to that area but I don't have any reason to think that it's any different to other Russian cities. Why Irkutsk in particular?
3 months ago
Anonymous
met someone from irkutsk and she seemed really healthily minded, happy, decent and moral, with a sense of humour. she liked where she came from, was happy to be going back after a short holiday, wanted to show me about the place.
given in most countries then different regions have very different feelings, outlooks and so on, i would expect that if you haven't been near there, it would be worth you visiting it to see if the feeling is different.
it's only a week or so by train
3 months ago
Anonymous
why so many russians in this thread kek
i'm georgian but i have family living in russia. you guys seem to have it a lot better than us at least.
also does anyone else also feels super jealous of their towns or countries being featured in TV programmes or youtube? i saw some american girl on youtube homepage visiting tbilisi and it had tons of views, i wanted to personally yell at her to get off my city
[...] >you should really send me a picture of yourself wearing nothing but toilet paper though
kek based
Russia was amazingly comfortable in 2000-2017. Nowadays people are fleeing everywhere and most of the places, even european countries, have some downsides in terms of day-to-day comfort judging by reports. If I were to sum up things, russian IT and in general russian client-oriented businesses were very very good.
At least from my experience:
Everything had a website, everything that needed a mobile app had a good mobile app, phone support was high level and responsive, buying everything was very easy in one click and safe, and would arrive very soon. Kazakhstan is very underdeveloped in this area. The biggest country bank here can somewhat compete in terms of IT and comfort with maybe some regional banks in Russia. There're no good big online marketplaces, a lot of businesses work through damn WhatsApp. No one-click ordering here.
Overall, Russia was very developed for consumers. And it was all against the odds, unfortunately. Everything else in country was going to shit constantly. But there was this feeling among younger people that the soviet fucks will die and it will be our turn, we just have to outlast and work on our own lives until then, because we're a small minority.
I'm sure some people are not like me and don't give a fuck. And maybe some are even lucky or smart and they didn't get fucked by 2014 or 2022 crisis somehow. But if you know history, and if you read books, and you're not a lobotomized-level of calamity person, then you will start going insane in Russia just reading the news even once a week for years. It's just too difficult to live losing hope every day. I'm sure that this is the number one reason the top level male suicide rates, alcoholism, and gender life expectancy gap in Russia.
3 months ago
Anonymous
that sounds rough anon, the online optimisation part is especially grim. i can't imagine life without delivery app lol shows how dependant on technology we've become. you sound lucid and self-conscious, don't let outside sources get you down too much.
3 months ago
Anonymous
Thank you but that was mostly to reply to the Georgian poster wondering if we had it better, which in some ways we did, of course.
I guess I just wanted to make a point that minor comfort is not worth going insane from the stress for, so countries like Kazakhstan and Georgia attract fleeing russians for a good reason.
3 months ago
Anonymous
i am georgian poster...
but i get what you mean, i was mostly talking about economy and russian power, life in georgia is peaceful enough so you should come too if you need
Right now I'm in Kazakhstan, but settling here for good is problematic unfortunately. As soon as I lose my job I will have to go, either back or to some other country where I would only be able to stay for ~3 months. I just don't want to go back, I made the mistake of deciding to stay 5 years ago, even though I knew where everything was going.
My older cousin has moved his whole family to Netherlands, and his younger brother with his family to Turkey. They both just gave up on 100-150k+ USD apartments in Moscow. All happened this year.
We're all under 36, I'm the youngest at 30. 7 of my colleagues and friends have fled too.
Most of my friends haven't been able to flee and they don't have any means to do so, so they just try to keep their heads down and play videogames and not read the news. People can't even pay for Steam from Russia, they use some tricky ways to send money to their steam wallets. Also most big publishers such as Bethesda and EA don't even list their games to russians anymore.
Yesterday in Moscow, cops in masks and swat gear came to two bars and started beating young dudes and tazing them, forcing them to sing soviet, pro-putin, and pro-war songs on camera. The reason for that was apparently the fact that one employee of one of the two bars had an anti-war position that the cops had found out about.
There was also a young rapper who got sodomized by a dumbbell in a police station a few months ago for reading anti-war poetry out loud.
For 50+ soviet born boomers not much has changed. The mobilization doesn't really affect them, and they don't really use their credit cards for international payments. They either ignore politics or consume insane tv propaganda that takes 8 hours/day on main two cable channels, it's just political shows laughing at Ukraine and USA, gloryfying made up soviet weapons and russian military etc.
They just think everything is fine.
In Russia, the average age is 48+.
>Right now I'm in Kazakhstan
bro wtf lol. Why did you have to choose THAT country of all countries? You will soon (if you haven't already) find out what it's like to live as white minority in Asia lol
t. Russian boy originally from Kaz
3 months ago
Anonymous
why so many russians in this thread kek
i'm georgian but i have family living in russia. you guys seem to have it a lot better than us at least.
also does anyone else also feels super jealous of their towns or countries being featured in TV programmes or youtube? i saw some american girl on youtube homepage visiting tbilisi and it had tons of views, i wanted to personally yell at her to get off my city
some will probably immediately want to date you. you'll find that weird for most of them.
if there is one half chad one, you'll accept his advances and if you ever meet him you'll probably find out you aren't as wooden-door like as you think. it'll be more like a bird finding out it can fly and after a while you'll like the whole thing.
might pull you out of your shell - not to sound trite.
you should really send me a picture of yourself wearing nothing but toilet paper though.
>you should really send me a picture of yourself wearing nothing but toilet paper though
kek based
3 months ago
Anonymous
>i'm georgian but i have family living in russia
Please leave immediately, all of you and go back to whatever shithole you come from, take your rotten tomatoes and heroin back with you, we don't want you here
3 months ago
Anonymous
georgian waifu, that's what i want. or what i think i want.
i saw some singers from georgia on a video a year or two ago.
i met a dude from georgia briefly 3-4 years ago and he seemed like an alien dropped into the world, was also the first time i'd seen the script.
spoke to a guy within the last year or two who said georgians really don't like foreigners being there, i think even on holiday, and you've confirmed it.
countryside and such looks nice though.
3 months ago
Anonymous
>georgian waifu
i'm not a femanon, reply elsewhere--
but yeah we don't like outsiders, it's funny because foreign media keeps saying the younger generation is more accepting. i fucking disagree. especially vapid women coming for instagram
>i'm georgian but i have family living in russia
Please leave immediately, all of you and go back to whatever shithole you come from, take your rotten tomatoes and heroin back with you, we don't want you here
hey they're code monkeys for fast food chain they're not grifters. in fact, one of them works at a repurposed mcdonald's restaurant.
3 months ago
Anonymous
mistook you for the imagirl.
what do you think about st. george.
do you have any weird folk tales, are there any things that local people still believe in, in terms of the supernatural?
what's a georgian superstition
3 months ago
Anonymous
I was born here originally. It reminds me of Russia a lot, except without the 70+ year old soviet insanity. Here I can at least play games, accumulate money in something other than crypto or roubles, and chill without any fear of a fucking war or economy crashing completely or civil war.
I had lived in Russia for almost 30 years and got completely fucked twice already (2014 with my salary and savings being cut in half due to 100% inflation, and my pension fund, however small getting "frozen" forever, and 2022), that's enough.
So unless there's a lynch mob that will gut me on the streets I think I'd rather take that rather than constantly living under stress reading the news.
I don't have any illusions about this country, it's just that Russia has set the bar for me so low that I mostly get pleasant surprises. And I'm not really a social person so I don't care in which country to sit at home.
Banshees is the ultimate functionally illiterate filter. The Whale was more grotesque than even picrel. Chinkettes Everywhere All The Time was a deliberate Red China snub to Top Gun 2, but it doesn't matter and American's think nothing of their 'elites', or their 'capture' by foreign funny money/
I haven't felt happy in fifteen years. I'm a shell of who I used to be. Self improvement didn't make me feel better, getting laid didn't make me feel better. Nor did traveling the world or making money. I'm empty. Everything feels gray. Just waiting to die. Hope it's soon.
>I haven't felt happy in fifteen years. I'm a shell of who I used to be. Self improvement didn't make me feel better, getting laid didn't make me feel better. Nor did traveling the world or making money. I'm empty. Everything feels gray. Just waiting to die. Hope it's soon.
Sounds like you're living your very own American Psycho, anon.
I am 26 years old and have been larping as a male in every single website I've ever used for 14 years. I have severe autism and the libido of a wooden door, so I absolutely despise the attention that comes with outing yourself as a girl online. However, lately I've been feeling unbearably guilty about hiding my identity to my internet friends. Some of them I've known for almost a decade. In honesty, I never said I'm male, they just never asked me about my gender because they assumed I'm a guy based on my interests. But it's still a shitty to not tell the truth for so many years.
Talking to guys is freeing. I'd get thrown to a pack of rabid dogs if I ever made a single antisemitic joke to a group of girls. But there are topics a man will not talk about in front of a woman, and vice versa. Men and women will always treat each other differently from their own sex. It sucks, but it is what it is. If anyone in a similar situation is reading this, you should accept this sooner than later. I will tell everyone the truth tomorrow and probably lose many long friendships. Please don't lie to your friends.
if you're attractive, i'll cure you of your lack of libido.
mostly it just comes from the right kind of practice.
also, telling your online contacts won't do much to help, it might ease your conscience but it will make them second guess the past and everything from now on, most will treat you differently.
if you're never going to meet them, you might as well just keep them in the dark, just like you don't tell them other details about yourself.
i've known people online for 10-15 years and never told them my real name, or anything much about my life.
doesn't stop me from knowing 'who' they are and them who i am.
You're probably right. However, my family is Catholic and the weight of our actions is something I was taught a lot as a kid. Lying to so many people, for so long, is making me lose sleep at night. >if you're attractive, i'll cure you of your lack of libido
Lol Autism makes you look weird. Very baby-faced and plain, like an alcohol baby. I like to believe God made me a prude to keep this shitty disorder from spreading.
i feel you, i also larp as something as something im not and its pretty stressful to lie about everything, i feel very sad because the people whom i talk to like me for somebody ill never be and it depresses me. Also tits or gtfo
> i feel very sad because the people whom i talk to like me for somebody ill never be and it depresses me
You said it, anon. It's a terrible feeling and it looms over every conversation you have. I hope you can make things right at some point.
if it is making you lose sleep, then sort it out. but accept the consequences in your head, as in be able to move forward from it afterwards and trust yourself and your decision, don't second guess yourself either way. that's pretty important.
i don't mind if you're plain, you can be pretty and plain, i'd probably like you to wear dresses though. would you do that for me.
>be able to move forward from it afterwards and trust yourself and your decision, don't second guess yourself either
Not gonna lie, that's easier said than done, but it's the hard truth. I'll probably regret coming out to my friends as soon as I do it, but at some point you gotta reap what you sow, right? The rest will resolve with time.
Doesn't matter
Your 'e-identity' is an extension of your spirit which pilots the flesh suit.
Gender is irrelevant.
They know you as you.
Gender seems to be anything but irrelevant nowadays, but hopefully you're right about this, anon.
some will probably immediately want to date you. you'll find that weird for most of them.
if there is one half chad one, you'll accept his advances and if you ever meet him you'll probably find out you aren't as wooden-door like as you think. it'll be more like a bird finding out it can fly and after a while you'll like the whole thing.
might pull you out of your shell - not to sound trite.
you should really send me a picture of yourself wearing nothing but toilet paper though.
thanks for the new copypasta btw but you're 100% lying like I said who cares that you've been lying about being a girl you're gonna get so many of them probably trying to e fuck you though lol but who cares this is quite clearly a larp post.
i feel you, i also larp as something as something im not and its pretty stressful to lie about everything, i feel very sad because the people whom i talk to like me for somebody ill never be and it depresses me. Also tits or gtfo
That's the kind of retarded thinking that let this chud trend skyrocket among autists. You are the gender you're born as. No amount of larping will ever change that
>However, lately I've been feeling unbearably guilty about hiding my identity to my internet friends
Nice bullshit post gay, how can you have a 10 year firnedship when they've never fucking heard your voice fuck off.
i've known people for longer online that i've only typed to and played games with.
you must be a zoomer who puts his home address online day 1 and posts with his face and voice messages all over, live streams from his house and asks for people to send gifts to his home.
you people are monsters.
Nope, stop trying to guess peoples life I'm just saying it is quite impossible to have a friendship just by a text for that long in todays world but I've made a friend recently who I only talk to through messages but I doubt I would be his friend for another year if we don't talk at least once in a vc and funny because OP is quite literal a "zoomer" if we're gonna use your retarded slang.
>he fell for the 14-year old larp
oh no no no he thinks the f*male is actually a fellow anon
mistook you for the imagirl.
what do you think about st. george.
do you have any weird folk tales, are there any things that local people still believe in, in terms of the supernatural?
what's a georgian superstition
dying is a big deal here. if you don't spend lots of money on a relative's funeral the ceremony is considered an embarassment.
The last decade have been varying degrees of living hell. From alcoholism, to drug addiction, to watching my mom, dad, brother and me drift apart. I'm rudderless in a big scary ocean, ill-equipped to deal with life as it is, and have daily intrusive thoughts of shooting myself. I'm afraid to interact with people in any real way, and have a -50 debuff to self confidence.
I really enjoyed The Last of Us, and haven't played the games.
keep running this through your brain in different ways until you fully understand it in a very deep way, the stuff you are afraid of, the scary ocean, interacting with people, revealing yourself, facing your fears and so on - aren't really such big threats to you, they just feel like it because they are the unknown.
now, knowing this, you're saying you think of dying rather than having to face those things.
death is what all life is most afraid of, because it is the end of life, the end of what makes us us.
therefore, every other fear is smaller than that, no matter how it feels.
once you force yourself to confront one of your fears, interacting in a real way, revealing yourself, being truthful, sharing, bonding, risking losing someone, risking humiliation.
then you will begin to defeat that fear, and each time you approach it, you will defeat another part of that fear.
once you do that enough times, those ideas of death will go away and you won't even notice it, because you'll be too involved in living.
find any small way to start, and do that.
I keep rewatching Dario Argento movies, hoping that something will click and I'll finally like them, but I just can't. Most of the horror sequences are too goofy and poorly executed, and the music always feels out of place
I have a family, whom I love dealy. Every day I work, study, and genuinely spend so much energy making my daughter happy and her days full of joy. I wish someone would do that for me
I hate this board. It's no different than Youtube, Reddit or any other shitty website about pop-culture.
Almost every time I see YT recommendations I get angry. I use this website to watch trailers or listen to music (mostly old music) and yet they always recommend me a bunch of stupid shit like videos about animals being saved, SNL "comedy" sketches, video game trailers and similar shit.
It makes me despise modern popular corporate culture more and more.
I’m not white so I never felt weird or bad about my consumption of interracial porn, never thought about how it could influence my developing brain but now I think that instead of internalizing it racially, I’ve internalized it as a male and now I watch those vids and wonder what it’s like being the frail pale rich girl, kind of want to be her.
porn escalation causes fetishes.
your brain doesn't know what it is seeing, even if you do. so it tries to make sense of something that doesn't make any sense - i.e. stimulation without anyone else being there or you being involved in any way.
stop watching porn completely, forever. the first few weeks are the hardest, after that it becomes easier.
no fap for those first few weeks to help break the habit.
after 6 months or so, most of the fetishes will be gone and you won't even think about porn or find it particularly interesting anymore.
beats the shit out of becoming a chud
Don’t be a pussy, just be normal like it never happened. Is one of the ways I’ve shown girls I’m into them, say something to very clearly send the message that I think they’re hot and like them, then just move on like it didn’t happen and gauge how they react. It shouldn’t be so dramatic.
When I read something on Cinemaphile I can only imagine the person who typed it either has a neckbeard or looks like the basedjak maymay. Anybody else think like this?
one time I was with my gf and wearing her bra and panties and shitposting on /misc/. I'm a skinny twink looking feller. She said it was exactly what she imagined when she thought of someone posting on Cinemaphile
I think David Lynch is the greatest American artist of all time despite his TM bullshit, and there no other art that fills the same void in my heart. I would do anything to watch The Return again.
Based.
I recommend you to check these movies out if you haven't already:
Love streams 1984
Woman in the dunes 1964
Saragossa manuscript 1965
Exterminating angel 1962
Mirror 1975
Stalker 1979
3 women 1977
Persona 1968
Meshes of the afternoon 1943
Orpheus 1950 (big influence on twin peaks)
I am 26 years old and I still act like a dumb 17 year old. I have no job and just the thought of getting one gives me anxiety I have been on benefits for almost 5 years now but it isn't helping me the last major thing I did was finish college 7 years ago. I did manage to get a job but on the first day I had a mental breakdown when getting back home and called up the boss saying I doubt I will be going back.
A few years ago my gf died suddenly in front of me and it really fucked me up. I spent a couple years getting constantly blackout drunk and staying up all weekend doing cocaine with assholes and blowing all my money. Finally got a grip and slowed down, got fit, started cooking again, taking care of myself and got a really good job. I was my own worst enemy and I learned I needed to allow good people into my life; not just asking or accepting help but just making an effort to be with family, real friends, and focusing on healthy and "good" things in life. I finally moved on after many slips and met an amazing woman who I'm marrying asap. This is not a bragpost because I still have work to do like subduing my persistent alcoholism and gambling problem, but I've overcome enough already and I have a bright future to look forward to now so I'm optimistic. I hope every anon on here who's in a bad place can just know that good things can happen but only if you let them, and that's not meme advice it's just a fact. I tried being a grouchy misanthropic shithead and nothing good happened. You get what you put in.
I wish this site would talk about what they're enthusiastic about more
Can't, anything longer than a few words is disregarded as being reddit
Depends on what you say
im not enthusiastic about anything. the only thing that approaches that for me is sports officiating, and even that i am too apathetic to try to advance
my world is disintegrating in front of my eyes
The other week I tried to make a thread about a possible series adaptation of The Black Company and no one replied. At the same time I counted seven(7) Euphoria threads on the catalogue full of replies. Make of that what you will.
>At the same time I counted seven(7) Euphoria threads on the catalogue full of replies. Make of that what you will.
chud janny ain't just a meme
The Limper is based
That is all
Maybe you'll get your chance when new info comes out (when the cancellation is announced)
tbh I wouldnt mind it getting cancelled if it means Eliza Dushku doesnt get to play The lady
The issue is that The Dark Company is gay, and by extension your thread was gay + retarded as well. Euphoria is shit to but at least it's fun to shit on it. Nobody cares about your faggy fantasy kiddie books.
You're on the wrong board. Go to Cinemaphile or some other real hobby board or something.
Uhhhh okay chud shill gay redditor!!!!11!!!
>t. chud shill gay redditor
do you not see the constant dicky threads?
>Write me something fucking honest.
>I wish this site would talk about what they're enthusiastic about more
Despite making up only 13 percent of the population, black people commit more than half of the violent crime in amercia
>I wish this site would talk about what they're enthusiastic about more
I'm excited for Beau is Afraid, I don't care if /misc/ calls me reddit
Enthusiasm, passion? You can't be passionate about anything past the age of 25. Innocence completely lost. It's so bleak out here for some of us it's not even funny. Every day I'm suffering mentally. I can't get that spark in my eye I used to have. I'm also so humiliated to be back at square one. I don't know what society expects me to do with myself. And the anger. The anger is so strong. The idea that I have to grovel on my hands and knees as an older person now, just to get somehwere. As if I haven't tried, as if I haven't had lived experiences that were important to me... I hate this world. I'm always tired. No room for enthusiasm
I thought Brendan's performance was just good not great. Movie was boring as fuck
I'm so tired all the time
Dramas suck. I watch happy hopeful material only.
I'm fat as fuck and extraordinarily depressed.
Extended fasts
Frogposters are probably all pedos
these last 10 years ive been feeling like ive been constantly waiting for something
I honestly hate you and wish you would never post here again. You honestly are not funny or witty. You honestly add nothing of value to this website.
I'm getting older. I'm out of energy. I don't know what to try next in life in order to somehow stop being a failure. I hope I die very soon.
14 year olds can consent to 20-35 year olds
I hate morons but every black person I've met has been nice.
I'm the world's best living screenwriter and will be breaking in soon. I have dedicated my life to delivering kino and you will know my name.
I very much enjoy the films of Jacques Tati.
I'll watch one for you later, anon.
Playtime looks pretty good, I'll watch it and let you know.
Same. Mon oncle and playtime are masterpieces
I genuinely consider pic related the greatest war film of all time and cannot recommend it highly enough.
sometimes I get sad and cut myself
dont do that anon think of what pepe would say
Me too anon
I'm being honest when I say this: Please have a nice day.
just stop
>this board sucks! this site has gone to shit!
>Ill just make my 500th thread complaining about this here...
>what do you mean l-leave?! ive been here since 2015 (thats BEFORE election cancer, newfags!)
It's a quote from the whale, t.rex.
There's nowhere else to go.
I want to kill myself
Nobody in any position of power gives a single solitary shit about you, learn a practical skill
it was amazing
bros, I'm dying.
it's been an honor.
it's over bros
really?
I love you
Based on my viewings of True Detective season 1 I can confirm that Nic Pizzolatto helped start pizzagate
I'm so burned out burned out burned out. It's been years now and things just go away. I only feel manic universal happiness or purely numb.
Even when things seem to go my way for an instant. This girl, my girlfriend is coming over for a week and so far I don't feel a thing. My dick doesn't work due to nerves and impotence and some other stuff. But besides that my heart isn't overlowing. I don't know what to tell her. It's like I'm not really here. I'm sad. It's hard to say that kind of thing. I don't know.
It's better to let her know what's going on, than to let her think it's something she is doing wrong. You just tell her you have something kinda serious to discuss, and say, "I'm not trying to lay a trip on you, I'm not asking you to do anything about it, I just don't want you to think it's your fault that I'm being like this. I'm cripplingly depressed, and I don't know what to do about it, nor do I have any plans regarding what to do about it".
terrible advice
you might have dopamine/seratonin imbalance, which would explain the mood shifts and maybe also the sexual problems.
could also be thyroid related, either too low or too high.
go to have a blood test at the doctor, you have to request it.
ask for a full hormone panel blood test with thyroid. say you haven't felt yourself for a while and that someone recommended you check your hormone levels out.
just insist.
hormones can seriously affect your perspective on things, so while you're inside it, you can see things for how they really are.
just do it and don't think about it.
it might be a lot of other stuff besides that, but it might be one thing that can be sorted and could lead to giving you a basis to fix the rest.
t.ranny
no.
you've been brainwashed into thinking the word 'hormone' means chud.
you probably think morons are people too
I'm actually happy with my life ATM, lurking here is just too much fun so I still do it about 90 minutes a day
I'm 31 and probably the biggest loser on this board. I have literally nothing in my life. I'm absolutely despondent about it but I feel that the change needed to fix myself is so insurmountable I don't even see a point. especially thinking about an entire lifetime wasted with no happy memories. I don't see the point in anything. I spend most of my waking hours wanting to kill myself but I'm too afraid to.
>lifetime
If it's any consolation, 31 years isn't that long. You still have literally decades of life left and plenty of time to turn things around
>31 years isnt that long
what are you talking about man. i have left my childhood, my teens, and my 20s with nothing to show for them. socially, romantically, life milestones, career, i have nothing. literally not a single happy memory of my entire life to look back on. and the worst part is that all my problems stem from a lack of social life but now i have become so jaded and misanthropic that most people just annoy the fuck out of me
take up skiing
That's my age and I'm big and strong with a big dick but when I was 18 I suffered a rare skin condition that basically left my head looking like I've been a victim of an acid attack, never had a job never had a gf just waiting to die and trying to do the best I can for the people who care about me
i had a shit skin condition for over ten years starting when i was 18 too. they never explained it, and in the end it sort of went away by itself.
it cut out a massive portion of my life though and made me more or less not exist.
i managed to find my way out of it, for a couple of years, then life threw worse shit at me.
i really feel like i've been cursed, as in someone actively chose me to suffer for some reason, because i don't see other people having this shit happen to them.
i didn't want much, just a pretty simple life, i wasn't greedy i don't think.
i know how you feel dude. i've just been waiting to die for years.
maybe you should buy a jason mask and start your own live action film.
That sucks, I hope you find your footing. From what you're saying it seems like not all is lost just that there were a few pitfalls along the way. I wish I was born in a different country or a under different circumstances. Like into a family with a farm where I could just work all day out of sight and out of mind a be useful. It is what it is, life isn't fair.
had similar kinds of feeling to that, wanted a simpler life.
maybe you can find a place to be, have you tried farm or forestry work. you could also try volunteer stuff.
once people in a team see you're good and trustworthy they'll accept you.
i think you need something like that so you can start feeling yourself.
I try and stay buy, like today I spent a few hours setting up a gaming pc I built for my cousin. But you're totally right what I should so is put myself out there I'm sure there are plenty of volunteer spaces in the area, like dog shelters at whatnot but in reality what I want is a bullet in the head while I sleep because I can't ever see myself forming a relationship or family, just being honest.
you're stuck in this game man, might as well try some different character choices.
think of it like you're in an mmorpg and your character generation was bugged or something, you aren't satisfied with the character, but you can either hang around the start zone or you can just do all the quests you can and try out different skills. you're in the game anyway.
things could be far far worse. you don't want to imagine how, it is hard to see from your perspective now, because things seem to suck to such a horrible degree, but then think about it, your body works well, you're strong like you said, you have knowledge and skills, your dick works, you can see/hear/taste/smell/touch fine, you think pretty clearly. you seem to be a decent human being.
like they say, try to count your blessings. i don't mean delude yourself, but take pleasure in the things you do have, maybe learn to enjoy nature - i don't mean in a hippy way, but a lot is the angle you see the world at.
volunteering might help.
helping people or animals, or even forests/plants. and appreciating them.
it might help to heal what you feel.
i wish you luck man.
God I wish, maybe this spring/summerI will fucking bash my retarded self restraint into submission and actually reach out into the world again. It seems so easy just talking about it. Hope the best for you to fella.
don't wait for the right time or the right motivation or anything like that.
start in some small way, however tiny, and do that. the moment you do the first thing, even spending 2 minutes looking up some info about one subject that you've thought of but never researched, then it starts becoming more real, and you start believing in yourself and it.
even if it is just to discount one idea, or to find or try another. it is a step forward.
start writing notes on your ideas, look some stuff up, then apply to it.
if you want to do something different, even for just a few months, maybe look into some training courses and do some of those.
you just have to forget all the mental obstacles, and do it, even if it feels silly.
Now imagine being that age, a loser, and also a drug addict. It could always be worse, some people have wasted more and others have overcome worse.
I'm a pre-op transexual and I'm about as progressives as they come but I can't stand to be around black people. Say what you want about white people but they are nowhere near as transphobic, racist, violent or regressive as the average black person. The hypocrisy is from some is astounding. I want a better life for them (for everyone really) but I don't want to be near them in large groups.
It's not a race thing, It's a culture thing. I grew up in rural Canada and the black fellas I grew up with are just like everyone else here. If you live in the USA, my condolences, my country is fucked up, but holy shit, America is a wildly fucked up place
>transphobic, racist
Nothing wrong with either of those
PS, YWNBAW bro
when i was in the third grade, i thought that i was gay
you were
Did you go to public school?
I love movies about repression in the early 20th century
I have severe mental issues which I distract myself from with exercise and consumerism
I was raised to fit a world that never existed
I love Jenny Nicholson!
I have to do a miracle week of work or I will lose my degree in my final year after passing every class without difficulty. Everyday I feel like shit and I want to cry.
I'm so depressed. I could really use a hug. I don't think I've had any physical contact for over 500 days. I'm so sick of this fucking world. I'm tired, always tired.
Honest question, not shitposting, are you white?
yes
Don't other types of people have real feelings?
It's a yes or no question Mirsham.
You got a fucking answer and then didn't follow up.
Oh shit lol, sorry been drinking a little bit and didn't realize, yeah in that case it's 100% his own fault, assuming it's a guy, which I'm pretty sure it is.
You don't know the circumstances of anyone's life. It doesn't matter if you're white or black or yellow or red, if you get fucked over by life or fate or circumstance or whatever you want to call it, the result is the same.
biologically speaking, no, not really.
No.
>I don't think I've had any physical contact for over 500 days
>500 days
thats all?
I haven't spoken to anyone in real life for over 6 months either.
Sometimes I fart and it stinks.
I am probably non-binary.
That's probably not even a real thing.
and most importantly, thank YOU, the person reading this
Thank me? No, THANK YOU!
I love you. I'm in love with you
n-no, thank you anon
love when video games do this, has a movie ever done this?
You talking to me? Huh..? You talking to me?
im an emotional mess without Venvase
cant get work done as well
vyvanse?
Yep. Have you ever been on it?
Yea, my life at the time was either great or terrible. There was no inbetween and I abused my prescription regularly
Everytime Hollywood blackwashes a traditionally white intellectual property, it makes me hate morons a little bit more.
I just want a good Superman movie Op. Why the fuck is that so hard?
Superman from 1970 just won’t be able to be topped. Pure kino
You are not going to get better than the Donner Superman even with the dated effects. Christopher Reeve just nailed it. Superman, fake Metropolis Clark and real Clark Kent. He was just perfect and won't be surpassed
i have a feeling everyone is already dead.
something's really not right.
had this realisation tonight but had the feeling for years.
We are in hell.
have a nice day
Doctors said I had 6 months, so I started drinking and smoking every day, that was about four years ago, still feel pretty good. Looking forward to Kung Fu Hustle 2 if I make it that far.
I want to go back to school so bad but I dropped out 10 years ago and fear failure.
me need to peepee but too comfy to get up
I’ve been here off and on for over 14 years and now married with kids. I still love movies so come back on at night to see what’s up. Unfortunately there hasn’t been anything good in years it feels like. Everything has to be black and gay. So I look out for older stuff I haven’t seen or haven’t seen in a while. Hope anyone that’s reading this is doing well. I’ve always enjoyed talking with anons over the years.
I have more than likely called you a fagot at some point, you're still a gay, but I wish you and your family well.
I have given up on myself, or at least of achieving happiness.
Also, I think "The Whale" weirdly skirts around the fact that he's committing suicide in front of his daughter.
God that movie was such dogshit but still better than anything else that was released in the past year
fuck you
I haven't tried to get a girlfriend because I move every few months to do low paid field technician work. I have decided to learn everything about the history of Rome to escape from the bleak insignificance of my own life. This has unintentionally cured me of any suicidal urges but now I want to acquire land where I grew up and make alcohol on it. And be around family and my true friends.
>I have decided to learn everything about the history of Rome to escape from the bleak insignificance of my own life.
Have you tried the "History of Rome" podcast, anon? It's really good.
I'm on episode 112, everyone in the empire has become mentally disabled and the legions keep ruining everything. I've also read The Enneads and am currently reading a compilation of Cicero. Next I'll read Lucretius' On the Nature of Things. Someone also linked a Romanian movie called Dacii that I plan on watching.
It's interesting how things went to shit every time someone under 30 became emperor.
Fuck Russia. Chine loses as well. Dump the casholla, brosiph. I WILL PROTECT TAIWAN
I will masturbate tonight. I won't enjoy it. My dick will not even be fully erect but it's what I do.
planning on something gay or straight tonight?
I want France to revolt hard enough to start the powder keg everywhere else only so I feel everyone's made of organic matter again, not this pointless manequinism
i can't get a job because i just can't be bothered to deal with people and all the paperwork and numbers and passwords and shit
they make giving them money a chore
and i'd rather basically live like a homeless person as long as i can
i don't really mind working Cinemaphile is fun because you just peacefully get on with it
This afternoon i clicked something i shoudn't have, and done something i shoudn't have. Now i can't stop thinking about it and i'm probably in a list already. I wish god have mercy upon me. Porn destroyed my brain and i keep making horrible decisions.
I love myself, but after this, i don't think so. I proven myself to be a horrible human being.
Not sure what you've done mate but nothing is irredeamable .
Might wanna scrub your hard drive or something, anon.
Most of you are grown men who live with their parents. They want their privacy too and they resent you every time they notice a couple more years pass and you still you do not have a plan to leave. Someday they'll pass so you'll be homeless. Even if you were given the home you wouldn't be able to pay the taxes on it.
>paying taxes
I moved out of home 16 years ago.
just let me wfh i don't need to sit around having to pretend to be nice to people i hate
>Most of you are grown men who live with their parents. They want their privacy too
my parents do nothing but work (even though they "retired") because they have no friends or hobbies, and spend every night watching television in separate rooms
>Even if you were given the home you wouldn't be able to pay the taxes on it.
Why do Americans accept property taxes?
If you're not moderately well-read and well-versed in culture in general (music, paintings, previous movies) you'll often feel lost and outside looking in when watching movies in general. Culture is one, you have to educate yourself in several areas
I can't maintain long term relationships
I've never had a gf
I'm failing my studies
My father is dying
I'm broke
Soon my house of cards will collapse and everyone will know I'm a failure and a fraud
are you cool though?
can i vibe wit chu?
if you like doing drugs and fucking prostitutes, we'll get on fine
do something about it now before it all falls then.
don't wait for it, don't procrastinate. just start right now in any way you can.
you know what you have to do.
find a way to improve your studies, get a part time job, even a few hours a week will help. save as much as you can.
then find time to spend with your father every day, good time. talk to him. tell him stuff, ask him about stuff.
you have to make yourself stronger. you will do it.
you're right but I just don't want to
I am a horrible person and deserve my fate
i don't think it is a matter of wanting to. it is that you have to do it and there is no one else to do it. you have to say "fuck it, I'LL do it then!" and just do it. don't rely on mood or want, just do it because no one else will.
like you'd see your dad do a chore he didn't want to do, or your grandad.
they probably didn't want to either, but at some point they realised no one else was going to do it, and they took up that responsibility on themselves.
doesn't matter what kind of person you are, but the reality is that in the future you will need to be the guy doing these things, so start now. do it for the guy in the future, not for yourself.
and when you reach the future, say thanks to the guy in the past who gave you a break and did the hard work that meant you were in a better spot and not in the shit.
then think again at that point, about the guy in the future, and do it for him.
Honestly? I'm a huge Peanuts fan. Love Charlie Brown and Linus and Pigpen and everyone. I've read every single Peanuts comic that was every published. I love Peanuts.
My parents deserved a better son.
Brother. Did you try? That's all that matters.
I had parents who smoked crack. A lot.
I tried. That want to get high is instilled. I fucked up so many great jobs.
I have only watched a movie from begin to end once.
Whenever I see stories of people committing suicide, especially children of celebrities, rather than feeling sad I feel admiration for them having the courage to do that. I also had a cousin who was from rich parents and seemed to have everything going for her in life but she overdosed on a drug/alcohol combination when she was in her early 20s and I regularly look back and envy her.
Dying in your 20's is based, I'm about to turn 30 which means I'll probably be cursed to live until I'm 70-80.
okay
it is in everyone's best interest that humanity not continue. think about it
given enough time someone WILL invent a way to resurrect people and put them in a tube and torture them forever. someone will invent a way to bring you back, put your head in a jar, and prod your eyeballs and fry your skin and fill your brain with the most horrible torment and pain imaginable for ALL TIME. think about the worst pain you've ever felt now multiply it by 100x and imagine it never ends. that is what awaits you if humanity continues. the ethical thing to do is to stop having children. everyone.
humanity NEEDS to end before this happens, before we invent literally hell on earth. it is ENTIRELY in your best interest to advocate for everyone not having kids.
meds now
ZERO argument against this. if humanity just keeps going and going and going you really think nobody will ever invent a way to bring people back and that it wouldnt be used for nefarious purposes? seriously? you're fucking retarded lmao
if i don't know nothin and i aint nobody then nobody finna torture me
i'm just an idiot doing nothing don't anybody need this brain
A worm hole? Back in time? Or just incubated clones? Both are plausible.
You've been reading too many of your faggy comic books. Immortality doesn't exist and never will, regardless of what your pop scientists tell you.
oh okay so you'd rather hedge your bets against virtually INFINITE TIME of research into it? very smart. why not just advocate for humanity to end instead of betting it maybe possibly wont happen?
Why don't you just have a nice day?
Why would anyone do this to someone that wasn't famous? What torture me cause I voted trump?if we had the technology now nobody would be doing it to torture people
who knows. maybe its a future science-jihadi cult that feels it religiously necessary to resurrect and torture infidels
its naïve to think we 1000% understand consciousness and that the sensation of "you" seeing out of your eyes, couldnt be brought back. im asking you to imagine literally 500,000 more years into the future here
Why do you think that in 500,000 years we'll understand how to perfectly recreate someone that existed in the past in such a way that that long dead person will exist in the future?
they cloned a sheep in the 90s but it was a bit botched, if they have a sample of someones DNA they could clone them probably in the future assuming the DNA sample didnt degrade too much over time. They probably cant clone Hitler becuase none of his DNA exists anywhere in order to clone him and have someone raise him as their own son to see if he grows up to be a chud in a study of nature vs nurture.
but the clone isn't me so why should I care?
it wont have your memories, i guess it would kind of be like an artifically created identical twin. But in a way you are living on, your genes get another shot at life.
yep, but at the end of the day it's not me
I'm asking you to take your meds
How does someone become this mentally ill?
There are people here who have suffered more than you can imagine
Because getting off your fat ass and reaching the fridge is a road trip?
I came hardy even afford to eat. I'm no one's idea of fat.
>I can think it therefore it is possible
Given enough time someone WILL invent for me a perfect tomboy gf that doesn't shave her armpits or pussy and likes to suck my dick.
y'know, I used to think antinatalists were retarded, but this post has me convinced you're onto something real here
Jokes on them, I plan on getting cremated.
>resurrect
That won't be me, will be a copy of me so I don't care. I will be long dead and forgotten by then.
oh okay so you're just betting that it wont happen
a very silly bet
I'm saying it won't happen like you say. If it happens it's just gonna be cloning or, if I happen to be alive, a digital copy of me. Neither is me since once I die it's the end for me.
If I don't sleep with the tv playing iCarly or Everybody Hates Chris, I have an anxiety attack.
My dad is my hero and him and my HS friends are responsible for me turning out a cool guy that got a woman. Also I love Donald trump.
I love autists on here
based night show sleeper
we need some late night sleepcore
nick teen sitcoms are pretty good, pretty much all nick at night stuff is good tbh
personally i’d add shows like psyche and the original YGO anime as good comfy shows to fall asleep too as well.
occassionally some early adult swim stuff like space ghost and sealab also do the trick
had a really stressful time once, went to try to sleep and my heart was beating hard and fast like thunder for an hour or so, like my body couldn't calm down.
i put the tv on and it zoned me out quite soon after, heart became normal and i fell asleep thankfully.
i know it doesn't sound like much, but it was hours before that too, and it might as well have been an anaesthetic in terms of how effective it was.
that time was particularly noticable.
tv has a hypnotic effect, i guess it's been a companion for a long time.
I'm a married man with children and I've spent a decade in here and the things I've learned and the friends I've laughed with is invaluable to my story
I'm a compulsive liar and one day people are going to see me for the fraud I am.
But whatever, this is a TV board, so let's talk about movies. You guys ever see Misery? It's based on a Stephen King novel, and it's a pretty good suspense/horror movie. I liked Kathy Bates performance, but I think James Caan was the one who really captivated me, he transmited the horror, vulnerability, and charisma of his character extremely well.
HEY, PAUL!
Yeah i've seen it
You need to stop lying, anon. I've seen Misery too many times to count and I don't even like it. I wish James Caan spoke up a bit more about why he was being kidnapped or tried to change her mind instead of passively accepting it. COCKADOODY!
I'M GONNA KILL YOU, YOU LYING COCKSUCKER
What was her problem?
God fucking damn it, I forgot the fucking arrow, I'm gonna kill myself
I once fucked up and deleted a post 3 times in a row. no one ever called me out but i stared at them in the archive for a half hour.
Hmmm
hey, i told you never to call me at work. you fucking freak
I miss my brother. I think about him everyday.
what happened?
He died of cancer. I got to watch him slowly go. I can still hear him moaning in pain. He was my only real friend.
jesus christ, sorry to hear that. How old was he?
That's horrible, he should have been given one big dose of morphine and that's it. You are a good brother for staying by him.
There is no real reason for the poetry lecture from Encolpius at the beggining of Petronius Satyricon. It doesn't mesh well with the rest of the text and even as someone who read all of Plato and Homer I didn't understand much of it. I wonder if it was originally intended for some other story or essay and it got lumped in with the other fragments somehow.
And FUCK frogposting
im such a loser im pretending im going out with my friends to my gf
that way she wont think im a loser who stays at home 24 7
I mean that applies for just about any other post here.
>we coulda got this
>instead we got this
WE WERE SO FUCKING ROBBED BROS
I'm not afraid of hard work, manual labor can be meditative under the right conditions. I just want to live in the forest in a log cabin. I want to grow things, build stuff, and see physical manifestations of the fruits of my labor. Maybe be a farmer, literally. Being a wagie sounds like hell on earth. I hate people and want to be away from them but I also need them. I just want to stop thinking. I want peace and quiet the constant fighting is too much sometimes.
You might like Robin Wright's "Land", anon.
I pray a nuclear war happens and everyone in this city gets vaporized
I'm more attracted to shota doujinshi than real women...
literally every single poster in this thread could be saved by doing psychedelics
I haven't been able to get any lsd for a couple of years.
Can I do that alone? I don't trust anyone
Yes. I've never done it with anyone else.
ive heard so many people say DUDE SHROOMS AND LSD CHANGED MY PERSPECTIVE ON SO MUCH. I LITERALLY THINK OF LIFE DIFFERENTLY
fast forward a few months and they are living exactly the same, they process things exactly the same, they get mad at the same shit and get happy at the same shit, nothing fucking changes.
It does and can but it's hard to hold on to in the long run. When I've done it its like it resents my perspective and lifts the mental stuff that's been weighing me down. It's hard to ultimately escape everyday life.
>it does but it doesn't
right.
it's just more masturbation you fags are doing. it doesn't change you. it doesn't make you a better person. it probably makes you a worse person, since you're spending your time masturbating and rationalizing this fundamentally narcissistic activity as somehow beneficial. this is like when fags say that "feminine penises" aren't gay. no man. lusting after cock is lusting after cock. and getting high to feel good is getting high to feel good.
You're just talking shit about something you don't understand. I get that you're too scared to try it. The other anon explained it better than I did. You seem to be equating lsd to booze or weed. It's not the same experience at all and I would never treat it as such. It's a once or twice a year kind of thing and unless you've experienced it you can't understand it.
you probably didn't notice this, but you're not even disagreeing with me. you're just rationalizing your masturbation as not bad because you're a narcissist and ashamed about it. well, at least that's good, I guess. too bad you didn't stumble upon that realization. almost like the """insights""" are just delusions resulting from your brain literally breaking apart. woooooh, I'm so in tune with the world, and shit! meanwhile, you're ACTUALLY just sitting there trying to have a conversation with your dog, because you're having a psychotic episode. and then afterwards you actually think that you did have a conversation with your dog, because your brain was damaged by the drug-induced psychotic episode.
LSD will make you rethink things and abandon your preconceptions, very literally. It's part of what it does to your brain, forces you to actually process information instead of your brain instantly jumping to its pre-prepared conclusion. If asked 2+2 while on LSD you will work out the answer in your head.
Of course, if you don't actually ask any meaningful questions of yourself or do any actual soul searching you're probably just going to end up thinking you're thinking something really profound but you're actually just stupid and on drugs saying 'dude we're like.. all connected'
Psychadelic therapy works but the 'therapy' part is kind of important to the process.
>hey bro... why is fucking kids wrong? if they enjoy it too, y'know?
>shit bro, you're right!
and you're now a pedo. enjoy your LSD
i trully love my soon to be wife
like i legit start crying thinking how much i want her to be happy and how i wanna be there
its pure devotion
however i feel like im not worthy of her love and in not gonna be capable to provide kids and happiness
such a terrible feeling
>Write me something fucking honest.
I want to be vored by a 15 feet tall, obese Christina Hendricks.
I don't really watch any movies or shows.
i think that's most of the real posters on this board.
I form intense inappropriate emotional attachments to women for almost no reason and when they inevitably reject or abandon me it makes me feel like I am dying and to avoid feeling like that I make increasingly desperate attempts to get them to like me which just ends in threats of reporting me to the authorities
I asked the doctors for benzos and they weren't dumb enough to give them to me. If they had, there is a legitimate possibility I may have killed myself this week because a girl I had never spoken to might not like me and I may never get the chance to talk to her, and this has made me feel like I am on the verge of a heart attack for almost 3 weeks straight now and I simply want it to end
this might stop happening if you had a real relationship. your obsessions might go away, a lot of it is fantasy based.
don't know how you go about having a relationship though - but maybe cognitive behavioural therapy could help. have a read about it.
It helped somewhat when I did have one, however I was extremely suHispanicious(for somewhat good reasons) that ultimately put too much of a strain on things. Lots of those feelings don't actually go away. I wish it were fantasy based because then it would be a lot more controllable but the simple fact is that when you have people that have these extreme forms of attachment that I do it's because I experience emotions differently from other people. I am actually totally aware exactly of what the psychological issues themselves are, but there is very little you can do to change the way your brain is wired and it takes a lot of effort and time regardless, in therapy, which I have not been able to get into and stay in, and with social support, which I reflexively distance myself from.
If I were more of a normal person I could probably get a relationship very easily. But I have a habit of scaring women off as soon as they get close to me. My neediness and emotionality, which I see no problem with, is inherently disgusting to women. I have no desire to be less dependent because I strongly feel like people who are not totally committed to their relationships are awful people, and I strongly enjoy spending time with any potential partner, and don't care about anything else when the opportunity presents itself. But there are very few people out there that want that, or can even stomach it, and most of them are just as damaged as I am, but far less aware, and doomed to fail. Plus they are women, so even if they are exactly the same, they have an in-built tendency to view this behavior as inherently unattractive.
anon your symptoms and behavior sound like BPD. Have you tested for BPD yet?
Yes, they are exactly BPD and it's not a question. I am close to being diagnosed but you can't fix it with a pill and can only modestly control it. That's actually not true, the worst aspects can be totally controlled with benzos for a limited duration, but benzos give you brain damage and there is a risk for dependency and obviously just having them presents as a suicide risk for me. I legitimately have already tried to kill myself with benzos and I probably will again but there's no other real options for controlling the emotional pain I feel with rejection so if I don't want to get kicked out of school for stalking and harassing girls I probably need them
I struggle with exactly the same crap, I have BPD too. Come here, anon. I know exactly what you struggle with. People say all kinds of shit and demonize us but the truth is we are simply too sensitive for this world
and for the record i would never criticize you for being emotional and needy nor would i be repulsed by that. In fact, I see honesty in that. You show how vulnerable you are to people, you open up and all you get in return is disgust. Boy, do i know how that feels
Thank you anon. It is hard. I wish things were easier for the both of us. Wouldn't wish this hell on anyone. It does feel very unfair, to be honest
have a good night anon
i don't know how long your relationship was, but i think if you are in one you can work on yourself and have more of a realistic view, more balanced, without being fake or losing yourself.
it is small changes over time, and making constant decisions so that your brain is trained a certain way so that it eventually naturally sits like that, while still being true to yourself.
have a read about cognitive behavioural therapy, it is about changing habits/behaviour as in actions, which in turn over time leads to changes in the brain, rather than the other way around.
you aren't nuts, but maybe during upbringing or something you missed out on something, or maybe you're just more sensitive or need something else. you can finish off the proper formation of those parts of the brain now though, just be patient and it will happen, even if it takes a few years, bit by bit.
it's more like building habits, than constant effort. the beginning is the hard part, but look back and think about what you've improved in your life compared to the past and you'll see you've already done a lot.
I am more emotionally sensitive and was a very empathic child but was raised in an emotionally volatile environment and I was also raped by some other kids when I was really young. Probably also experienced abandonment and dejection/disappointed my caretakers who had extremely high standards for me(who the fuck can play piano at 5 years old)
There's actually a fair amount of structural malformation in the frontal lobe, specifically the orbitofrontal cortex and other parts of the PFC and the amygdala in BPD. As far as I'm aware you can't really fix the reduced mass in these areas, but parts can be rewired over time as you said.
You're right of course. At the end of the day I need to be in therapy and to make small changes. Wait times have been annoying and I already burned myself with a previous psych institution so I've had to switch.
Thank you anon. I can't really control my emotions so I started to cry at the end of this post. You did not have to write these things for me but you did. Thank you
that's alright dude.
i don't know what kind of psychiatrists etc you've spoken to or looked into, but from what i've read before, bpd has fairly decent success rates of treatment with cognitive behavioural therapy, like i said.
i don't think medicines are the answer, they just mute symtpoms, but cbt makes sense when done consistently over a long period of time.
as for brain areas, like you said the brain is adaptive. there have been people with severe physical brain trauma, injuries and so on, that have managed to recover, their brain reroutes and makes use of other parts for the functions they require, it just needs some time and patience and reminding to rewire to those parts.
one of the first things is learning to consciously recognise the times when your behaviours/emotions are happening, and tell yourself "this is one of those times". the step after that is to try to calm them down, or even distract yourself, or have a replacement/alternative thing/habit you do whenever you recognise it happening.
over time, that redirection or distraction can calm the behaviour and make it more manageable. then you can build new things on top of that.
it isn't easy or quick, but it isn't impossible either, and it will become a bit better each time.
I've been on this site since 2005 and haven't really experienced any enjoyment from it since all the chud/moron/havesex/drumpf posting started years ago but I only browse it from the toilet and I shit for like 20 minutes each time and don't really have any other website I want to be on that long so I just keep coming here hoping it'll get better at some point. It doesn't.
don't know when i started but it was probably 2006/7 - i have stopped for lengths of time between now and then, sometimes a year at a time, sometimes just very infrequent viewing.
i stopped /b/ quite a few years ago because it became ultra shit.
i started coming to /misc/ to clear my habit somewhat, since it was inoffensive and i didn't really care about anything that was posted here anyway.
i dunno, we're stuck here until life becomes interesting enough not to come here.
nothing wrong with literal shitposting.
no, it will never improve, it was absolute dogshit in the first place, but yet there was a thousand times the amount of goodness to it at that time.
My life is pretty good too be honest, I just go here because I don't know what else to do on the can. I tried reading, but it takes some processing power and I end up focusing on the story instead of forcing my IBS-ridden bowels to do their fucking job so nothing ends up happening.
I guess it's mostly the politics that's pissing me off, it used to be somewhat ironic or just poking fun but these days the only thing people talk about is how everything is politics and everything is fucked and although that's certainly true, I go here to get away from that shit not to be pelted by it. If I wanted that I'd just read the fucking news.
buy a puzzle book.
first few times will suck, after a few weeks you'll start enjoying them.
try all different kinds of puzzles, see which ones you like.
you won't miss anything by not coming here for a few weeks, so set yourself a mission to skip here for 3-4 weeks, maybe don't take your phone to the toilet at all, and take a little pocket puzzle book instead.
can be thinking puzzles, crosswords, riddles etc.
for a while now, i've been playing a crappy puzzle game on the 10-15 minute train ride to work. it was free for some reason a year or two ago. i didn't think much of it at first, but it has a lot of levels and requires a bit of thought, but the levels/puzzles don't take that long to do. if i don't solve it within 5-10 minutes i just try the next time.
i've almost never played it outside of that train ride.
My life is crumbling away and there's almost nothing I can do about it except just struggle. And it's not even my fault. And there's no hope.
I keep coming here because I come from a country with a culture different enough that this place always takes me out of my reality and distracts me, almost like it's a whole other world with a completely different context where I'm also a different person.
I guess life sometimes can fuck you so hard there's nothing to do and there is no single comforting thought to have other than imagining myself an old man doing a hobby some day or just dying in my sleep.
Internet is truly a wonder in these times, the only reason I can still regain sanity.
I don't know how people would escape from reality back in the day, I guess reading, or writing, or drawing, but it all seems much worse than the Internet.
P.S.
Jazz threads and Harry Potter threads are the best on /misc/, in my opinion.
P.P.S
I reread the post and it sounds too bitchy, so don't worry, I will probably make it somehow.
>I come from a country with a culture different enough that this place always takes me out of my reality and distracts me, almost like it's a whole other world
are you from Russia by chance, anon?
Unfortunately.
how is life in russia? you ever thought about getting out of there, im curious since ive talked to some here and they want to stay in russia
not that anon but i am a Ruski so I can elaborate. Man, where do I start lol. I think about getting out here every single day because life is getting more dangerous here by the day and not just because of the new conscription wave, the entire country is overwhelmed by ethnic crime committed by mudlsime immigrants that commies import by thousands ever day. You think Canada has a migration problem? Gimme a break. Russia is drowning in violent crime and poverty. We probably aren't any different from failed states like Mexico and Zimbabwe
/misc/ helps me escape this reality to an extent though I can not neither relate nor empathize with most of the 1st world problems you guys post about in off-topic threads
was russia a good place before the tsar and his family were killed? or did it always have this undercurrent of drunk criminal character.
i read a lot of old russian folk tales, from 100-200 years ago at least, and it seems a decent place, isolated people, but a lot more sane seeming.
the garden gnomes killed russia's spirit when they killed the tsar, and everything since has been because of it.
most russian's i've met - all while outside of russia, have been pretty cool, with a sense of humour.
>was russia a good place before the tsar and his family were killed?
I dunno, the Russian empire was a little before my time kek. But yeah life certainly used to be infinitely better before the garden gnomes took over. Not western Yurop tier good but at least we had real prospects and people were not dying of hunger by millions
>did it always have this undercurrent of drunk criminal character
well there was always a stratum of lowlife poor criminals in society but the commies made them and their way of life mainstream. It is still like that today.
>the garden gnomes killed russia's spirit when they killed the tsar
if only it was just the star. The garden gnomes killed most everyone who had something to do with monarchy, science, art, culture
maybe one day in the future, people there will remember who they are and russia will become russia again.
or maybe that time has passed, and only comes once, and will only be remembered as an idea in the folk tales.
the whole world has been cancered, not just russia.
russia was just one of the first to be really brutalised by the garden gnomes.
the french "revolution" was pretty similar really, killed off anyone with proper blood ties to the country, anyone with morals, and left the rabble to eat each other while the garden gnomes took power.
that's why there are 950k yids in france now, more than the rest of europe combined.
after ww2 they scaled up their plans to destroy every other decent country, rip it apart, flood it with foreigners and destroy the souls of the people.
if this is the end of beauty and civilisation, and human striving, i would rather it came as an asteroid hitting the earth and just ending things completely and abruptly. not this poisoning and corruption.
is irkutsk not a better area to live? i heard it has a ton of chinese tourists though.
That time has passed I'm afraid. Most people here don't think like I do. They don't see or prefer not to see how everything is fucked up beyond repair here. Most people in their 40s and older seem to have Soviet mindset engraved in their minds terminally. Perhaps that is what a hundred years of commie abuse and torture does to a mf.
>is irkutsk not a better area to live?
never been to that area but I don't have any reason to think that it's any different to other Russian cities. Why Irkutsk in particular?
met someone from irkutsk and she seemed really healthily minded, happy, decent and moral, with a sense of humour. she liked where she came from, was happy to be going back after a short holiday, wanted to show me about the place.
given in most countries then different regions have very different feelings, outlooks and so on, i would expect that if you haven't been near there, it would be worth you visiting it to see if the feeling is different.
it's only a week or so by train
Russia was amazingly comfortable in 2000-2017. Nowadays people are fleeing everywhere and most of the places, even european countries, have some downsides in terms of day-to-day comfort judging by reports. If I were to sum up things, russian IT and in general russian client-oriented businesses were very very good.
At least from my experience:
Everything had a website, everything that needed a mobile app had a good mobile app, phone support was high level and responsive, buying everything was very easy in one click and safe, and would arrive very soon. Kazakhstan is very underdeveloped in this area. The biggest country bank here can somewhat compete in terms of IT and comfort with maybe some regional banks in Russia. There're no good big online marketplaces, a lot of businesses work through damn WhatsApp. No one-click ordering here.
Overall, Russia was very developed for consumers. And it was all against the odds, unfortunately. Everything else in country was going to shit constantly. But there was this feeling among younger people that the soviet fucks will die and it will be our turn, we just have to outlast and work on our own lives until then, because we're a small minority.
I'm sure some people are not like me and don't give a fuck. And maybe some are even lucky or smart and they didn't get fucked by 2014 or 2022 crisis somehow. But if you know history, and if you read books, and you're not a lobotomized-level of calamity person, then you will start going insane in Russia just reading the news even once a week for years. It's just too difficult to live losing hope every day. I'm sure that this is the number one reason the top level male suicide rates, alcoholism, and gender life expectancy gap in Russia.
that sounds rough anon, the online optimisation part is especially grim. i can't imagine life without delivery app lol shows how dependant on technology we've become. you sound lucid and self-conscious, don't let outside sources get you down too much.
Thank you but that was mostly to reply to the Georgian poster wondering if we had it better, which in some ways we did, of course.
I guess I just wanted to make a point that minor comfort is not worth going insane from the stress for, so countries like Kazakhstan and Georgia attract fleeing russians for a good reason.
i am georgian poster...
but i get what you mean, i was mostly talking about economy and russian power, life in georgia is peaceful enough so you should come too if you need
Right now I'm in Kazakhstan, but settling here for good is problematic unfortunately. As soon as I lose my job I will have to go, either back or to some other country where I would only be able to stay for ~3 months. I just don't want to go back, I made the mistake of deciding to stay 5 years ago, even though I knew where everything was going.
My older cousin has moved his whole family to Netherlands, and his younger brother with his family to Turkey. They both just gave up on 100-150k+ USD apartments in Moscow. All happened this year.
We're all under 36, I'm the youngest at 30. 7 of my colleagues and friends have fled too.
Most of my friends haven't been able to flee and they don't have any means to do so, so they just try to keep their heads down and play videogames and not read the news. People can't even pay for Steam from Russia, they use some tricky ways to send money to their steam wallets. Also most big publishers such as Bethesda and EA don't even list their games to russians anymore.
Yesterday in Moscow, cops in masks and swat gear came to two bars and started beating young dudes and tazing them, forcing them to sing soviet, pro-putin, and pro-war songs on camera. The reason for that was apparently the fact that one employee of one of the two bars had an anti-war position that the cops had found out about.
There was also a young rapper who got sodomized by a dumbbell in a police station a few months ago for reading anti-war poetry out loud.
For 50+ soviet born boomers not much has changed. The mobilization doesn't really affect them, and they don't really use their credit cards for international payments. They either ignore politics or consume insane tv propaganda that takes 8 hours/day on main two cable channels, it's just political shows laughing at Ukraine and USA, gloryfying made up soviet weapons and russian military etc.
They just think everything is fine.
In Russia, the average age is 48+.
>Right now I'm in Kazakhstan
bro wtf lol. Why did you have to choose THAT country of all countries? You will soon (if you haven't already) find out what it's like to live as white minority in Asia lol
t. Russian boy originally from Kaz
why so many russians in this thread kek
i'm georgian but i have family living in russia. you guys seem to have it a lot better than us at least.
also does anyone else also feels super jealous of their towns or countries being featured in TV programmes or youtube? i saw some american girl on youtube homepage visiting tbilisi and it had tons of views, i wanted to personally yell at her to get off my city
>you should really send me a picture of yourself wearing nothing but toilet paper though
kek based
>i'm georgian but i have family living in russia
Please leave immediately, all of you and go back to whatever shithole you come from, take your rotten tomatoes and heroin back with you, we don't want you here
georgian waifu, that's what i want. or what i think i want.
i saw some singers from georgia on a video a year or two ago.
i met a dude from georgia briefly 3-4 years ago and he seemed like an alien dropped into the world, was also the first time i'd seen the script.
spoke to a guy within the last year or two who said georgians really don't like foreigners being there, i think even on holiday, and you've confirmed it.
countryside and such looks nice though.
>georgian waifu
i'm not a femanon, reply elsewhere--
but yeah we don't like outsiders, it's funny because foreign media keeps saying the younger generation is more accepting. i fucking disagree. especially vapid women coming for instagram
hey they're code monkeys for fast food chain they're not grifters. in fact, one of them works at a repurposed mcdonald's restaurant.
mistook you for the imagirl.
what do you think about st. george.
do you have any weird folk tales, are there any things that local people still believe in, in terms of the supernatural?
what's a georgian superstition
I was born here originally. It reminds me of Russia a lot, except without the 70+ year old soviet insanity. Here I can at least play games, accumulate money in something other than crypto or roubles, and chill without any fear of a fucking war or economy crashing completely or civil war.
I had lived in Russia for almost 30 years and got completely fucked twice already (2014 with my salary and savings being cut in half due to 100% inflation, and my pension fund, however small getting "frozen" forever, and 2022), that's enough.
So unless there's a lynch mob that will gut me on the streets I think I'd rather take that rather than constantly living under stress reading the news.
I don't have any illusions about this country, it's just that Russia has set the bar for me so low that I mostly get pleasant surprises. And I'm not really a social person so I don't care in which country to sit at home.
Hah I knew it! I live in this KGB shithole myself and Cinemaphile is my way of coping too
Banshees is the ultimate functionally illiterate filter. The Whale was more grotesque than even picrel. Chinkettes Everywhere All The Time was a deliberate Red China snub to Top Gun 2, but it doesn't matter and American's think nothing of their 'elites', or their 'capture' by foreign funny money/
I haven't felt happy in fifteen years. I'm a shell of who I used to be. Self improvement didn't make me feel better, getting laid didn't make me feel better. Nor did traveling the world or making money. I'm empty. Everything feels gray. Just waiting to die. Hope it's soon.
>I haven't felt happy in fifteen years. I'm a shell of who I used to be. Self improvement didn't make me feel better, getting laid didn't make me feel better. Nor did traveling the world or making money. I'm empty. Everything feels gray. Just waiting to die. Hope it's soon.
Sounds like you're living your very own American Psycho, anon.
I am 26 years old and have been larping as a male in every single website I've ever used for 14 years. I have severe autism and the libido of a wooden door, so I absolutely despise the attention that comes with outing yourself as a girl online. However, lately I've been feeling unbearably guilty about hiding my identity to my internet friends. Some of them I've known for almost a decade. In honesty, I never said I'm male, they just never asked me about my gender because they assumed I'm a guy based on my interests. But it's still a shitty to not tell the truth for so many years.
Talking to guys is freeing. I'd get thrown to a pack of rabid dogs if I ever made a single antisemitic joke to a group of girls. But there are topics a man will not talk about in front of a woman, and vice versa. Men and women will always treat each other differently from their own sex. It sucks, but it is what it is. If anyone in a similar situation is reading this, you should accept this sooner than later. I will tell everyone the truth tomorrow and probably lose many long friendships. Please don't lie to your friends.
if you're attractive, i'll cure you of your lack of libido.
mostly it just comes from the right kind of practice.
also, telling your online contacts won't do much to help, it might ease your conscience but it will make them second guess the past and everything from now on, most will treat you differently.
if you're never going to meet them, you might as well just keep them in the dark, just like you don't tell them other details about yourself.
i've known people online for 10-15 years and never told them my real name, or anything much about my life.
doesn't stop me from knowing 'who' they are and them who i am.
You're probably right. However, my family is Catholic and the weight of our actions is something I was taught a lot as a kid. Lying to so many people, for so long, is making me lose sleep at night.
>if you're attractive, i'll cure you of your lack of libido
Lol Autism makes you look weird. Very baby-faced and plain, like an alcohol baby. I like to believe God made me a prude to keep this shitty disorder from spreading.
> i feel very sad because the people whom i talk to like me for somebody ill never be and it depresses me
You said it, anon. It's a terrible feeling and it looms over every conversation you have. I hope you can make things right at some point.
if it is making you lose sleep, then sort it out. but accept the consequences in your head, as in be able to move forward from it afterwards and trust yourself and your decision, don't second guess yourself either way. that's pretty important.
i don't mind if you're plain, you can be pretty and plain, i'd probably like you to wear dresses though. would you do that for me.
>be able to move forward from it afterwards and trust yourself and your decision, don't second guess yourself either
Not gonna lie, that's easier said than done, but it's the hard truth. I'll probably regret coming out to my friends as soon as I do it, but at some point you gotta reap what you sow, right? The rest will resolve with time.
Gender seems to be anything but irrelevant nowadays, but hopefully you're right about this, anon.
EVERYONE IS GONNA HATE YOU IF YOU TELL THEM YOU'RE A GIRL WITH A PEEPEE VAGINA AND/OR BUTTHOLE.
some will probably immediately want to date you. you'll find that weird for most of them.
if there is one half chad one, you'll accept his advances and if you ever meet him you'll probably find out you aren't as wooden-door like as you think. it'll be more like a bird finding out it can fly and after a while you'll like the whole thing.
might pull you out of your shell - not to sound trite.
you should really send me a picture of yourself wearing nothing but toilet paper though.
thanks for the new copypasta btw but you're 100% lying like I said who cares that you've been lying about being a girl you're gonna get so many of them probably trying to e fuck you though lol but who cares this is quite clearly a larp post.
pls be my e-gf
HAVE YOU EVER DONE SEX
i feel you, i also larp as something as something im not and its pretty stressful to lie about everything, i feel very sad because the people whom i talk to like me for somebody ill never be and it depresses me. Also tits or gtfo
Thank you for your service (I'm not like the other boys)
Doesn't matter
Your 'e-identity' is an extension of your spirit which pilots the flesh suit.
Gender is irrelevant.
They know you as you.
That's the kind of retarded thinking that let this chud trend skyrocket among autists. You are the gender you're born as. No amount of larping will ever change that
I think what he's saying is that when you're online, nobody knows you're a cat
mmm baby girl I can fix you mmmmm how you got facebook baby i FIX YIOUR VAGINA
GOOD MORNING SIRS
LETS GET THE BOBS AND VEGANA
BLOODY DOG BASTARD BOBS AND VEGINNA ARE MINE ALL MINE
GOOD MORNING SIR
sent from my samsung 10 tablet
>However, lately I've been feeling unbearably guilty about hiding my identity to my internet friends
Nice bullshit post gay, how can you have a 10 year firnedship when they've never fucking heard your voice fuck off.
i've known people for longer online that i've only typed to and played games with.
you must be a zoomer who puts his home address online day 1 and posts with his face and voice messages all over, live streams from his house and asks for people to send gifts to his home.
you people are monsters.
Nope, stop trying to guess peoples life I'm just saying it is quite impossible to have a friendship just by a text for that long in todays world but I've made a friend recently who I only talk to through messages but I doubt I would be his friend for another year if we don't talk at least once in a vc and funny because OP is quite literal a "zoomer" if we're gonna use your retarded slang.
do you know what sex is kitten
>this many replies and not a single tits or gtfo
embarrassing
the rules are rules: tits or gtfo
because it is quite clearly a socially inept guy that is just wanting a quick (you) lmao
>he fell for the 14-year old larp
oh no no no he thinks the f*male is actually a fellow anon
dying is a big deal here. if you don't spend lots of money on a relative's funeral the ceremony is considered an embarassment.
Its a larp silly
kek turns out the real autist was ME
its okay anon, we're all special here.
Why can't God give me an antisemitic gf?
The last decade have been varying degrees of living hell. From alcoholism, to drug addiction, to watching my mom, dad, brother and me drift apart. I'm rudderless in a big scary ocean, ill-equipped to deal with life as it is, and have daily intrusive thoughts of shooting myself. I'm afraid to interact with people in any real way, and have a -50 debuff to self confidence.
I really enjoyed The Last of Us, and haven't played the games.
keep running this through your brain in different ways until you fully understand it in a very deep way, the stuff you are afraid of, the scary ocean, interacting with people, revealing yourself, facing your fears and so on - aren't really such big threats to you, they just feel like it because they are the unknown.
now, knowing this, you're saying you think of dying rather than having to face those things.
death is what all life is most afraid of, because it is the end of life, the end of what makes us us.
therefore, every other fear is smaller than that, no matter how it feels.
once you force yourself to confront one of your fears, interacting in a real way, revealing yourself, being truthful, sharing, bonding, risking losing someone, risking humiliation.
then you will begin to defeat that fear, and each time you approach it, you will defeat another part of that fear.
once you do that enough times, those ideas of death will go away and you won't even notice it, because you'll be too involved in living.
find any small way to start, and do that.
I keep rewatching Dario Argento movies, hoping that something will click and I'll finally like them, but I just can't. Most of the horror sequences are too goofy and poorly executed, and the music always feels out of place
I have a family, whom I love dealy. Every day I work, study, and genuinely spend so much energy making my daughter happy and her days full of joy. I wish someone would do that for me
I hate this board. It's no different than Youtube, Reddit or any other shitty website about pop-culture.
Almost every time I see YT recommendations I get angry. I use this website to watch trailers or listen to music (mostly old music) and yet they always recommend me a bunch of stupid shit like videos about animals being saved, SNL "comedy" sketches, video game trailers and similar shit.
It makes me despise modern popular corporate culture more and more.
I’m not white so I never felt weird or bad about my consumption of interracial porn, never thought about how it could influence my developing brain but now I think that instead of internalizing it racially, I’ve internalized it as a male and now I watch those vids and wonder what it’s like being the frail pale rich girl, kind of want to be her.
porn escalation causes fetishes.
your brain doesn't know what it is seeing, even if you do. so it tries to make sense of something that doesn't make any sense - i.e. stimulation without anyone else being there or you being involved in any way.
stop watching porn completely, forever. the first few weeks are the hardest, after that it becomes easier.
no fap for those first few weeks to help break the habit.
after 6 months or so, most of the fetishes will be gone and you won't even think about porn or find it particularly interesting anymore.
beats the shit out of becoming a chud
I got rejected by a female friend and now things are awkward between us
Don’t be a pussy, just be normal like it never happened. Is one of the ways I’ve shown girls I’m into them, say something to very clearly send the message that I think they’re hot and like them, then just move on like it didn’t happen and gauge how they react. It shouldn’t be so dramatic.
Should we still be friends then? I haven't talked to her for days and i do miss her.
>Should we still be friends then? I haven't talked to her for days and i do miss her.
Not that anon.
I'm sorry but he's wrong. You put it out there and you can get the genie back in the bottle. It's never going to be the same again.
Also, watch "When Harry met Sally".
thanks, will check it out later
Have you considered rape
Rape won't make her love me
You underestimate the female brain
I had sex with a girl but we weren't married so now I'm going to hell ):
Everything's gonna be okay.
It will not and there's nothing we can do about it.
It will, bitch.
i don't actually like watching movies but i force myself to watch them so i can shitpost
I wish more people would read my novels and tell me what they think about them.
what are the chances of a ''novel'' not being gay shit
When I read something on Cinemaphile I can only imagine the person who typed it either has a neckbeard or looks like the basedjak maymay. Anybody else think like this?
one time I was with my gf and wearing her bra and panties and shitposting on /misc/. I'm a skinny twink looking feller. She said it was exactly what she imagined when she thought of someone posting on Cinemaphile
I think David Lynch is the greatest American artist of all time despite his TM bullshit, and there no other art that fills the same void in my heart. I would do anything to watch The Return again.
Based.
I recommend you to check these movies out if you haven't already:
Love streams 1984
Woman in the dunes 1964
Saragossa manuscript 1965
Exterminating angel 1962
Mirror 1975
Stalker 1979
3 women 1977
Persona 1968
Meshes of the afternoon 1943
Orpheus 1950 (big influence on twin peaks)
Thanks, anon. Saved. Persona is incredible, but I've never gotten around to Tarkovsky
>If you wanna die, you gotta drink my sperm
>The other way to die, is eat a can of worms
I want to end things but I can't die until I know what the One Piece is. I need to know if I'm right
This girl is not replying to me cos I threw shit made her mind spin, fug being a smart dumb bro. Whores are where it's at? I ain't the one, bros.
There are way too many morons on tv and movies
I am 26 years old and I still act like a dumb 17 year old. I have no job and just the thought of getting one gives me anxiety I have been on benefits for almost 5 years now but it isn't helping me the last major thing I did was finish college 7 years ago. I did manage to get a job but on the first day I had a mental breakdown when getting back home and called up the boss saying I doubt I will be going back.
Been a while since I've seen a /misc/ therapy thread.
A few years ago my gf died suddenly in front of me and it really fucked me up. I spent a couple years getting constantly blackout drunk and staying up all weekend doing cocaine with assholes and blowing all my money. Finally got a grip and slowed down, got fit, started cooking again, taking care of myself and got a really good job. I was my own worst enemy and I learned I needed to allow good people into my life; not just asking or accepting help but just making an effort to be with family, real friends, and focusing on healthy and "good" things in life. I finally moved on after many slips and met an amazing woman who I'm marrying asap. This is not a bragpost because I still have work to do like subduing my persistent alcoholism and gambling problem, but I've overcome enough already and I have a bright future to look forward to now so I'm optimistic. I hope every anon on here who's in a bad place can just know that good things can happen but only if you let them, and that's not meme advice it's just a fact. I tried being a grouchy misanthropic shithead and nothing good happened. You get what you put in.
>Fuck memes, fuck irony, fuck shitposts. Write me something fucking honest.
best thread in months
lol we can´t
years of pure shitposting have invalidated us for such computations.