>had a successful music career and goth chicks everywhere lusting after him
>still wanted to kill himself
Was this dude serious? He was living the life most men would kill to have.
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>had a successful music career and goth chicks everywhere lusting after him. >still wanted to kill himself
Material shit ain’t all it’s cracked up to be. This guy found out.
Looks like shit. Talentless, lifeless, parasite.
He was clinically depressed and his profession and constant touring fueled his addiction problems. He had a pretty good run though.
Being clinically depressed is something based that most of the time allows you to see things much more clearly as they are. Read about depressive realism
That's what being redpilled is.
You're depressed and jaded as frick because you know how things should be but everyone else is moronic commie Black personloving homosexual.
See: the white mans burden.
He did gay porn
Nah it was a girly magazine
80% of Playgirl subscribers were men.
playGIRL
you unbelievable moron
gay men
30% where gay men you lying frick, women like visual porn too, they just know how to keep quiet about
http://www.advocate.com/currentstory1_w_ektid21917.asp
I don't think it was a girly magazine, I think it was a gay magazine!
Turns out cocaine and red wine don't actually make you feel better
THIS IS THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA AND YOU HAVE A RIGHT TO HATE WHO YOU WANT SO LET'S START BUSTING HEADS
Carnivore was much better than Type O Negative.
I love type O but carnivore is severely underrated.
Crazy how they never gained traction in the 80's thrash scene. With Anthrax in NY, they could've had an east coast vs. west coast thing going on
There's was a lot of bands in the thrash/hardcore scene that never really got traction. Carnivore just happened to be one of them. Some bands are just to extreme to be put on the airwaves.
The hardcore scene had (and still has) a problem with bands that just sound like other bands. For every Leeway there were ten Madball clones.
DON'T CALL ME "BBOTHER"!!!! CAUSE I AIN'T YOUR FRICKING BROTHER!!! WE FALL FROM DIFFERENT c**tS!!!! AND YOUR SKIN....YOUR SKIN IS AN UGLY COLOR!
Manic depression and cocaine.
He also aged like shit by the 00s.
POOR TWANAS GOT A BIRTH DEFECT
BUT IT ONLY INCREASES YOUR WELFARE CHECK
he was gay
He doesn't have a small dick, but for being 6'8, his penis is honestly underwhelming.
why did you make me google it frick you
>moooom, the computer is telling me to look at diiiiicks agaaaaaiiin
curiosity kills the cat
Got me.
>but for being 6'8, his penis is honestly underwhelming.
Are you one of those idiots that think the taller you are the bigger your penis is?
With that moron logic tall girls must have giant veganas.
They literally do, comparatively to a short woman
No.
>With that moron logic tall girls must have giant veganas.
I don't think you thought that through.
They often have deeper veganas, but still tight. My gf is 5'11" and a perfect fit for me. It's no fun fricking petite girl and only being able to fit 2/3 in. First world problem I know but it is what it is.
He was addicted to coke. Heavy shit brother
>Playgirl centerfold
So he did gay porn, lol
He actually thought it was like playboy but for women and got majorly butthurt when gays started wanking to him.
He even wrote a song about how he likes women because of this episode.
>I call this one, I Really, Really, Really Like Women
>Ladies and gentlemen, please give a huge round of applause for our musical guest - Aaron Rodgers
Fricking kek
That's still the funniest Steele trivia. I know it was the early 90s and you couldn't exactly Google it, but come on, man. Women don't buy porn mags to get their rocks off, they buy badly written erotic novels.
>He even wrote a song about how he likes women because of this episode.
>Now I don't know whose ass you've licked
>No shit-tongued boy will ever taste my dick
That song is fricking hilarious.
That one about a troony on Life Is Killing Me obliterates my sides too. His sense of humour was top notch.
he always had great comebacks
>you seem depressed, have you been to a psychiatrist about this?
>"yeah he told me I was crazy and told me to get out"
That song's actually a cover of a song from a movie about a troony with a botched sex change.
Peter talking about the mound of flesh with a scar like a sideways grimace always makes me kek though
very true
women prefer reading erotic novels because they can envision competition of other women in the novels to always be uglier than themselves even with detailed descriptions
men in general need visual stimuli to get off if they cannot envision a lewd apple
>they cannot envision a lewd apple
You were saying?
didn't Burt Reynolds do this too
admitting you did it while knowing is acceptance to the fact
money is money and gays have lots of it because they dont spend it on c**ts
Love that song
>to make it clear you can't bone me
>my tattooed ass reads exit only
>I don't care much for sodomy
kek, what a gay magazine posing b***h
i'm pretty sure his females fans actually did buy that magazine. i've been in countless goth girls rooms over the decades (even dated one) and they always have these type of shirtless/sexy images of musicians. the only reason why they didn't have nude ones is because not many artists/celebs did them. and goth girls are edgy as frick anyway, they have crap plastered all over their room and some sexual images/boobs etc
I dated a girl that got it from her mom
living a life on the road touring playing the same shit every night is probably the worst thing you can do as a depressive.
too bad cause carnivore and type o were great
that's mental illness for you. Depression could make the garden of Eden seem ugly and painful
Most people don't understand clinical depression. They think depression just means "sad" and they see depressed people and think "they have nothing to be sad about, I'd be happy if I had their life" and make stupid threads like this one.
It doesn’t help zoomers have turned any type of mental illness into a joke. It’s gone from something they wanted to make more acceptable to talk about into something everyone claims to have for the smallest chance to pretend they’re different or a victim.
6'8" rock god tore up more pussy than all of us combined, had a successful career touring all over the world, never sold out, respected by his peers. Dying at 48 when you're past your prime after a life like that isn't so bad. It's not the years, it's the mileage.
did gay porn
He posed for Playgirl not knowing it was mostly purchased by gay men. He never did gay porn. The interview of him talking about it is hilarious. He was a funny and insightful dude. Very likeable.
I’m pretty sure the same thing happened to Shawn Michaels
Lol I always find it funny when people defend chicks making OnlyFans by saying “a guy can do it too!” Not unless you’re making shit for gay guys, women don’t look at this kind of stuff
hahaha what a gay
He was targeted by israelis
Josh was israeli though.
Exactly!
Burning out is better than fading away?
He also had a big penis
the frick?
u u u u
modern Cinemaphile won't get this
it's a newbie board
I'm guessing that's from his polish and icelandic genes.
Not seeing anything relevant.
What does it mean?
it would be extremely painful
you don't to bring friends on nu Cinemaphile
if everything that matters to you is that shallow and superficial you are already a ghoul you goy
>goth chicks everywhere lusting after him
you mean dude could pull a fat b***h whenever he wanted? What a legend, we'll never see another guy like that.
Nah man, that’s more a post 00s thing
Be thankful you’ll never have the experience of making out with a severely beautiful goth chick in the 90s while listening to Type O in a room stuffy with the smells of incense and clove cigs, secure with the feeling she loved the same shit you did authentically and not because of some internet fad because that didn’t really exist back then
You won’t be bitter for the memory slowly fading
set the bar too high rip
whyd he have a european accent if he was born in new york?
Are you deaf? Dude had the thickest brooklyn accent I've ever heard.
i watched the jerry springer interview and he sounded really strange. just watched the howard stern interview and he has a normal brooklyn accent. weird. maybe hes faking it
It's probably just the shitty audio, he's always had that brooklyn accent.
>Big tittied goth gf
Heaven
>fricked prime Liz Vicious
kinda jelly
I think he fricked that chick from MTV also.
>6'8
Damn, that's enough to get any woman wet
Didn't stop him from getting cheated on.
That’s the thing though, if you’re 6 foot 8 and have a big dick, getting cheated on doesn’t matter because you’re not really threatened by 99% of men
It kind of does, pete went to jail because he went after the guy that his long time girlfriend was fricking behind his back. He's said it in a lot of early interviews that he just wanted a woman to spend the rest of his life with but he quickly realized that was impossible with the lifestyle he lived. The only way he could get over this was fricking every woman he came across in hopes of getting into a serious relationship with but it never worked out that way. It pretty much worsened his insecurity issues which made him drink even more.
that's even worse
>be big muscular rockstar hunk
>get cucked by manlets
imagine how insecure THAT would make you
bawd!
HOOAH!
c**t!
I KNOW YOU'RE FRICKIN SOMEONE EEEEELLLLLLLSE
I KNOW YOU'RE FRICKING SOMEONE ELSE
>he knows you're fricking someone
I KNOW YOU'RE FRICKING SOMEONE ELSE
>he knows you're fricking someone else
YOU HAD wiener ON YOUR MIND
AND CUM ON YOUR BREATH
INSERTED THAT DIAPHRAGM BEFORE YOU LEFT
PRACTICING FREELANCE GYNOCOLOGY
WHERE THERE'S A WOMB THERE'S A WAY
WITH YOU IT'S FOR FREE!
>chainlink strap
metal
with long hair no less
Sanguini? What the hell is a Sanguini?
It's sanguine addiction, the whole song is about eating out a woman on her period.
Yeah well lose some weight b***h
LOVING YOU IS LIKE LOVING THE DEAD
YOU WENT TO L'AMOUR
SATURDAY NIGHT
RED NAILS, LIPSTICK, DRESS TWO SIZES TO TIGHT
HIS TONGUE DOWN YOUR THROAT
HAND UP YOUR SKIRT
YEAH I'M A MAN
BUT IT STILL HURTS!
YA FRICKIN HOOAH
UNJUSTIFIABLE
>EXISTENCE!
All these metal guys from my childhood I'm finding out died years ago. Like the lead singer of Static X died back in 2014.
Same with Chuck from Death 🙁
That's the rockstar life for you, drugs and alcohol by the boat load will shorten you lifespan by a lot.
>drugs and alcohol... le bad.
tired of this disinfo.
It's the truth whether you moronic addicts like to hear it or not.
Both those things have existed as part of human society for longer than you or your homosexualy ideology fad have. You're beat, zoomer milquetoast homosexual b***h.
Funny thing is that it's always alcohol mixed with sleeping pills or some kind of narcotic and they just go to sleep and never wake up again.
Ozzy said that of all the drugs available to Black Sabbath at their height, alcohol was by far the most dangerous.
He can say that, but the only time he tried to kill Sharon he'd snorted his way through a mountain of cocaine.
Cocaine gave him some much needed clarity and the energy to act.
Problem is that even after you quit your body is so fricked up from all the years of abuse that it becomes hard to operate without it so your organs just start slowly failing.
yeah it sucks. i just found out euronymous died...
>Static X
They just put out an album that they Frankenstein'ed together with a bunch of his old vocals they "found" on top of new instrumentals the other band mates recorded. It's actually kino.
He looks like one of the most handsome men of all time or a gigantism golem depending on the photo, I assume that didn't help. Also even if you succeed at something it's not like the heavens open up and you are given a certificate saying you won at life, you still have to live your life trapped in your depressive brain and have to deal with all the normal mundane issues of life.
Chris Cornell killing himself showed me how true that is.
>Handsome
>Tall
>Loving wife
>Beautiful children
>Get to tour the world playing your songs with your friends for money
>have a nice day anyway
Some people will just never escape it
or he was just sick of playing black hole sun every concert
Yeah depression is something you can never truly escape from, sure there's medication but it doesn't really do much. That's why some people choose not to get help and rather just let their intrusive thoughts do them in. It's the fate they want and it can't be helped.
>sure there's medication but it doesn't really do much.
I keep having this argument with my uncle. It's like talking to a brick wall.
Medication is 100% effective at controlling panic attacks and anxiety, which you can then use to help you take the steps to fix your depression (fixing your actual behaviour).
Anxiety meds aren't an end-all-be-all, either. I used to have bad panic attacks in my early 20s, got put on medication (like a moron), and it only helps in a very surface-level way. I've tried like 4-5 (including benzos) at this point, but I'm off of all of them now and just lift 3-4 times a week. Seems to help more than any pharmaceutical ever did, IMO.
I'm not going to speak for anyone else, but all meds did for me was make me sleep 12 hours a day and be too lazy to bother trying to kill myself again. It wasn't until after I came off them that I even had the motivation to do anything again.
My uncle sees them as a fix-all because it worked for him and doesn't understand that that didn't work for me.
He just wants to see you better anon.
I know he means well it's just annoying having to repeat myself.
The medication is for goal driven people.
Not trying to be a pedant, but it's never no reason. I'd bet good money Steele and Cornell felt some measure of
>I don't deserve this
or
>I'm a huge piece of shit
or
>x/y/z is too much to handle
or anything even remotely related to the above three thoughts, which is solidified in how one was raised from childhood to adolescence, and then exacerbated in adulthood from lacking or PERCEIVING to lack meaningful relationships with people.
Bingo.
Sometimes the reason is a faulty wired brain. Not saying all cases of depression are caused by this, but biological depression is a real thing and sadly sometimes not even medication can fix it.
Chris Cornell and Chester Bennington were both murdered for getting too close to the truth about child trafficking and were in the process of exposing it all.
It's certainly a theory anyway.
I like to believe that (I guess, it's a pretty dark theory actually) but they both had lifelong struggles with depression and it just seems more likely to me that they finally reached their limit. I think Chris killing himself made Chester think there really wasn't any hope, considering Chris helped him through his dark times
>sins of the father
>death and taxes
>battle of the sexes
>wheels of progress
There is literally nothing that can be done medically to remove all the knowledge you eventually learn about the world, and how you are forced to put on a face saying that "Everything is fine." to your offspring as they will eventually grow up into a hell scape creation of modernized death spiral humanity created all for the sake of progress.
Food and sex exist and those things are pretty great. Offsets all the other shit to be quite tbh.
>mortal desires
you missed the point completely you apple blind subhuman
That's alright mephistopheles this apple is pretty great. You should try it.
I'm old enough to know that people can "rewire" their brains in different ways, and I'd bet even more money that people think themselves into holes which leads to their fricked up chemistry. And the awful thing about thinking oneself into a hole is however long it takes and however hard you try to climb back out, it takes a second to fall back in.
Damn would love to know how to rewire my own brain then
Daily affirmations, positive words, goals, trying new things, learning new skills/things, maybe some friends, and letting yourself believe
>huh I'm actually okay right now/today
Try some therapy too. I think step 0 is deciding to do absolutely everything in your power to conquer yourself, which you probably haven't done.
I have been to therapy for 3 years, still going, hasn't done shit. It's simply paying money to a guy to disprove everything I say. In fact I think it makes me feel worse because I hate going and every week when the time comes to go it's such a hassle
Did you change therapists in those three years? And what do you mean disprove everything you say? And are you doing literally everything else I said in my post? That's what I mean by step 0.
Ok I'll change therapists, probably worth a try before fricking kms. Yes I tried what you said in your post, by disprove I mean I explain him why I feel shitty and he simply replies saying I am wrong for thinking this or that and for feeling this way. I'm going to bed, godspeed.
Good on you, mate.
>Yes I tried what you said in your post
I'd ask you for specifics but you're going to bed. If you wake up and see this, lemme give you an anecdote: I was at a metal concert with my girlfriend. I went for the music, to be in the pit/dance a little. She did too, but we didn't know anybody there and by the end of the night that made her quite sad. She's rather friendless, and she really bent my ear about that on the ride home. I suggested going up to people at the next show, which she rebuffed saying it's not that simple or easy. Alright, well how about making it easier in some small way, there are dozens upon dozens of books available on how to make friends, and she completely scoffed at the notion. Shocker: To this day, she is rather friendless. She hasn't decided to do everything in her power to conquer, or know herself.
Now how's this relevant to you? You've been at the same therapist for three years apparently, and it took three years for you to even CONSIDER changing therapists? Step 0 man; CHOOSING to do EVERYTHING possible to conquer yourself. Good luck.
What city do you live in? I made a ton of friends at metal shows, most metalheads are very congenial and want to meet other people like them in their niche.
Long Beach, California. The thing is I don't mind not having friends, I haven't had them for like five going on six years. That said, frick yeah, every single time at these shows there's friendly people. I don't really need to know them, but she does, but she's this nervous, antisocial wreck who won't take charge of her life, and I see some of that in anon. I also reckon part of her is feeling her age (27) and most of the shows we go to have teens to early 20somethings.
Jannies set the thread to autosage
Well if you ever make it up to Seattle, my wife and I will treat you to dinner at a fancy restaurant and cure your GF's social anxiety. We're not swingers (for real), but my wife was the same way for a while. Becoming decisive in all aspects of your life is more important than words can describe.
You have a heart of gold anon, your wife sounds very lucky. Unfortunately such a visit and offer has my gf at a disadvantage because she doesn't know I'm somewhat badmouthing her online, so I'll have to pass. Very generous of you. I'll try to keep an eye for friendly married people at metal concerts when we go up to Spokane/Seattle.
>Becoming decisive in all aspects of your life is more important than words can describe.
Also yes, 100000%. I wish more people knew this.
Hey man I wouldn't know how normal that is like I said almost six years without friends.
understandable, i've just had this conversation with multiple people irl either acquaintances or my wife, her friends, or random people and it's exactly the same story. it even happened to me, my small friend group knows about it as well and we try to meet up a few times a year all together but it's hard sometimes. we're down to like 3 in the group and we've been together since elementary or middle school. people have shit going on. it's also good to know when to cut off friends though which i had to do, friendships can't be a 1 way street. sometimes it's obvious people don't want hangout anymore etc so just cut them off and do yourself a favor. just block them and move on. if people cared about the friendship they would try and that's the least someone can do.
forgot to mention this is also why family is important. you can drift apart from friends but your family is your blood and they'll always be there. start going to your families gathering even if small. it really does make a difference when family supports each other. if anything frick friends in all honesty but please, everyone here go to your family's birthdays, events, etc. i was one of those people that barely showed up and regret it. now i'm having to make up for all those lost memories and fun times.
He did it for free.
not having friends is part of being an adult. everyone gets split up during college and eventually when people move for careers and start having families. it's totally normal to not have friends and only have your significant other. that's the whole point of having a family, you don't need anyone else but your own family. although having like 1-2 close friends is nice if possible.
Why not simply stop going, my dawg?
Change therapists. It took me 5 people until I found one who actually got me. I only had to see him for 7 months before I was fine to be on my own again. It shouldn't take that long. The ones that keep you coming back are just after a steady pay check. The good ones want you out the nest as soon as possible like a mother bird.
Blood kisses > October Rust > World Falling Down > the rest
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>best album’s artwork is just a picture of his hairy taint
I know it's a mock "live" album but it's still a great listen.
Polish excellence
>never got to see them live
I hate this timeline so much.
Happiness is not a checklist.
His songs are shit and he has a weak voice
everyone in the 90s knew Playgirl was gay porn. He knew.
Real depression is like having schizophrenia except instead of having delusions you feel shitty for no reason. Shitty enough that sometimes it's worse than death
Been there and I still kind of feel like that now. It just kind of comes out of nowhere. You feel like shit but you don't know why, your mind is running at a million miles an hour thinking of all sorts of things that bring on existential dread making you want to an hero. I still fantasize about suicide a lot but at the same time I don't think I'd ever have the balls to do it so I'm just stuck here but who knows maybe one of these days my intrusive thoughts will get the better of me.
Cinemaphile BTFO
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All of Cinemaphile btfo
Keep seething peetlet.
Yeah wow being on the road constantly, never getting any sleep, perpetually coming down off drugs and being hungover, having zero fullfilling relationships or conversations because you're hounded by vapid squawking c**ts...
Sounds amazing.
>the amount that I drank on stage was directly proportional to the amount of people we were playing to, I believe it was in denmark where we played to 130,000 people and me I had to torture myself more by saying "well that's 260,000 eyeballs that I have to amuse like a clown" You know like what am I here? to amuse you? to impress you? I drank twelve bottles of wine, I drank four bottles before, four on stage and four after
I can't really blame him, social anxiety is a b***h and the only way I can ever get over it is if I'm piss drunk or high.
There you go. He wasn't meant to be famous and didn't like what he did. It wasn't some unknowable schizophrenic depression, he was in the wrong line of business but saw no way out.
I always need to do something before I go out somewhere. Then I end up making plans with people because I feel good, and then the next day it gives me anxiety when they eventually reach out and I end up ignoring them until I see them out again and it's awkward as frick.
Though by now a lot of people in my social circles have gotten to know that about me and don't take it personal and just accept me as I am.
Killing yourself over the course of a few years and having a good time doing it is better than just blowing your brains out.
What colour were Kurt Cobain's eyes?
Blue
>incel makes a moronic post
many such cases
I heard a story that some gay took his play girl magazine to Pete for him to sign it and then when Pete opened the centerfold, he found his photo covered in jizz
It actually happened, fast forward to the end of the interview.
He was a good sport. I have to hand it to him.
Why did this thread stop bumping?
It seems like only people gay for steele like this band
Fricking jannies. This thread was based.
There we go. Another one gay for steele
Bro you're the one who's posted like 15 times bringing up homosexuality and gay porn and shit for no reason. I think you're the one who's wrestling with some demons in the closet.