tried to finish the 2nd half of S6 sopranos can't bring myself to do it. it's my second viewing but just watching the AJ scenes makes me so fricking uncomfortable
t. NEET enlisting cause I have no where else to go with my worthless life.
I’ve got a girlfriend who I care for and a 50k job lined up w/no college (I’m not even 20 yet), and lost 70lbs and am now veritably healthy, but I still feel a bit empty. I was in a very, very, rough place about a year ago (sneaking off with my unshowered body to go sleep in public parks in my car bad). But I’ve personally improved by leaps and bounds.
The caveat though is I only feel happy outside of the house, despite how much I’ve improved when I’ve secured enough capital to be independent is the only time I’ll truly be happy, as I’m emotionally estranged from my father, as he hates me. I’m a black sheep (despite doing no degenerate things like alcohol, drugs, etc.) and since I’ve found happiness outside, I’ve got to slip away from the last anchor holding me down, which unfortunately is my boomer father. I love him but he really is toxic for my wellbeing and is the impetus for me staying out and reading/spending time with my gf in the first place. I’m afraid to come home.
Sounds like limp-wristed shit I know, but after so many years of being axed down on emotionally, I’ve turned into a state of emotional shrugging. He hasn’t changed his attitude towards me, despite my noticeable self-improvement, so why should I bother? He’s the last tendril of a socially awkward, morbidly obese, wreck of a childhood I hated.
I hope you find a good balance between loving your dad and not letting his shadow weigh you down. I definitely don't think you should fully cut him out of your life, family is more important than most people admit, but you also shouldn't let his feelings toward you damage you or kill your good vibes. Hope everything works out and you can build a good, healthy, relationship with him. Also stop using the word toxic. It's peak leddit.
Also, also, as soon as you're financially and mentally stable enough you better determin if your gf is a keeper and if she is marry her and put a baby in her as soon as you can (if you're both white). This is the key to life. You feel empty because you are childless. Biologically and spiritually, having kids is your prime directive. But you need to be ready. >inb4 jannies delete for being off topic
Not great. I keep taking painkillers and sleeping then drinking inordinate amounts of coffee. My depression is getting worse and worse but atleast im not as suicidal anymore as I used to be.
Not so good. Started therapy again because I thought I was in a good place mentally and well put together. But left to my own devices I go back to old bad habits and end up taking it out on the people around me
Just came back from going around in my car all alone because none of my friends could join me and my cousin was going to sleep. I went to a field to take pictures of the stars with my camera but got a bit scared all alone in the dark and came back.
I feel quite sad honestly I haven't done shit in the last few days when I should be studying. Things seemed better for me this year since I started a new career and actually socialized more than in 5 years of high school but the loneliness and despair are kicking in again.
There are really no signs that I might make it fellas
Stopped being outgoing a couple years back, started having panic attacks when I went out, gf gave me an ultimatum, "I want us to be able to do normal things, etc." fair enough, start putting some effort in, my father dies late last year, floors me to the point of that wake-up-and-just-stare-at-the-wall-for-several-hours-because-you-can't-move type depression, finding life a bit difficult but sound enough, I'll sort it out. Another ultimatum from gf, start getting my arse in gear, suddenly get kidney stones out of nowhere, almost four months in (stone was blocking tube killing kidney, they tried to remove stone, failed, installed two feet of rubber tube from kidney to bladder while I wait for next surgery - two months wait so far) basically bedridden, gf of two years leaves me about ten hours ago due to all of the above.
>how you holding up?
With a Christ-knows-how-long wait for my next surgery (in which they go up through the dick and past the bladder, I can tell you from the first failed attempt at removal: it hurts. A lot), Christ-knows-how-long wait for the final surgery I have to have after that (removal of the stent they'll replace the current stent with which they'll remove with the stone if they manage to get the stone out this time) and Christ-knows-how-long recovery whilst seeing zero point in even bothering anymore anyway - not too well, m8. Not too well.
Sounds like she wasn't worth it, man. Hope things get better for you soon. You can do this.
Cheers to you both. Sad thing is that she WAS worth it and I completely get where she was coming from. Timing leaves plenty to be desired, though. Third long term girlfriend I've had who's up and fricked off right on a low point (gf of five years left me while I was recovering from a throat thing that almost killed me, other gf of a year left me when my father had an aneurysm in his brain - which led to the deterioration that would ultimately contribute to his death three or four years later). I don't know, lads, I'm really starting to wonder about women.
I'll share my story. I fell for the whole "not whole without a woman" psyop. Met this chick in a bar. Things were cool at first. Time goes forward and she accuses me of being a pimp trying to add her to my "stable" because she was hot at the time. I did all damage control i could and talked her out of it. Things progressed, i moved into her house pretty quickly. She then talks about how her phone and emails as hacked which leads to cars slowing down to take pictures of her, her house, and her children. These people according to her planted cameras in light bulbs and poisoned her food. Theres more if you wanna hear it.
Okay, this was the summer of 2016. There was one instance where her ex husband came over to drop off their kids. My gf got so wrapped up im her psycho shit that during a conversation where she talked in circles to trap him to say the wrong thing, she became ghost white and fainted. I have never seen anything like it. She came to within 2 or 3 minutes but i was scared shitless. Nothing was spoken about it afterwards like it never happened. (She is a textbook narcissist and has no nor does any wrong.)
Couple months go by, she accuses me of being an informant for then candidate, Donald Trump. She legit believed she was an illegitimate child and I was there to "check on her and make sure she did nothing wrong."
2 years ago
Anonymous
Checked and GET THE FRICK OUT OF THERE, m8. Christ.
2 years ago
Anonymous
It gets better. Im still with the c**t. A week after the election, she checked herself in the nuthouse for 3 days. She was released and refused to talk about it other than saying shr knows more than the doctors there. Things were fine for a while until we had a rain/hailstorm that flooded her fricking house. We had no heat for the winter. Me being the stupid piece of shit i am, kept assurance and spirits high. She became pregant, we moved into a new place. Our kid was born and I thought we were on track to normal life. One night, at 3 am, im woken up, in bed, from a cop telling me to get up. She called them saying the cameras and poisoning continued, from me.
2 years ago
Anonymous
>now tied to her with a child
Oh m8 you are SO fricked... I'm not going to suggest that you should probably push her down some stairs or something. I would never suggest that.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Silver lining is since we never married and the state doesnt recognize common law, she has nothing ti reach for when its all said and done. Thank Christ i didnt marry her.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Because i knew i fricked up, i was angry all the time, this led to an assault on easter. Two days later im in jail and later sentenced to 2 years probation. All i care about is my child and if i have to be with her than so be it. I forgot to mention she was still legally married to her ex when our child was born, therefore the state wouldnt recognize me as the father. After a couple series of her moving out a few times between me and her mothers house, we reconcile and think maybe its a good time to move across country and start fresh. Here we are 2 years later and nothing has improved except my discontent for the b***h. I hired an attorney to take care of paternity so she cant just leave and im going for full custody as i am the sole provider for all three of us. She contributes nothing finanicially and i look forward to kicking her to the curb. Its not that its always bad, but when it is, its hell. My child doesnt deserve to think this is normal.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Dude, she's insane. Literally. She's delusional and sounds like she has schizophrenia. I hope for your kid's sake that she didn't pass those genes on to her. Good luck, but keep in mind you're dealing with someone who is experiencing reality in a warped way.
I hate to say this, but your posts have at least made me realize that my situation could be a lot worse, so thank you.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Are you kidney stone anon?
2 years ago
Anonymous
Nah m8 that's me.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Dude, she's insane. Literally. She's delusional and sounds like she has schizophrenia. I hope for your kid's sake that she didn't pass those genes on to her. Good luck, but keep in mind you're dealing with someone who is experiencing reality in a warped way.
I hate to say this, but your posts have at least made me realize that my situation could be a lot worse, so thank you.
Regardless, youre right. Shes textbook narcissit schizo. I get torn because its not her fault shes fricked up, i just happen to be the guy shes with when this all comes from nowhere. At the same time though she refuses any help or medication and as i said, is on an ivory throne 24/7. Im busting my ass all day to keep things afloat and it feels worthless as neither of us love eachother at this point. All we do is abuse eachother
2 years ago
Anonymous
Nah, I haven't posted about my problems yet. Just dealing with an ant infestation in my apartment for the last 3/4 months. Had the exterminators here 4 times now. I think we found the source of the problem finally, though, so that's hopeful. Didn't want to have to move again. Other than that, I've spent the last 2.5 years NEETing on COVID bucks and got invested in the crypto market with the help of a friend. I've never been able to maintain a job properly, I think I have some kind of undiagnosed mental illness but idk, and I have very little/unstable support from my Boomer dad who is the only person other than myself I can rely on. I have a seven-year-old son and an ex, too, but that's all going well tbh. Just been struggling to find employment recently and worked a few dead end jobs that ended up being duds while I wait for the market to recover, if it ever does. I ended up making and losing $100k over the past year through my friend's advice which was pretty traumatic in itself. Idk, other than that things are okay but my savings are getting pretty tight and readjusting to the working world is annoying.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Did you deal with nfts at all? I have art thats one of a kind and i dont see why they wouldnt sell. Im juat ignorant to web3 shit. Im glad child and ex life is good for ya.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Not really, my friend was but not me. I was investing metaverse gaming which was really big at the end of 2021 but crashed hard right at the beginning of 2022. I knew it was time to get out but listened to my "more experienced" friend and paid the price for it. I see him now as a gambling addict rather than the self-proclaimed expert he claimed to be. Finding it hard not to hate him sometimes, especially since he broke his word with me a few times. However, he still helped me make ten times my initial investment, so I guess I can't complain much. He's not such a bad guy, but he's lacking in self control.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Now you know to trust your insticts more next time sounds like.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Didn't help that he was in control of my investment. If I had the sell button in front of me I definitely would've pushed it, or at least I tell myself that. I asked him to take out $20k many times and he assured me he would but then didn't. That was what really pushed me over the line. Still, he feels bad (which isn't making me any dollars, but still). It's worth it to keep him around.
2 years ago
Anonymous
To clarify, I never really planned it that way. He just asked me to send him some Bitcoin I was holding onto to invest and it snowballed from there. He has been pretty generous in the past though, so I can't hate him.
2 years ago
Anonymous
I have never seen such innocene and purity before my daughter. Who she is and who shes turning into has helped make it not as bad. She doesnt deserve what she has to see when her mother and i are together
2 years ago
Anonymous
Bro atleast try to channel her skitzo energy into something productive. Teach her to edit fashwave and hyperborea videos and stuff. Maybe having an outlet for her delusions will help? Idk I'm not a brain doctor don't take my advice it might make things worse
2 years ago
Anonymous
Shes really into calligraphy and csn make nice cards. Ive been more thsn encouraging. When we met she tsught barre classes at the ymca and was a real fit cutie. When our daughter was born, the anesthesiologist went 1 vertabrae too high, according to her and she stopped all physical activity. I could deal with all the bullshit if she wasnt a cow.
2 years ago
Anonymous
If the numbers don't tell you what's going on noone can, anon
Ask yourself if you’d ever do the things she did, anon. Really try to imagine the roles reversed. Would you give your gf of several years an ultimatum because she suffered from depression after her dad died? Would you leave her during a health crisis?
Getting a retail job helps. It basically forces you to have a social life and if you’re young there’s a very good chance you’ll mostly be around people your age.
I don't know your gf, but it sounds like you dodged a bullet. All of those situations were out of your control and she should've been understanding about it. >muh ultimatum
prostitute shit.
Find a woman that will support you in your heaviest hour. Those are the only ones worth your seed, anon
>finally realizing that my career goals (entertainment industry) are incompatible with reality >finally talked to this girl I've been thinking about for months, turns out she has a boyfriend >gained like 10 lbs in a month and am becoming skinnyfat >only real friend moved to another state >might have to get major invasive surgery because of mega kidney stones >everyone I have to interact with irl is a schitzo >losing motivation to do anything including even watching movies, spend the last couple days ERPing and catfishing >emailing a dominatrix and setting up a date for her to come choke me with her thighs for an hour for $400
Not him (I'm the other guy ITT who currently has kidney stones) but there are a host of things that cause them, best thing you can do to prevent them is drink. A lot. I'm 32 and otherwise healthy, I've got two.
>finally talked to this girl I've been thinking about for months, turns out she has a boyfriend
iktf, that's why you hit her up and hit on her ASAP so you don't have to suffer that >dominatrix
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a dominatrix and setting up a date for her to come choke me with her thighs for an hour for $400
I am too, reaching the end of my rope. Wish I had a girl to choke me just because honestly wants to see me gasp for air, not because she wants to get paid.
My dad just had a heart transplant after suffering with heart failure for years. I am now taking care of him at home. All of this has turned my life upside down. Trying to balance my own life with his care needs has been overwhelming and I feel more isolated than ever. Ive been alone my whole life and I have no one for support.
I was supposed to go have a counseling appointment with my wife, but the counselor got sick. I was looking forward to spending time after work regardless of the appointment, but she decided to take a nap and hasn’t only really woken up enough to tell me that it was too late for me to come by with dinner. It’s been 11 months since she kicked me out of the house after I confronted her about meeting another man when she said she was seeing one of her girlfriends. It’s been 7 months since we last had sex.
Honestly my man, if you don't have kids, it might be worth cutting your losses and ending things. Even if you love her, she wont ever respect you again and the running around will continue. If you have kids, then that sucks man, don't have any advice i have no idea bro
Quit University last month and am starting an apprenticeship next month.
Can't shake the feeling that I'm a massive failure. It's not lie Uni was too hard for me, I just couldn't get off my ass.
I feel like shit and have caught myself driving like a jackass the last couple of weeks. I'm trying to stay on my feet but it's kind of been a lot lately.
>Quit University last month and am starting an apprenticeship
You have absolutely made the right decision. Two thirds of the c**ts I know with degrees don't even have jobs, only one of the others has a job in the field they studied. Meanwhile every tradesman I know from growing up has money in the bank and their shit together. Don't buy into the bullshit expectations, you've done your future self a solid.
I’m happily married and have a kid. I’m doing well, career is alright but looking for something better down the road. Family is healthy. But the world is giving me anxiety. The things I cannot control, the direction things are going, is messing with my head.
Almost done school and have a job lined up, getting married soon, life is moving very very fast. I also gained like 100 lbs in the past 2 years which is insane. overall feeling okay but almost like it could all come crashing down any minute now. I constantly live for those rare moments when you truly feel at peace and like everything is fine
been a fricked up, mentally ill dumbass my whole life because of abuse. i've made some progress in becoming normal but im starting to feel like its worthless and im gonna get locked in to this lifestyle
No. I'm so fricking done with the NEET life. I should have never taken that year off once i graduated college.
Unfortunately once you go 7 years it's basically impossible to get out.
i quit my desk job back in january and been doing the neet life since. if someone would buy my (secondary) car i could keep going along but its getting pretty lean for me right now.
I've been putting off "actually taking a look at my resume" for way too long now dude
I don't even enjoy being a NEET
I don't like video games and I don't like watching anything on tv. All I enjoy is listening to podcasts and exercising and I'm NOT even a joe rogan fan.
Trying to cope with the fact that I will never develop a meaningful human relationship is tough, I want to have a nice wife and kids, shit, I already have land and a house. It's never going to happen though as much as I'd like it to.
I still have a month until classes start again, less than two years til I get my degree and move on with my life, and I feel like I'm stuck in a pendulum that swings between blissful ignorance and painful nihilism.
The only things I do both at home and at work are read, eat fast food, and browse twitter / here, feeling like an honorary NEET the whole time. For maybe 2/3 of the days I've spent like this I don't mind this, shit I even enjoy how simple of a life this is, but the remaining 1/3 is just dreadful. It's like the difference between enjoying the ride through the tunnel and realizing that there isn't a light at the end of it.
My goal is to get this degree, move out of my parents house and across the country, and start my own life. Make friends, get a girlfriend, write some books, start a family, and live comfortably. But on some days this just feels like a fake light that I've put further back in the tunnel to keep me from an heroing. What the frick happens if I'm not happy after I achieve all those things?
The one film / book I've found that accurately conveys this kind of dread is Trainspotting, and I really don't know what I'd do without it.
I finally started to make decent money but it's a hard ass labor job and I inhale concrete and asphalt dust all day, it good money but God damn I feel substantial unhealthy in the time I've been working there. I can't quit the union right now but I don't wanna stay so I gotta suck it up and make moves where I can make a living without sacrificing my body but other than that in ok I guess
I hate my job so fricking much. I hate going to the office when I could do my work from home easily, and I have almost all of my coworkers. I Have literally 0 energy or motivation to do anything when I get home from work. I wake up tired even if I sleep 8 hours. I can't draw, I can't play vidya, I can't concentrate on anything. I just mindlessly browse the internet on my free time, and nothing else.
I don't know if there could be a medical reason for this, or I just should get therapy. But I don't wanna lose my time talking to someone, doing moronic cognitive therapy exercises or whatever, and I don't wanna resort to prescription drugs either.
Work is work man. Show up, do what you have to do, and leave it at work. If you're not tied down by anything, thats a blessing. Enjoy your time, pursue interests snd itll all play out. Dont stop
Was thinking the same thing. My biggest problem right now is that I thought some girl at work wanted my dick and I looked her up on messenger only to get ignored.
Its been a year since i lost my dad, i really just lost hope for any dreams i used to have, i dont give a frick, i found a job i like so i can pass the time and not leech off mom's, i come back to post on Cinemaphile and have a few drinks before going to sleep.
my big plans for the future is being alive to see big happenings like the economy crashing or a real war, seeing everyone else suffer makes me feel better, last night i saw a post where a redditor is desperate because of gas prices, slept like a baby
>get married >she divorces me >lose everything >pour myself into work >want to buy a house for myself >prices skyrocket >lose promotion to diversity hire >house prices skyrocket >could never afford one in my town now >give up on the rat race >quit trying at work >just workout and read philosophy >no friends >haven't felt human touch in 6 months
6 months lmfao. Assuming you aren't counting hugs from family, that ain't shit.
Also when you buy something at the store, when the cashier girl hands you your receipt or change, try over reaching just a bit so your hands make contact.
>Also when you buy something at the store, when the cashier girl hands you your receipt or change, try over reaching just a bit so your hands make contact.
I've been through a lot the past couple years trying to finish my Master's degree. My mom nearly killed herself, a ton of my friends from undergrad cut me off over petty bullshit. I got snubbed out of teaching at one of the best high schools in the city because my supervising teacher was a miserable israelite c**t. On top of that I'm a virgin and I've been on a million first dates this summer alone. All of them fricking ghost after the first date. I have a lot of moments where I feel like I'm at my limit, but I have some where I'm thankful to be alive for whatever reason. All in all, just surviving.
>I'm 25 >I've been in a long distance online relationship with the only girl I could ever speak to for the past 5 years. >I have nobody in my life besides her and my family who I want to escape from >I fooled around on the side just as an ego boost since she could only visit once a year. But I couldn't cum or achieve any real pleasure with them even when i fricked a model bawd >Now other women repulse me, I only want my online gf >She lives in America and I'm in Canada >I fricking hate my life here and everything about the filth they call people in it. I hate winter, the humidity, the cost of living, the complete lack of culture or taste. Everyone here is so fricking mindless and boring >to this day I still consider the only time I experienced true happiness in my life was when I visited her 3 years ago >I proposed we do a k1 visa and get married and she agreed. >I'm saving money til the day our application is approved and then I'll leave Canada for good. >I'm just waiting til the day I leave like I'm a convict in prison waiting to be free.
Cheers m8. I always felt like anytime someone talked about the positives of Canada it always sounded like cope.
Trying to decide between like 5 equally shitty overpriced cities and ugly towns with the most moronic inbred morons alive on earth had me depressed my whole life.
>>I fricking hate my life here and everything about the filth they call people in it. I hate winter, the humidity, the cost of living, the complete lack of culture or taste. Everyone here is so fricking mindless and boring
Just ok. Very apathetic about everything. Lost all drive, dreams and ambitions. Just getting to terms with the fact that the good parts of my life is behind me, that I never got what I wanted nor what I needed and even if I got it now, it would be too late anyway. Certain things just shape you for the rest of your life.
I dont even have anything to be sad about anymore because I've come to terms with my losses, but I never replaced those losses with anything. So there's just this emptiness in it's place.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve been to so many doctors over the years, all of them with their own answer. I’m just in pain all the time.
How’s a person supposed to live and work and socialize when it’s hard just getting out of bed?
I’ve actually wondered if one of my parents has munchausen’s and is poisoning me or something.
>realizing that even with how unbearable things are now, you’ll someday wish you could come back to these days >because things are only gonna get worse
It's 1AM where I'm at, I have to get up tomorrow and do real life things, and I'm dreading it, because I never do anything I actually want to do, and I'm always in conflict with my family.
I have some (relative) youth left and I'm desperate to do something with it, yet time passes me by and I'm stuck where I'm at. I don't know what the frick to do.
Go out to live music shows, get drunk, dance your ass off, talk to cute girls. Start learning a real skill/hobby like an instrument, language, craft, or code. Start exercising if you aren't already.
Youth starts fading at 24, by 25-26 it's almost gone. By 27 you know it's over, but you're stuck in a purgatory where you're not technically "old" because you haven't reached 30, but all of the signals from the milieu of your existence are indicating that you are old.
> My way out of my league gf left me to frick a married woman then tried to come back with the plan of dating me until she finds a long term gf
I've just been watching godzilla for days and ignoring it
There are so many tho, too much to expect someone to specifically respond to yours. Just be content with the fact someone probably read them and thought "that sucks" but didn't have anything to say.
I'm 27 and I got the first date of my life on Saturday, how do I not frick it up? I have no idea how any of this works. Do I just talk to her for a few hours then that's it? How long until the sex happen? How do I know if she likes me?
whatever you did to get her out on the first date just keep doing that. If you guys are sitting close and talking and she pauses and just looks into your eyes for a moment without saying anything that's the que to kiss her.
Establish comfortable physical contact as soon as possible. It will take away the nerves and confirm she's attracted to you. A hug, a long touch of the hand, brushing her hair, something. Just start by getting her laughing and moving close to her. See if she's comfortable with you entering her space. Then compliment her and maintain eye contact (don't stare her down tho). You want to see that harm smile inviting you to touch her in some way.
>haven't felt a human touch in 5 years >only thing keeping me from suicide is my long distance GF >airline ticket prices went up 20% overnight
I'm gonna be able to do it but holy frick that was a close call.
How do you know she doesnt have the same intentions? Not trying to be a dick, lookimg out for fellow anon
2 years ago
Anonymous
Enslaving me?
2 years ago
Anonymous
Yes. Trapping you.
2 years ago
Anonymous
I wouldn't mind.
You better prey she dosen't stab you in the back, she might only be pretending to care about you. The odds arent in your favor sir, just dont let it be the final nail
I don't think so.
Good luck comrade. Been in a long distance relationship for 5 years myself and we're getting married to be together finally. It's the only way a moron like myself could ever naturally get a girl to be comfortable around me.
I hated the flights. Basically losing all your yearly savings just to receive the passive affection that regular couples have on weekends. I hope it works out and you two close the gap soon .
If it wasn't for this I'd absolutely have ended my life years ago. This is the only affection I have in my life.
You better prey she dosen't stab you in the back, she might only be pretending to care about you. The odds arent in your favor sir, just dont let it be the final nail
Good luck comrade. Been in a long distance relationship for 5 years myself and we're getting married to be together finally. It's the only way a moron like myself could ever naturally get a girl to be comfortable around me.
I hated the flights. Basically losing all your yearly savings just to receive the passive affection that regular couples have on weekends. I hope it works out and you two close the gap soon .
2018 was the last year of my life that was a mostly good year for me because it was the last year of my life that was mostly a carefree year for me. 2019 was a nightmarishly bad year for me, while 2020 and 2021 were only slightly better years for me. 2022 has not been a very good year for me so far, but at least it's been better for me than 2019 was (although that's not saying much). Being an eternal optimist, I will continue to pray and hope for a brighter and better future for myself and the world at large even though things seem bleak as frick right now.
I wish weed did that for me, I become a completely useless lump whenever I smoke it.
Been sober for about a year now but I’ve also been at a fricking dead end, moved to a different state for a job opportunity that fell through, extremely embarrassed about it and stubbornly trying to make it work here rather than go back home with my tail between my legs. I’m 30 and haven’t ever had a “real job” just part time work and internships and I’m starting to panic at how shitty my resume is at my age. College dropout too, I just want to be proud of myself and not feel the need to constantly lie to my family about how my life’s going and what I’m doing everyday (doing nothing).
I’m working hard on staying more positive and if this career shit doesn’t work out in the next 6 months then I’m gonna finish school and reset. Always gotta stay moving, I don’t want to get stuck, even if things seem hopeless.
I've been NEET for the past 10 years and it can't go on much longer but I'm very much aware that it's destroyed my chances of ever getting a decent job. It's also stunted me mentally to the point where I'm not sure I could get a job or even rent my own place due to crippling social aversion. For months now I've been trying to work up the courage to make a dentist appointment, but I just can't bring myself to dial the phone.
Despite all that I feel strangely fine though, better than I have in years.
>I've been NEET for the past 10 years and it can't go on much longer but I'm very much aware that it's destroyed my chances of ever getting a decent job.
This is the most abysmal feel
You'd be surprised how fast you could catch on. You'll get used to working in a week if not 3 days. You can type in complete sentences which makes you smarter than 60% of the workforce. Don't sell yourself short because most people are walmart employees who got lucky landing a decent job. Most work is piss easy. You'll forget all about your short comings and learn to hate your coworkers for being lazy and stupid. Just apply anon and walk through your fears
What job could I get if I'm looking to get out of a 10-year long career in retail? Yes, 10 years. A job where I don't have to deal with people would be amazing.
mom had several strokes, bf left me, trying to stay off the bottle, work is killing me, i'm always a few lapses in thought from a panic attack, rare heart condition could take me whenever wherever
My twin sister died in January from a drug overdose. Last week my mother committed suicide due to grief. My friends have stopped talking to me because they don't know how to approach this trauma.
I've developed a heart arrhythmia due to all the stress and I haven't slept more than 5hrs a night in 6 months. I don't know how to heal from this. My sister was half my soul. We shared an existence together. The pain of her being gone feels like I'm dying
Damn and I thought shit was going bad for ME. But reading your post made me realise how good my life is in comparison to yours. But don't worry, God will set things right for you again when the time is right.
>All these youngsters with gfs and income posting about how depressed they're with no future. >Be 30 year old skinnyfat NEET who hasn't held a job in 6 years with no marketable skills.
It's ogre. I can't even enter these threads for comfort anymore. Kek.
I'm going to take a crack at deducing this, but I think you aren't remotely as miserable as anybody here with a job, income and an active if broken romantic life. Because they actually give and the stress that comes with it.
Most robots tend to just not give a shit and seem more content to let those experiences slip by. Essentially dropping out of the race.
>but I think you aren't remotely as miserable as anybody here with a job, income and an active if broken romantic life. Because they actually give and the stress that comes with it.
There's a special kind of misery that comes from knowing you're staring down a yawning void with no way of escaping it.
I'm going to take a crack at deducing this, but I think you aren't remotely as miserable as anybody here with a job, income and an active if broken romantic life. Because they actually give and the stress that comes with it.
Most robots tend to just not give a shit and seem more content to let those experiences slip by. Essentially dropping out of the race.
>I'm going to take a crack at deducing this
Already knew this was going to be an absolutely abhorrent post when I read this. >you aren't remotely as miserable as anybody here with a job, income and an active if broken romantic life.
Haven’t you ever heard the expression “better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all?” It’s absolutely miserable being a spectator to normal people living normal lives. You are stuck with 24/7 self loathing. You have to live with the fact that you are a genetic dead end who will just end up disappointing anyone who ever cared about you.
It’s not a feeling that normies will ever understand, so don’t even try to say shit about it. >Essentially dropping out of the race
You’re neglecting the fact that these people have tried and failed. Not to mention that most normal people barely even have to try to live a normal life.
>think about texting a guy friend to do something this weekend rather than just playing with my old undergrad buddies online >don't do it >think about texting a girl to try to go on a date or something >don't do it
Why is it harder to break the status quo and text people I don't usually message? I can text other people without hesitation. Why am I lazy?
>turned 25 the previous week >still haven't graduated university >hair's thinning faster no matter the treatments >have no idea what I even want; generally feel nothing >still fat >still friendless >still a KHHV
I'm working out a bit more, sleeping and eating better. But my life is devoid of meaning. Even this place has finally lost its allure. I'm not depressed, or melancholic, I'm just empty in a sense. My problems aren't anything special or severe, I've just been stuck in a rut for so long that I don't know what to even do. And I think I'm slowly losing my mind because every day I'm becoming increasingly convinced that the universe is sending me messages and trying to steer me towards something, but I can't decide if it's a trap or not.
Finally finished my 4 year degree after 7 years and am interviewing for an internship in my field tomorrow. I've only gotten interviews for 3 of all the internships I applied to and was told I was the second choice (i.e. I didn't get it) for the other one I've had. I do not have a backup plan if I don't get one for this fall. I am extremely thankful for my loving, caring parents and know they are not disappointed in me but I am disappointed in myself. I wish I had the drive that my dad did. Things could be and have been a lot worse. I hope things get better for you anons who are truly struggling.
>Finally finished my 4 year degree after 7 years and am interviewing for an internship in my field tomorrow.
Same path as you, Anon. I started my undergrad in 2017 and won't be finished until late 2023. Good on you for not giving up.
It may feel like you've accomplished nothing but spinning your wheels, but that's definitely not true. Your parents are proud of you for a reason. You have a degree and you're getting highly considered in interviews. It's inevitable you land a job at this rate.
Get some screen capture tools to let you download the lectures, then upload them somewhere (mega, etc) and share the links here, then email university administration (annymously from a library computer) about your concerns with students uploading lectures (without permission! for free!) and watch how fast they go back to in person classes. God I feel bad for you kids getting stuck with that shit.
>spent my life from 18-25 getting high 24/7 to cope with mental issues >at 25 I had an extreme schizophrenic episode and was forcibly placed in a mental asylum >took antipsychotics that blunted my brain and made me sleep for 16 hours at a time >this goes on for a year >finally get off antipsychotics >feel somewhat normal again >haven't done hard drugs in over a year >feel almost totally numb, can't really enjoy anything >ceased interacting with my hobbies >just sit in my room all day
Well, on the plus side, somehow through my drug fueled haze I managed to both go to university and get a good degree. Not sure how that happened, but at least I have something to start over with. I'm only 26 but I feel haggard and old. Hopefully I can get a reasonable office job, and with time, I can regain some of my humanity and learn to enjoy things again. Or not.
Not so good.
tried to finish the 2nd half of S6 sopranos can't bring myself to do it. it's my second viewing but just watching the AJ scenes makes me so fricking uncomfortable
t. NEET enlisting cause I have no where else to go with my worthless life.
just work on an oil rig. its way more money and you dont get shot at
>just work on an oil rig
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Byford_Dolphin
theres definite risk but its a lot safer than enlisting
How do you get a job on one?
>a lot safer than enlisting
is there anybody in the u.s military getting shot at right now?
Join the Marines. IT'S THE LAST SOMEWHAT REAL MILITARY EXPERIENCE JOIN THE MARINES I'M TELLING YOU PLEASE. YOU WILL HATE EVERY OTHER SERVICE.
it could be worse so i wont complain.
there seems to be a lot of unhappy people so i guess im in good company.
ONE OF THESE DAYS ALICE
My sister killed herself two months ago. No bueno.
My condolences.
Were there any signs or did it happen out of the blue?
Out of the blue. Came home from work and my parents told me she was missing. Cops found her a few days later.
Why did you kill your sister and make it look like a suicide?
Please accept my sincerest condolences for the loss of your sister.
No bueno indeed
I’ve got a girlfriend who I care for and a 50k job lined up w/no college (I’m not even 20 yet), and lost 70lbs and am now veritably healthy, but I still feel a bit empty. I was in a very, very, rough place about a year ago (sneaking off with my unshowered body to go sleep in public parks in my car bad). But I’ve personally improved by leaps and bounds.
The caveat though is I only feel happy outside of the house, despite how much I’ve improved when I’ve secured enough capital to be independent is the only time I’ll truly be happy, as I’m emotionally estranged from my father, as he hates me. I’m a black sheep (despite doing no degenerate things like alcohol, drugs, etc.) and since I’ve found happiness outside, I’ve got to slip away from the last anchor holding me down, which unfortunately is my boomer father. I love him but he really is toxic for my wellbeing and is the impetus for me staying out and reading/spending time with my gf in the first place. I’m afraid to come home.
Sounds like limp-wristed shit I know, but after so many years of being axed down on emotionally, I’ve turned into a state of emotional shrugging. He hasn’t changed his attitude towards me, despite my noticeable self-improvement, so why should I bother? He’s the last tendril of a socially awkward, morbidly obese, wreck of a childhood I hated.
Living out of the shadow of our fathers is a worthy task for any man
>im not even 20 yet
Then have a nice day underaged shitter
>50k job lined up
>19 year old with no education or skills
Only in amuttrica
I hope you find a good balance between loving your dad and not letting his shadow weigh you down. I definitely don't think you should fully cut him out of your life, family is more important than most people admit, but you also shouldn't let his feelings toward you damage you or kill your good vibes. Hope everything works out and you can build a good, healthy, relationship with him. Also stop using the word toxic. It's peak leddit.
Also, also, as soon as you're financially and mentally stable enough you better determin if your gf is a keeper and if she is marry her and put a baby in her as soon as you can (if you're both white). This is the key to life. You feel empty because you are childless. Biologically and spiritually, having kids is your prime directive. But you need to be ready.
>inb4 jannies delete for being off topic
What a bunch of rambling dramatic garbage. Take your new job and focus on yourself and shut up.
barely
Just going through the motions
I've been dead inside for 6 years.
Gonna have to move back in with my parents. Again. Last time I was in and out in 3 months but holy FRICK this sucks man.
lol LOSER
for real, you should give me rim to make me feel better
At least your parents will let you stay with them.
How old?
It's okay anon. As long as you have a good relationship with them, you should look at it as an opportunity to spend more time with them 🙂
I'm sorry anon, I hope things get better.
It's okay to fail if we keep moving forward.
I like the homer simpson approach, "never try."
Not great. I keep taking painkillers and sleeping then drinking inordinate amounts of coffee. My depression is getting worse and worse but atleast im not as suicidal anymore as I used to be.
Who says I'm holding up? Life has been a single long day of nothingness since 2020, and falling apart since 2016.
I'm a 30 year old failure and the only reason I haven't killed myself is that my parents are still alive
Now you got a reason to look forward to each of their remaining birthdays. Cheer up son.
Not so good. Started therapy again because I thought I was in a good place mentally and well put together. But left to my own devices I go back to old bad habits and end up taking it out on the people around me
Coming up on my first anniversary of my failed suicide attempt. Been pretty depressed lately but better than last year
Forgot pic. How are you OP?
i hate my dead end office job and i dont even get paid a good salary. even worse is i have zero motivation to do anything about it
At least you have a job…
Just came back from going around in my car all alone because none of my friends could join me and my cousin was going to sleep. I went to a field to take pictures of the stars with my camera but got a bit scared all alone in the dark and came back.
I feel quite sad honestly I haven't done shit in the last few days when I should be studying. Things seemed better for me this year since I started a new career and actually socialized more than in 5 years of high school but the loneliness and despair are kicking in again.
There are really no signs that I might make it fellas
What do we have to lose to keep going at this point though? Its shitty, but, its not completely hopeless yet.
Bro you got yourself an actual schizo
Stopped being outgoing a couple years back, started having panic attacks when I went out, gf gave me an ultimatum, "I want us to be able to do normal things, etc." fair enough, start putting some effort in, my father dies late last year, floors me to the point of that wake-up-and-just-stare-at-the-wall-for-several-hours-because-you-can't-move type depression, finding life a bit difficult but sound enough, I'll sort it out. Another ultimatum from gf, start getting my arse in gear, suddenly get kidney stones out of nowhere, almost four months in (stone was blocking tube killing kidney, they tried to remove stone, failed, installed two feet of rubber tube from kidney to bladder while I wait for next surgery - two months wait so far) basically bedridden, gf of two years leaves me about ten hours ago due to all of the above.
>how you holding up?
With a Christ-knows-how-long wait for my next surgery (in which they go up through the dick and past the bladder, I can tell you from the first failed attempt at removal: it hurts. A lot), Christ-knows-how-long wait for the final surgery I have to have after that (removal of the stent they'll replace the current stent with which they'll remove with the stone if they manage to get the stone out this time) and Christ-knows-how-long recovery whilst seeing zero point in even bothering anymore anyway - not too well, m8. Not too well.
Im sorry anon. I pray for your pain to be alleviated
Cheers to you both. Sad thing is that she WAS worth it and I completely get where she was coming from. Timing leaves plenty to be desired, though. Third long term girlfriend I've had who's up and fricked off right on a low point (gf of five years left me while I was recovering from a throat thing that almost killed me, other gf of a year left me when my father had an aneurysm in his brain - which led to the deterioration that would ultimately contribute to his death three or four years later). I don't know, lads, I'm really starting to wonder about women.
I'll share my story. I fell for the whole "not whole without a woman" psyop. Met this chick in a bar. Things were cool at first. Time goes forward and she accuses me of being a pimp trying to add her to my "stable" because she was hot at the time. I did all damage control i could and talked her out of it. Things progressed, i moved into her house pretty quickly. She then talks about how her phone and emails as hacked which leads to cars slowing down to take pictures of her, her house, and her children. These people according to her planted cameras in light bulbs and poisoned her food. Theres more if you wanna hear it.
>Theres more if you wanna hear it
I've an open bottle of rum and absolutely jack shit reason to be up tomorrow. Go for it.
Okay, this was the summer of 2016. There was one instance where her ex husband came over to drop off their kids. My gf got so wrapped up im her psycho shit that during a conversation where she talked in circles to trap him to say the wrong thing, she became ghost white and fainted. I have never seen anything like it. She came to within 2 or 3 minutes but i was scared shitless. Nothing was spoken about it afterwards like it never happened. (She is a textbook narcissist and has no nor does any wrong.)
Couple months go by, she accuses me of being an informant for then candidate, Donald Trump. She legit believed she was an illegitimate child and I was there to "check on her and make sure she did nothing wrong."
Checked and GET THE FRICK OUT OF THERE, m8. Christ.
It gets better. Im still with the c**t. A week after the election, she checked herself in the nuthouse for 3 days. She was released and refused to talk about it other than saying shr knows more than the doctors there. Things were fine for a while until we had a rain/hailstorm that flooded her fricking house. We had no heat for the winter. Me being the stupid piece of shit i am, kept assurance and spirits high. She became pregant, we moved into a new place. Our kid was born and I thought we were on track to normal life. One night, at 3 am, im woken up, in bed, from a cop telling me to get up. She called them saying the cameras and poisoning continued, from me.
>now tied to her with a child
Oh m8 you are SO fricked... I'm not going to suggest that you should probably push her down some stairs or something. I would never suggest that.
Silver lining is since we never married and the state doesnt recognize common law, she has nothing ti reach for when its all said and done. Thank Christ i didnt marry her.
Because i knew i fricked up, i was angry all the time, this led to an assault on easter. Two days later im in jail and later sentenced to 2 years probation. All i care about is my child and if i have to be with her than so be it. I forgot to mention she was still legally married to her ex when our child was born, therefore the state wouldnt recognize me as the father. After a couple series of her moving out a few times between me and her mothers house, we reconcile and think maybe its a good time to move across country and start fresh. Here we are 2 years later and nothing has improved except my discontent for the b***h. I hired an attorney to take care of paternity so she cant just leave and im going for full custody as i am the sole provider for all three of us. She contributes nothing finanicially and i look forward to kicking her to the curb. Its not that its always bad, but when it is, its hell. My child doesnt deserve to think this is normal.
Dude, she's insane. Literally. She's delusional and sounds like she has schizophrenia. I hope for your kid's sake that she didn't pass those genes on to her. Good luck, but keep in mind you're dealing with someone who is experiencing reality in a warped way.
I hate to say this, but your posts have at least made me realize that my situation could be a lot worse, so thank you.
Are you kidney stone anon?
Nah m8 that's me.
Regardless, youre right. Shes textbook narcissit schizo. I get torn because its not her fault shes fricked up, i just happen to be the guy shes with when this all comes from nowhere. At the same time though she refuses any help or medication and as i said, is on an ivory throne 24/7. Im busting my ass all day to keep things afloat and it feels worthless as neither of us love eachother at this point. All we do is abuse eachother
Nah, I haven't posted about my problems yet. Just dealing with an ant infestation in my apartment for the last 3/4 months. Had the exterminators here 4 times now. I think we found the source of the problem finally, though, so that's hopeful. Didn't want to have to move again. Other than that, I've spent the last 2.5 years NEETing on COVID bucks and got invested in the crypto market with the help of a friend. I've never been able to maintain a job properly, I think I have some kind of undiagnosed mental illness but idk, and I have very little/unstable support from my Boomer dad who is the only person other than myself I can rely on. I have a seven-year-old son and an ex, too, but that's all going well tbh. Just been struggling to find employment recently and worked a few dead end jobs that ended up being duds while I wait for the market to recover, if it ever does. I ended up making and losing $100k over the past year through my friend's advice which was pretty traumatic in itself. Idk, other than that things are okay but my savings are getting pretty tight and readjusting to the working world is annoying.
Did you deal with nfts at all? I have art thats one of a kind and i dont see why they wouldnt sell. Im juat ignorant to web3 shit. Im glad child and ex life is good for ya.
Not really, my friend was but not me. I was investing metaverse gaming which was really big at the end of 2021 but crashed hard right at the beginning of 2022. I knew it was time to get out but listened to my "more experienced" friend and paid the price for it. I see him now as a gambling addict rather than the self-proclaimed expert he claimed to be. Finding it hard not to hate him sometimes, especially since he broke his word with me a few times. However, he still helped me make ten times my initial investment, so I guess I can't complain much. He's not such a bad guy, but he's lacking in self control.
Now you know to trust your insticts more next time sounds like.
Didn't help that he was in control of my investment. If I had the sell button in front of me I definitely would've pushed it, or at least I tell myself that. I asked him to take out $20k many times and he assured me he would but then didn't. That was what really pushed me over the line. Still, he feels bad (which isn't making me any dollars, but still). It's worth it to keep him around.
To clarify, I never really planned it that way. He just asked me to send him some Bitcoin I was holding onto to invest and it snowballed from there. He has been pretty generous in the past though, so I can't hate him.
I have never seen such innocene and purity before my daughter. Who she is and who shes turning into has helped make it not as bad. She doesnt deserve what she has to see when her mother and i are together
Bro atleast try to channel her skitzo energy into something productive. Teach her to edit fashwave and hyperborea videos and stuff. Maybe having an outlet for her delusions will help? Idk I'm not a brain doctor don't take my advice it might make things worse
Shes really into calligraphy and csn make nice cards. Ive been more thsn encouraging. When we met she tsught barre classes at the ymca and was a real fit cutie. When our daughter was born, the anesthesiologist went 1 vertabrae too high, according to her and she stopped all physical activity. I could deal with all the bullshit if she wasnt a cow.
If the numbers don't tell you what's going on noone can, anon
>she WAS worth it
Ask yourself if you’d ever do the things she did, anon. Really try to imagine the roles reversed. Would you give your gf of several years an ultimatum because she suffered from depression after her dad died? Would you leave her during a health crisis?
Sounds like she wasn't worth it, man. Hope things get better for you soon. You can do this.
How do all these dudes who never leave their houses get girlfriends? God I hate my life dude
Getting a retail job helps. It basically forces you to have a social life and if you’re young there’s a very good chance you’ll mostly be around people your age.
Normalgays just sort of get girlfriends automatically. They don't have to try or do anything. It's like a passive ability
I don't know your gf, but it sounds like you dodged a bullet. All of those situations were out of your control and she should've been understanding about it.
>muh ultimatum
prostitute shit.
Find a woman that will support you in your heaviest hour. Those are the only ones worth your seed, anon
Oh poor you.
>finally realizing that my career goals (entertainment industry) are incompatible with reality
>finally talked to this girl I've been thinking about for months, turns out she has a boyfriend
>gained like 10 lbs in a month and am becoming skinnyfat
>only real friend moved to another state
>might have to get major invasive surgery because of mega kidney stones
>everyone I have to interact with irl is a schitzo
>losing motivation to do anything including even watching movies, spend the last couple days ERPing and catfishing
>emailing a dominatrix and setting up a date for her to come choke me with her thighs for an hour for $400
how did you get those kidney stones, anon?
Not him (I'm the other guy ITT who currently has kidney stones) but there are a host of things that cause them, best thing you can do to prevent them is drink. A lot. I'm 32 and otherwise healthy, I've got two.
>finally talked to this girl I've been thinking about for months, turns out she has a boyfriend
iktf, that's why you hit her up and hit on her ASAP so you don't have to suffer that
>dominatrix
based
4 hundo god damn this stuff is a rich man's game i guess
Youd think itd be a buyeys market by now
only if you're cursed to live in muttistan or its hat
in the rest of the world you can easily bang hot girls for the price of two video games
a dominatrix and setting up a date for her to come choke me with her thighs for an hour for $400
I am too, reaching the end of my rope. Wish I had a girl to choke me just because honestly wants to see me gasp for air, not because she wants to get paid.
My dad just had a heart transplant after suffering with heart failure for years. I am now taking care of him at home. All of this has turned my life upside down. Trying to balance my own life with his care needs has been overwhelming and I feel more isolated than ever. Ive been alone my whole life and I have no one for support.
Am the guy above whose father had a brain aneurysm. Completely know what you're going through. REAL rough shit, my sympathies.
Youre not alone. You have your dad. Cherish this time now.
https://voca.ro/1cYe0D2UiEUQ
Excuse the absolute fricking state of me
you sound shitfaced
I am, m8.
I was supposed to go have a counseling appointment with my wife, but the counselor got sick. I was looking forward to spending time after work regardless of the appointment, but she decided to take a nap and hasn’t only really woken up enough to tell me that it was too late for me to come by with dinner. It’s been 11 months since she kicked me out of the house after I confronted her about meeting another man when she said she was seeing one of her girlfriends. It’s been 7 months since we last had sex.
Honestly my man, if you don't have kids, it might be worth cutting your losses and ending things. Even if you love her, she wont ever respect you again and the running around will continue. If you have kids, then that sucks man, don't have any advice i have no idea bro
15*
Quit University last month and am starting an apprenticeship next month.
Can't shake the feeling that I'm a massive failure. It's not lie Uni was too hard for me, I just couldn't get off my ass.
I feel like shit and have caught myself driving like a jackass the last couple of weeks. I'm trying to stay on my feet but it's kind of been a lot lately.
>Quit University last month and am starting an apprenticeship
You have absolutely made the right decision. Two thirds of the c**ts I know with degrees don't even have jobs, only one of the others has a job in the field they studied. Meanwhile every tradesman I know from growing up has money in the bank and their shit together. Don't buy into the bullshit expectations, you've done your future self a solid.
After being depression-free for a year and a half, my depression came back two months ago. And it is worse than before. I have started self harming.
Also, I am like 6 months behind on watching shows.
Self harming how?
Cutting myself
Well, quit it. You can harm without physical scarification bro
I’m happily married and have a kid. I’m doing well, career is alright but looking for something better down the road. Family is healthy. But the world is giving me anxiety. The things I cannot control, the direction things are going, is messing with my head.
Almost done school and have a job lined up, getting married soon, life is moving very very fast. I also gained like 100 lbs in the past 2 years which is insane. overall feeling okay but almost like it could all come crashing down any minute now. I constantly live for those rare moments when you truly feel at peace and like everything is fine
I just want a cute boyfriend with a pink bussy
you all go about in pity for yourself
been a fricked up, mentally ill dumbass my whole life because of abuse. i've made some progress in becoming normal but im starting to feel like its worthless and im gonna get locked in to this lifestyle
Exact same boat.
anyone else addicted to the neet life?
No. I'm so fricking done with the NEET life. I should have never taken that year off once i graduated college.
Unfortunately once you go 7 years it's basically impossible to get out.
In another life i would do it worry free
I have literal nightmares about being a wagie again. Been a NEET for about a year and savings are running dry. FML
i quit my desk job back in january and been doing the neet life since. if someone would buy my (secondary) car i could keep going along but its getting pretty lean for me right now.
What kind of car and where?
yeah, but only because its the only life i know.
I've been putting off "actually taking a look at my resume" for way too long now dude
I don't even enjoy being a NEET
I don't like video games and I don't like watching anything on tv. All I enjoy is listening to podcasts and exercising and I'm NOT even a joe rogan fan.
I hate being a NEET but I hate being a wagie even more.
Yeah, best think I ever did was drop out of life.
Frick slaving away for the israelite surrounded by normalhomosexuals.
yeah its comfy
Trying to cope with the fact that I will never develop a meaningful human relationship is tough, I want to have a nice wife and kids, shit, I already have land and a house. It's never going to happen though as much as I'd like it to.
I still have a month until classes start again, less than two years til I get my degree and move on with my life, and I feel like I'm stuck in a pendulum that swings between blissful ignorance and painful nihilism.
The only things I do both at home and at work are read, eat fast food, and browse twitter / here, feeling like an honorary NEET the whole time. For maybe 2/3 of the days I've spent like this I don't mind this, shit I even enjoy how simple of a life this is, but the remaining 1/3 is just dreadful. It's like the difference between enjoying the ride through the tunnel and realizing that there isn't a light at the end of it.
My goal is to get this degree, move out of my parents house and across the country, and start my own life. Make friends, get a girlfriend, write some books, start a family, and live comfortably. But on some days this just feels like a fake light that I've put further back in the tunnel to keep me from an heroing. What the frick happens if I'm not happy after I achieve all those things?
The one film / book I've found that accurately conveys this kind of dread is Trainspotting, and I really don't know what I'd do without it.
What is your degree?
Electrical Engineering.
Good for you.
JUST ONE OF THOSE DAYS
JUST WISH TODAY WAS OVER ALREADY
Is Shane Gillis not hilarious? & you know Lorne loved the kid & it was some bullshit
I finally started to make decent money but it's a hard ass labor job and I inhale concrete and asphalt dust all day, it good money but God damn I feel substantial unhealthy in the time I've been working there. I can't quit the union right now but I don't wanna stay so I gotta suck it up and make moves where I can make a living without sacrificing my body but other than that in ok I guess
I hate my job so fricking much. I hate going to the office when I could do my work from home easily, and I have almost all of my coworkers. I Have literally 0 energy or motivation to do anything when I get home from work. I wake up tired even if I sleep 8 hours. I can't draw, I can't play vidya, I can't concentrate on anything. I just mindlessly browse the internet on my free time, and nothing else.
I don't know if there could be a medical reason for this, or I just should get therapy. But I don't wanna lose my time talking to someone, doing moronic cognitive therapy exercises or whatever, and I don't wanna resort to prescription drugs either.
Work is work man. Show up, do what you have to do, and leave it at work. If you're not tied down by anything, thats a blessing. Enjoy your time, pursue interests snd itll all play out. Dont stop
my neet life is ending soon, im moving to a real country where i have to wage slave, im going to miss it here
i literally cannot remember being sober for more than a day at a time. i've been almost constantly drunk for a decade.
How is your body not a wreck?
who said it wasn't?
I am 25 and my life is fricking over
Not the guy you replied to, but this song kicks ass. Thanks for linking
Genuinely contemplating suicide
How about you OP
Jesus. Is anyone here actually doing well?
How could anyone be well today?
I just sorta am. And I'm fine with things that just are. Thankfully, I stopped caring about literally everything decades ago.
I'm fine.
Not caring makes you a sociopath
Perhaps, but that won't ever bother me.
Boy do i have the girl for you.
Was thinking the same thing. My biggest problem right now is that I thought some girl at work wanted my dick and I looked her up on messenger only to get ignored.
I'm fine. people just like to wallow in self-pity
also this site is full of atheists
why would you be here if you were?
This pepe perfectly describes it
>Nothing is ever over.
It seems like it is, but it's not.
Its been a year since i lost my dad, i really just lost hope for any dreams i used to have, i dont give a frick, i found a job i like so i can pass the time and not leech off mom's, i come back to post on Cinemaphile and have a few drinks before going to sleep.
my big plans for the future is being alive to see big happenings like the economy crashing or a real war, seeing everyone else suffer makes me feel better, last night i saw a post where a redditor is desperate because of gas prices, slept like a baby
Sorry about your dad bro, I'm in a similar situation. Honestly I only cope by writing shit and playing games now.
I have 1.78 in my account and I walked to the store to get a steel reserve and they raised the price lmao
Steal it
how far away is the store?
>down to literally your last dollar
I worry about this every time I go to the liquor store with exact change
>get married
>she divorces me
>lose everything
>pour myself into work
>want to buy a house for myself
>prices skyrocket
>lose promotion to diversity hire
>house prices skyrocket
>could never afford one in my town now
>give up on the rat race
>quit trying at work
>just workout and read philosophy
>no friends
>haven't felt human touch in 6 months
't felt human touch in 6 months
rookie numbers
6 months lmfao. Assuming you aren't counting hugs from family, that ain't shit.
Also when you buy something at the store, when the cashier girl hands you your receipt or change, try over reaching just a bit so your hands make contact.
>Also when you buy something at the store, when the cashier girl hands you your receipt or change, try over reaching just a bit so your hands make contact.
The real life hack
>family
lmao. I don't have family. I'm going to try that cashier thing though.
You'd have to be a moron to get married anon, ofc you were eventually going to get divorce-raped, what did you expect?
I've been through a lot the past couple years trying to finish my Master's degree. My mom nearly killed herself, a ton of my friends from undergrad cut me off over petty bullshit. I got snubbed out of teaching at one of the best high schools in the city because my supervising teacher was a miserable israelite c**t. On top of that I'm a virgin and I've been on a million first dates this summer alone. All of them fricking ghost after the first date. I have a lot of moments where I feel like I'm at my limit, but I have some where I'm thankful to be alive for whatever reason. All in all, just surviving.
Feel like I'm forever stuck in useless dead end jobs getting abused because I didn't go to university.
Sorry to hear that anon, I hope things get better.
>I'm 25
>I've been in a long distance online relationship with the only girl I could ever speak to for the past 5 years.
>I have nobody in my life besides her and my family who I want to escape from
>I fooled around on the side just as an ego boost since she could only visit once a year. But I couldn't cum or achieve any real pleasure with them even when i fricked a model bawd
>Now other women repulse me, I only want my online gf
>She lives in America and I'm in Canada
>I fricking hate my life here and everything about the filth they call people in it. I hate winter, the humidity, the cost of living, the complete lack of culture or taste. Everyone here is so fricking mindless and boring
>to this day I still consider the only time I experienced true happiness in my life was when I visited her 3 years ago
>I proposed we do a k1 visa and get married and she agreed.
>I'm saving money til the day our application is approved and then I'll leave Canada for good.
>I'm just waiting til the day I leave like I'm a convict in prison waiting to be free.
As a fellow Canadian, i feel exactly the same way as you do about this place
Cheers m8. I always felt like anytime someone talked about the positives of Canada it always sounded like cope.
Trying to decide between like 5 equally shitty overpriced cities and ugly towns with the most moronic inbred morons alive on earth had me depressed my whole life.
>>I fricking hate my life here and everything about the filth they call people in it. I hate winter, the humidity, the cost of living, the complete lack of culture or taste. Everyone here is so fricking mindless and boring
Ok.
Just ok. Very apathetic about everything. Lost all drive, dreams and ambitions. Just getting to terms with the fact that the good parts of my life is behind me, that I never got what I wanted nor what I needed and even if I got it now, it would be too late anyway. Certain things just shape you for the rest of your life.
I dont even have anything to be sad about anymore because I've come to terms with my losses, but I never replaced those losses with anything. So there's just this emptiness in it's place.
And I guess it's ok. I'm fine with emptiness.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve been to so many doctors over the years, all of them with their own answer. I’m just in pain all the time.
How’s a person supposed to live and work and socialize when it’s hard just getting out of bed?
I’ve actually wondered if one of my parents has munchausen’s and is poisoning me or something.
It's indeed been one of those days for about 3 years now, I have no soul or energy left, just spite and depression.
>realizing that even with how unbearable things are now, you’ll someday wish you could come back to these days
>because things are only gonna get worse
I had a good time at Anime North 2022
It's 1AM where I'm at, I have to get up tomorrow and do real life things, and I'm dreading it, because I never do anything I actually want to do, and I'm always in conflict with my family.
I have some (relative) youth left and I'm desperate to do something with it, yet time passes me by and I'm stuck where I'm at. I don't know what the frick to do.
Go out to live music shows, get drunk, dance your ass off, talk to cute girls. Start learning a real skill/hobby like an instrument, language, craft, or code. Start exercising if you aren't already.
Youth starts fading at 24, by 25-26 it's almost gone. By 27 you know it's over, but you're stuck in a purgatory where you're not technically "old" because you haven't reached 30, but all of the signals from the milieu of your existence are indicating that you are old.
Make the most of it
no one cares what you are butthole, mass repliers get the rope
> My way out of my league gf left me to frick a married woman then tried to come back with the plan of dating me until she finds a long term gf
I've just been watching godzilla for days and ignoring it
I starting to seriously think I'm a product of twin chimerism
Nobody ever even responds to my posts in these threads
Final blackpill
There are so many tho, too much to expect someone to specifically respond to yours. Just be content with the fact someone probably read them and thought "that sucks" but didn't have anything to say.
I'm 27 and I got the first date of my life on Saturday, how do I not frick it up? I have no idea how any of this works. Do I just talk to her for a few hours then that's it? How long until the sex happen? How do I know if she likes me?
>How do I know if she likes me?
she won't
whatever you did to get her out on the first date just keep doing that. If you guys are sitting close and talking and she pauses and just looks into your eyes for a moment without saying anything that's the que to kiss her.
You got this fren.
Thanks for the tip fren
My only priority is to not spill my spaghetti
Face it, its your first date ever. These things are learned exlerience. Go with the flow and keep a smile on your face and have fun. Confidence is key
If sex is the no one priority its doomed
Establish comfortable physical contact as soon as possible. It will take away the nerves and confirm she's attracted to you. A hug, a long touch of the hand, brushing her hair, something. Just start by getting her laughing and moving close to her. See if she's comfortable with you entering her space. Then compliment her and maintain eye contact (don't stare her down tho). You want to see that harm smile inviting you to touch her in some way.
>haven't felt a human touch in 5 years
>only thing keeping me from suicide is my long distance GF
>airline ticket prices went up 20% overnight
I'm gonna be able to do it but holy frick that was a close call.
Is she coming to you or you to her?
Me to her
How will you enslave her that way?
I'm not interested in having control over another person
How do you know she doesnt have the same intentions? Not trying to be a dick, lookimg out for fellow anon
Enslaving me?
Yes. Trapping you.
I wouldn't mind.
I don't think so.
If it wasn't for this I'd absolutely have ended my life years ago. This is the only affection I have in my life.
How long have you two been talking.
You better prey she dosen't stab you in the back, she might only be pretending to care about you. The odds arent in your favor sir, just dont let it be the final nail
Good luck comrade. Been in a long distance relationship for 5 years myself and we're getting married to be together finally. It's the only way a moron like myself could ever naturally get a girl to be comfortable around me.
I hated the flights. Basically losing all your yearly savings just to receive the passive affection that regular couples have on weekends. I hope it works out and you two close the gap soon .
2018 was the last year of my life that was a mostly good year for me because it was the last year of my life that was mostly a carefree year for me. 2019 was a nightmarishly bad year for me, while 2020 and 2021 were only slightly better years for me. 2022 has not been a very good year for me so far, but at least it's been better for me than 2019 was (although that's not saying much). Being an eternal optimist, I will continue to pray and hope for a brighter and better future for myself and the world at large even though things seem bleak as frick right now.
It can always be worse right?
True and checked.
Good for you.
I wish weed did that for me, I become a completely useless lump whenever I smoke it.
Been sober for about a year now but I’ve also been at a fricking dead end, moved to a different state for a job opportunity that fell through, extremely embarrassed about it and stubbornly trying to make it work here rather than go back home with my tail between my legs. I’m 30 and haven’t ever had a “real job” just part time work and internships and I’m starting to panic at how shitty my resume is at my age. College dropout too, I just want to be proud of myself and not feel the need to constantly lie to my family about how my life’s going and what I’m doing everyday (doing nothing).
I’m working hard on staying more positive and if this career shit doesn’t work out in the next 6 months then I’m gonna finish school and reset. Always gotta stay moving, I don’t want to get stuck, even if things seem hopeless.
I'm good thanks, enjoying life, no worries
based, lots of bad shit happened to me but still doing good overall.
I've been NEET for the past 10 years and it can't go on much longer but I'm very much aware that it's destroyed my chances of ever getting a decent job. It's also stunted me mentally to the point where I'm not sure I could get a job or even rent my own place due to crippling social aversion. For months now I've been trying to work up the courage to make a dentist appointment, but I just can't bring myself to dial the phone.
Despite all that I feel strangely fine though, better than I have in years.
Would you pay someone to do simple things like calling for a dentist apt? Might be a good career OP
>I've been NEET for the past 10 years and it can't go on much longer but I'm very much aware that it's destroyed my chances of ever getting a decent job.
This is the most abysmal feel
Anon please dial that dentist.
I promise you that you'll be fine.
You'd be surprised how fast you could catch on. You'll get used to working in a week if not 3 days. You can type in complete sentences which makes you smarter than 60% of the workforce. Don't sell yourself short because most people are walmart employees who got lucky landing a decent job. Most work is piss easy. You'll forget all about your short comings and learn to hate your coworkers for being lazy and stupid. Just apply anon and walk through your fears
What job could I get if I'm looking to get out of a 10-year long career in retail? Yes, 10 years. A job where I don't have to deal with people would be amazing.
Apply for any factory job you can.
this except unironically
mom had several strokes, bf left me, trying to stay off the bottle, work is killing me, i'm always a few lapses in thought from a panic attack, rare heart condition could take me whenever wherever
wanna die frens
You can drink to help take the edge off. Just dont go overboard
>bf left me
Are you gay or female?
I like being around everyone who has wronged me and watching bad things happen to them, i think thats why i was put on this world
My twin sister died in January from a drug overdose. Last week my mother committed suicide due to grief. My friends have stopped talking to me because they don't know how to approach this trauma.
I've developed a heart arrhythmia due to all the stress and I haven't slept more than 5hrs a night in 6 months. I don't know how to heal from this. My sister was half my soul. We shared an existence together. The pain of her being gone feels like I'm dying
Damn man, I can’t imagine. The only reason I haven’t an heroed is because of my sister, don’t know what to say but I feel for you.
I'm so sorry dude
Damn and I thought shit was going bad for ME. But reading your post made me realise how good my life is in comparison to yours. But don't worry, God will set things right for you again when the time is right.
frick dude, i dont know what to say. i hope you pull through
Where is your father?
Rise up for the official NEET anthem
>All these youngsters with gfs and income posting about how depressed they're with no future.
>Be 30 year old skinnyfat NEET who hasn't held a job in 6 years with no marketable skills.
It's ogre. I can't even enter these threads for comfort anymore. Kek.
I'm going to take a crack at deducing this, but I think you aren't remotely as miserable as anybody here with a job, income and an active if broken romantic life. Because they actually give and the stress that comes with it.
Most robots tend to just not give a shit and seem more content to let those experiences slip by. Essentially dropping out of the race.
>but I think you aren't remotely as miserable as anybody here with a job, income and an active if broken romantic life. Because they actually give and the stress that comes with it.
There's a special kind of misery that comes from knowing you're staring down a yawning void with no way of escaping it.
Exactly how I feel.
>I'm going to take a crack at deducing this
Already knew this was going to be an absolutely abhorrent post when I read this.
>you aren't remotely as miserable as anybody here with a job, income and an active if broken romantic life.
Haven’t you ever heard the expression “better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all?” It’s absolutely miserable being a spectator to normal people living normal lives. You are stuck with 24/7 self loathing. You have to live with the fact that you are a genetic dead end who will just end up disappointing anyone who ever cared about you.
It’s not a feeling that normies will ever understand, so don’t even try to say shit about it.
>Essentially dropping out of the race
You’re neglecting the fact that these people have tried and failed. Not to mention that most normal people barely even have to try to live a normal life.
>think about texting a guy friend to do something this weekend rather than just playing with my old undergrad buddies online
>don't do it
>think about texting a girl to try to go on a date or something
>don't do it
Why is it harder to break the status quo and text people I don't usually message? I can text other people without hesitation. Why am I lazy?
It's anxiety not lazyness
But you really should do it
NEETbros how many of us were beaten as children
I'm lending two thousand dollars to a schizophrenic guy who can't hold a job, and I'm mostly doing it because of my religion.
i am an jobless schizo pls send monies ;_;
>turned 25 the previous week
>still haven't graduated university
>hair's thinning faster no matter the treatments
>have no idea what I even want; generally feel nothing
>still fat
>still friendless
>still a KHHV
I'm working out a bit more, sleeping and eating better. But my life is devoid of meaning. Even this place has finally lost its allure. I'm not depressed, or melancholic, I'm just empty in a sense. My problems aren't anything special or severe, I've just been stuck in a rut for so long that I don't know what to even do. And I think I'm slowly losing my mind because every day I'm becoming increasingly convinced that the universe is sending me messages and trying to steer me towards something, but I can't decide if it's a trap or not.
Don't hesitate. Do it.
Thats the problem with modern men. Weve been taught to go against instinct.
Finally finished my 4 year degree after 7 years and am interviewing for an internship in my field tomorrow. I've only gotten interviews for 3 of all the internships I applied to and was told I was the second choice (i.e. I didn't get it) for the other one I've had. I do not have a backup plan if I don't get one for this fall. I am extremely thankful for my loving, caring parents and know they are not disappointed in me but I am disappointed in myself. I wish I had the drive that my dad did. Things could be and have been a lot worse. I hope things get better for you anons who are truly struggling.
>Finally finished my 4 year degree after 7 years and am interviewing for an internship in my field tomorrow.
Same path as you, Anon. I started my undergrad in 2017 and won't be finished until late 2023. Good on you for not giving up.
It may feel like you've accomplished nothing but spinning your wheels, but that's definitely not true. Your parents are proud of you for a reason. You have a degree and you're getting highly considered in interviews. It's inevitable you land a job at this rate.
Not good, no friends anymore, no gf, working a shit job, living at mom's, just existing and watching my dreams fade away in front of my eyes
Life is cruel, but I refuse to an hero
I'm at the trying to ignore it staged but having gang stalkers really sucks
filevision and telm
I just want online classes to end and move out from my parents house
>I just want online classes to end
Get some screen capture tools to let you download the lectures, then upload them somewhere (mega, etc) and share the links here, then email university administration (annymously from a library computer) about your concerns with students uploading lectures (without permission! for free!) and watch how fast they go back to in person classes. God I feel bad for you kids getting stuck with that shit.
>spent my life from 18-25 getting high 24/7 to cope with mental issues
>at 25 I had an extreme schizophrenic episode and was forcibly placed in a mental asylum
>took antipsychotics that blunted my brain and made me sleep for 16 hours at a time
>this goes on for a year
>finally get off antipsychotics
>feel somewhat normal again
>haven't done hard drugs in over a year
>feel almost totally numb, can't really enjoy anything
>ceased interacting with my hobbies
>just sit in my room all day
Well, on the plus side, somehow through my drug fueled haze I managed to both go to university and get a good degree. Not sure how that happened, but at least I have something to start over with. I'm only 26 but I feel haggard and old. Hopefully I can get a reasonable office job, and with time, I can regain some of my humanity and learn to enjoy things again. Or not.