There's not a single waking or dreaming moment where I don't wish I talked to that one girl in high school. We had the same interests, we were both outcasts of our groups and we kept bumping into each other and looking at each other. We both felt it but I didn't have the balls to act on it, fearing I was wrong or whatever. It was so obvious, man, so obvious. It was over for me the last day of school when I realized I'd never see her again.
High school romances don't last anyway. You two would have broken up before college.
She probaly wasn't even that great, you just romanticized her up in your head >Caspere knew this
For what it's worth, I got my high school crush. To my utter surprise, she was the one who came after me. I spent all freshman year longing for her, too afraid to say anything, seeing as she was some bougie art chick and I was some juvie delinquent metalhead living at about the poverty line. She asked me to a dance sophomore year and we went out the rest of high school.
It was magic while it lasted. She made me feel like a real person worth loving, and as high school was ending, I decided to get my life in order, get money for college so we could go together. I'd in some ways been half-in, half-out of our relationship, still running with the same thugs I'd always hung out and getting in trouble as if I didn't care about her. So I'd change a bit, we'd do college, see where love took us.
I then enlist for the college money, and within a month of my departure for training, she's with a new guy, in fact someone I'd known most of my life, and they're already talking about moving in together and marriage and the whole nine. I was last to find out, too. They just did this in broad daylight, in front of all our mutual friends, and no one did or said a thing. She just started fricking one of my friends within four weeks. I was only gonna be gone three months.
She was the first and only person I ever trusted and loved, and it's thus destroyed any chance of having a meaningful relationship with any other woman. They always detect my reticence, and they always leave. My sole consolation is much of her life after me, both romantically and material, has been disastrous, and she never got much of what she wanted. Mostly she has a life she settled for. Mine turned out well otherwise, much better than anyone expected in most regards, but the one girl I thought loved me broke my heart irreperably and I've never found a way to get through that.
Point being, there's a 50% chance you dodged a nearly fatal bullet, so count your blessings, even if they are disguised.
>it's thus destroyed any chance of having a meaningful relationship with any other woman
god, Cinemaphileners are so dramatic. get over yourself you fricking pussy
At the end of my junior year of high school I finally worked up the courage to ask out my crush, another outcast type. When she ended up breaking up with me at the end of the summer I felt like I had been shot. My mental health stuff got real bad, I spent my entire senior year depressed and barely able to graduate. Maybe it's for the best that you never asked her out
First cope all problems are equal, second cope that god will fix them.
4 months ago
Anonymous
>all problems are equal
t. strawmaning gay
4 months ago
Anonymous
Ok so everyone’s got problems was just a nonsense dismissive platitude, that’s even worse.
4 months ago
Anonymous
it's saying that knowing what love is like and then being denied it, versus never experiencing it and being kept wondering, are just two examples of the kinds of suffering people go through
accepting Christ doesn't fix all your problems here, it often makes them worse, but it does save your soul
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Anonymous
If it really works for you who am I to judge, my copes are as misguided as anyones
>First day of highschool >Girl is clinging to me because she doesn't know anyone >It's like this for a week >Really try to be her friend >Within the end of the month she's got her friend circle (not me) >Ignores me for the rest of highschool
It feels a little bad still.
There's not a single waking or dreaming moment where I don't wish I talked to that one girl in high school. We had the same interests, we were both outcasts of our groups and we kept bumping into each other and looking at each other. We both felt it but I didn't have the balls to act on it, fearing I was wrong or whatever. It was so obvious, man, so obvious. It was over for me the last day of school when I realized I'd never see her again.
I was fat and incredibly shy from like 12 to 18. Truly set me back in life by about a decade.
I refuse to believe that, that kind of determinism is only really true when it's an animal bumping up against rigid limitations and challenges in nature
All he had to do was stop taking the path of least resistance and start giving a shit
>All he had to do was stop taking the path of least resistance and start giving a shit
what part of him continously taking the path of least resistance determinism.
My experience of being in a committed adult relationship for 5 years I thought was going to end in marriage but instead ended in infidelity has given me severe ptsd, destroyed all of my self esteem, and made me never want to try again
Same thing happened to me anon. I was 34 when that relationship ended, now I'm 38 and I've never been in a relationship since. I just work, frick hookers, play videogames and get drunk now.
I don’t even know where to frick hookers. I tried having a one a year after the engagement ended and I couldn’t get it up, but she also refused to blue me and just wanted me to pound her but it felt so unnatural and wrong. What’s the point of sex without love. 23-28 I was happy, I’m 30 now and lonely and sad and frustrated at myself. I keep having nightmares about her, I don’t know why, we’ve had zero interaction in a year. It hurts man.
I've never had sex with hookers, I feel you on not being able to stick it in something you love. I just went for blowjobs and the opportunity to give a facial.
>be me >chubby korean girl asks me to carry her plush stuffed thing to class we share >ask why I would do that >she looked hurt from that >she drifted away from me after that
>half white half black freshman girl >super clingy >always wants to work with me in after school program we're in >she knits me a scarf for me >gives it to me in a gift box she made herself out of paper and drew all over it >find it years later fricking around in my room drunk after work >throw it away
>another girl >we buy each other food >in said after school program too >work together all the time, end up running it together >we graduate and she invites me to get lunch together >invites me to 4th of july bbq >just quit talking to her
>be me >depressed 16 year old high schooler >qt3.14 starts making a point to sit next to me in most of our classes all of a sudden >We'll occasionally make small talk, but for the most part we just sit in silence >Catch her staring and smiling at me often >Confused by her behavior, my depressed mind can't even fathom that she might like me >Never made any kind of move, she eventually gave up and stopped sitting next to me
Kino for this feel?
This. You are who you are. The moment you accept this as unchangeable fact, is the moment you liberate yourself as a person. >I know who I am >there is a victory in that
27. I got a good career making good money, my own place, a girlfriend (not filipino). Lost that girlfriend when my autism came out and I've since decided to just go to work and go home. I've even taken the Rust advice of not drinking before noon.
I just run an olive shop in an eastern european shithole and that sort of thing. Not a lot of money but little hours and it keeps me afloat. seeing young people with girlfriends destroys me inside a lot of the time but i've accepted it. not on speaking terms with any of my family, i pay for this small apartment in the same building as the shop i work in for this old guy. it's something. i get sad a lot. i really get sad. it's bad enough to intentionally waste your youth but to put yourself out there only to be brutally turned down and humiliated each time is worse. i wish you all well in your lives. we could have been different but we have to keep going.
Does it make a difference when those people who wasted their youth but didn't try would still have just gotten rejected and humiliated. Atleast you can say you gave it a shot unlike the rest of us even though the end result would likely be the same. I live in a 1st world country but what's the point? my youth is gone, i have nothing and only chronic health conditions to show for it. Life is such a joke for people like us.
Life tears everybody down, anon. Those people you envy and believe to have lead fulfilled lives in their youth will still end up miserable pieces of crap who's entire life will be reminiscing when they were little shits running around bars. They'll actually be even MORE miserable than you because eventually, the party has to end. Life isn't about that, life is a senseless grind and it'll destroy everyone by the end. At least we got a taste of REAL life (not the fugazzi world these people lived in) and we're better equipped to survive. I know this guy who was a total party animal/womanizer who ended up a total failure as did every single person of this type. I mean, total failure. Guy still hangs around 18 year old gals when he's in his 30's. That's not a place anyone wants to be. It's basically 'grass is greener on the other side' they have their few years of 'bliss' then get the most brutal introduction to the real world.
Maybe that's just our way of coping thinking that eventually they'll have a shit life and even if they did, atleast they got to experience somethign while we didn't.
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I wish it was so I'd have something to be zealous of but now i'm just numb. The people I envied end up miserable all the same. It's not that special anon. It really isn't. Your life or situation doesn't change one iota after you've had sex with a girl. you just had some quick pleasure and that's it.
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There are times where I wish I didn't have it as good as I did so the pain would hurt a lot less.
Why did rust say not to drink before noon? My routine is coffee at 8. Then workout for about an hour and then drink at 11 or so. Get blacked out by 4 which then leads to about 5 hours or so of epic shitposting I'll forget the next day and possibly feel social anxiety over in case "i went too far".
verification not required
I don't drink but I am guessing the mood and time is right at noon. The day reaches it's midpoint and you can feel the 'grease' on the air (as one guy I knew put it) it relaxes the mind as the grind is done and you can go home and get wasted.
Are you me?
Except for the working out. I have my coffee and then I work on my writing, which is kind of working out, but I usually drink when I write, so I start breaking out the whiskey. On days I wake up exceptionally early, the whiskey has to shift its schedule. I've done it as early as 8:00.
Oh thank God. I thought I was the only one. Do you guys purposely chase the blackout just cuz that's the funnest part but then the next day ur like why did I do that?
I really just hate not remembering stretches of time and I'll be like, did I say something totally moronic?
I don't chase the blackout; it's more like my late morning/early afternoon routine, and I get woozy and take a nap and then wake up in evening and guilt myself for having boozed myself into wasting a chunk of the day.
Are you me?
Except for the working out. I have my coffee and then I work on my writing, which is kind of working out, but I usually drink when I write, so I start breaking out the whiskey. On days I wake up exceptionally early, the whiskey has to shift its schedule. I've done it as early as 8:00.
When I went off to college for the first time. Didn't make any friends, didn't interact with anyone, just went to class and went back to my apartment. Now it's the same except I go to work instead of class.
Literally me. I'm charismatic enough to make friends easily if I want to but it’s too draining to have other people in your life. I don’t care about drama and I just don’t see why everyone cares so much about things that don’t matter at all
When I was younger (early teens) I'd see those cool cats characters in the movie. Like some Chad-ish guy who takes a liking to a social inferior and teaches him the tricks. Elevates him. Then I realized that nothing of the sort was going to happen and I was not dumb enough to not see that I couldn't make it on my own. Now I'm 30 and I slowly took the consoomer pill. It's ok. Not everyone has the gift or things like the talent for the arts or a domineering nature and of course the Alpha-tier looks. I'll be doomed to be a nervous, lonesome wreck and it wasn't my father who made me so. Thanks for reading my Diary entry.
it happens every year nowadays. I find something new to try and get into to meet people, do that for about half a year, then get disillusioned and fall into a pit of depression for a while.
2022. Lost my house and my car. My "friends" didnt have a place to crash anymore so I outlasted my usefullness. I would go back to construction but that os almost impossible tp do without reliable transportation. Funny to me I was better off at 22 than I am at 28.
I dropped out of college in 2012 and have done nothing since. I'm 32, almost 33 now. Haven't had a gf since I dropped out. My friends are all going to do great things for themselves. I gotta get back in the game. I don't know how.
I know its trite but maybe go learn a trade and make some money with your hands. Its not glamorous but you'll get back out there, make some money and pick up valuable skills. Men are built to work and the right job can bridge the gap between cerebral satisfaction and physical exertion. You're still young enough where you can do a lot of things. You just have to start small and build some momentum.
t. pipe welder
My parents and grandma within 3 years of each other to cancer dying then me realizing I'd probably have to watch after my weird OCD uncle and my late to launch zoomer sister for nearly the rest of my life.
After college and being in debt for the rest of my 20s. Spent too many years as a lonely sperg even with friends, and tensed up around women even when I was in decent shape.
At the very least I've got most of my 30s still ahead of me with a decent job and I pulled myself from the student loan tar pit. Only thing is now I see people in my demographic settling down with kids and homes. It's like I spent my whole life being a decade behind everyone.
2021. About to leave the Marines just before the vax mandates, libtard dad says I can't come home unless I take the shot.
I went my own way and now I have a house and go to college, but frick my life could have been easier.
it began when i started high school, with my developing social anxiety, depression, and drug problem. it really happened when i started college (nice, expensive liberal arts school) and only lasted a semester there without making any friends. 5 years later i'm still getting my shit together as slowly as possible
Man it was satisfying seeing this rat frick get beat up and squirm >Remember where I found you?Pushing baby aspirins to club kids. Johnny wanted to cap you in the alley I said nah, there's potential there.Now you just shit my carpet
The people pursuing him were cops, and he was on the lam. They could've killed him and public and claimed he was a dangerous criminal, no one would have batted an eye
I think I might have the timeline messed up. I thought he visited his son and then when he went back to the car, that's when he noticed the tracker, and from there he drove off into the forest. Did I remember wrong?
Also the implication either way is that he had eyes on him and would have lead them to everybody else if he hadn't noticed it.
No you got it right
But once he has the tracker, why go into an empty forest
Go into a public place, yes you’re still being hunted but it’s harder for shady spec ops boys to hunt you in a crowded mall than it is in an empty forest
It just seems like he gives up once he notices on the freeway
Yeah, honestly I would have tried to sneak off and jack another car like he lied that he was going to. He may have missed the boat but he could have still survived. Amongst all the nitpicking of S4, I'll allow a nitpicking of this.
I used to be the most negative, dour and completely insufferable person until I woke up one morning and my system couldn't handle any more negativity. I can't stop smiling or making jokes, having fun. I realized that forcing yourself to be jovial and happy despite your immense suffering and less-than-ideal situation in life, it's basically out of spite. Don't reject anger or spite or try to cleanse it, let it be because it'll always be there. Just try to play a cat-and-mouse game and always make sure you're happy and smiling, never let yourself be influenced by the words of others. We're all meat puppets having fun on a rotating ball of space matter. None of it matters and that's the good part. I hope you set yourself free and be as considerate to yourself, even one bit, as you are of what others say or think.
This. Part of why my prime years were so wasted was because I spent them being insufferably arrogant, cynical, and condescending, thinking that's what it meant to be grown up compared to my peers being "happy" and "in the moment". Only now do I realize what an unlikable person I was.
It's cool until you can't go even a half a day without and that you drink it like water, and getting the shakes in the morning and taking your morning drink to keep yourself from having a seizure.
The worst part isn't the depression, the money you waste, the effects on your body or even the relationships you destroyed but the collective realization of all the stupid embarrassing shit you did while shitfaced.
Sometimes I don't feel like I can take it anymore lads. I've been trying to overcome my OCD for years, but it's only gotten worse. If only my youth had been different
>PERSONAL STRUGGLES >INNER TURMOILS >CONFLICTS WITH THE SELF
holy frick why is every detective show like this? every fricking one, holy shit a guy on the job is sad because his uh grandpa died or shit or he does drugs and it's the focus of 60% of the series
It's a story about four people trying to be what they're not and failing miserably. I honestly can't think of an recent show that's so uncompromising bleak.
It's a story about four people trying to be what they're not and failing miserably. I honestly can't think of an recent show that's so uncompromising bleak.
i disagree, yeah it's bleak, but such is life. those broken characters don't gladly accept evil, don't agree, they all want to be better, and in the end all men die fighting for those they love, and women survive to carry the life. doesn't get much better than that in life, ask anyone who spent the whole life as a soulless npc
anons i'd really suggest you to read all of ligattis work (especially conspiracy against the human race and noctuary) and pizzolatto's novels.The only reason you cling to this season is the dialog so go straight to the source
Look on the bright side, if you're 30 or over maybe now's the time to act like an adult. I think the reason why some of us are the way are is because we, on some subconscious level, didn't enjoy "being young". Probably because we saw how young and dumb some of our peers were and knew how they'd wind up in the "adult world" (and some of us were proven right).
To any anons here, if you've taken care of yourself and you have a modicum of disposable income, you can change now.
I feel the same way. If I didn't have a shitty fricked up childhood I'd be a normal, successful person.
There's not a single waking or dreaming moment where I don't wish I talked to that one girl in high school. We had the same interests, we were both outcasts of our groups and we kept bumping into each other and looking at each other. We both felt it but I didn't have the balls to act on it, fearing I was wrong or whatever. It was so obvious, man, so obvious. It was over for me the last day of school when I realized I'd never see her again.
High school romances don't last anyway. You two would have broken up before college.
She probaly wasn't even that great, you just romanticized her up in your head
>Caspere knew this
Who knows? That's what's torturing me.
For what it's worth, I got my high school crush. To my utter surprise, she was the one who came after me. I spent all freshman year longing for her, too afraid to say anything, seeing as she was some bougie art chick and I was some juvie delinquent metalhead living at about the poverty line. She asked me to a dance sophomore year and we went out the rest of high school.
It was magic while it lasted. She made me feel like a real person worth loving, and as high school was ending, I decided to get my life in order, get money for college so we could go together. I'd in some ways been half-in, half-out of our relationship, still running with the same thugs I'd always hung out and getting in trouble as if I didn't care about her. So I'd change a bit, we'd do college, see where love took us.
I then enlist for the college money, and within a month of my departure for training, she's with a new guy, in fact someone I'd known most of my life, and they're already talking about moving in together and marriage and the whole nine. I was last to find out, too. They just did this in broad daylight, in front of all our mutual friends, and no one did or said a thing. She just started fricking one of my friends within four weeks. I was only gonna be gone three months.
She was the first and only person I ever trusted and loved, and it's thus destroyed any chance of having a meaningful relationship with any other woman. They always detect my reticence, and they always leave. My sole consolation is much of her life after me, both romantically and material, has been disastrous, and she never got much of what she wanted. Mostly she has a life she settled for. Mine turned out well otherwise, much better than anyone expected in most regards, but the one girl I thought loved me broke my heart irreperably and I've never found a way to get through that.
Point being, there's a 50% chance you dodged a nearly fatal bullet, so count your blessings, even if they are disguised.
>it's thus destroyed any chance of having a meaningful relationship with any other woman
god, Cinemaphileners are so dramatic. get over yourself you fricking pussy
At the end of my junior year of high school I finally worked up the courage to ask out my crush, another outcast type. When she ended up breaking up with me at the end of the summer I felt like I had been shot. My mental health stuff got real bad, I spent my entire senior year depressed and barely able to graduate. Maybe it's for the best that you never asked her out
you did what you could, being the person you were at the time
Yes but it still would have gained some experience and opened up emotional blockages instead of ending up a 30 something virgin
t. Different anon
this
first time posting itt but the point is everyone's got their burdens and suffering
seek Christ, anons
Two copes in the same post
that makes no sense
First cope all problems are equal, second cope that god will fix them.
>all problems are equal
t. strawmaning gay
Ok so everyone’s got problems was just a nonsense dismissive platitude, that’s even worse.
it's saying that knowing what love is like and then being denied it, versus never experiencing it and being kept wondering, are just two examples of the kinds of suffering people go through
accepting Christ doesn't fix all your problems here, it often makes them worse, but it does save your soul
If it really works for you who am I to judge, my copes are as misguided as anyones
You're not alone brother
Dude, forgive yourself. Just take a deep breath, and accept what's past is past.
dont let it get you down anon. you cant change the past.
>we kept bumping into each other and looking at each other
AAAAAAAAAAGGGHHHHHHHHH
>First day of highschool
>Girl is clinging to me because she doesn't know anyone
>It's like this for a week
>Really try to be her friend
>Within the end of the month she's got her friend circle (not me)
>Ignores me for the rest of highschool
It feels a little bad still.
>It's a 'nice and attractive girl finds out that you're not as popular or interesting as she initially thought' episode
Find her on social media. Maybe she’s a loser, too,
Where does love go when it goes?
Mine became an international best seller and I see her books everytime I go into a bookstore. A major popstar also just had her on her podcast.
She wrote in my yearbook that she thought I was cute, I didn't see the note until like 10 years later when I reopened it
How old are you now? You could still go find her
I was fat and incredibly shy from like 12 to 18. Truly set me back in life by about a decade.
Yeah out of all the lies people tell themselves - i bet that's the most common.
Shut up Frank. You're one to talk.
They say talk is cheap. Not for me. I'm rich
Im right this world is wrong. The only way I couldve been different was by leaving; as long as I stayed here I was doomed.
>I could've been different.
no, phil was always meant to be the way he is. there was never any hope for anything different.
I refuse to believe that, that kind of determinism is only really true when it's an animal bumping up against rigid limitations and challenges in nature
All he had to do was stop taking the path of least resistance and start giving a shit
I did nothing wrong
I did everything correct.
unironically though
>All he had to do was stop taking the path of least resistance and start giving a shit
How can one will what one wills?
>All he had to do was stop taking the path of least resistance and start giving a shit
what part of him continously taking the path of least resistance determinism.
i can honestly seem him in middle management if he shaved that pubic beard and had one or two more IQ points. it'd be a perfect fit for Philbert.
>I could've been different
I KNOW THAT ALREADY!
I experienced this and it hurts. It hurts so bad. The real rock bottom is when your life is a hell and you've got no one to blame but yourself.
My experience of being in a committed adult relationship for 5 years I thought was going to end in marriage but instead ended in infidelity has given me severe ptsd, destroyed all of my self esteem, and made me never want to try again
Same thing happened to me anon. I was 34 when that relationship ended, now I'm 38 and I've never been in a relationship since. I just work, frick hookers, play videogames and get drunk now.
I don’t even know where to frick hookers. I tried having a one a year after the engagement ended and I couldn’t get it up, but she also refused to blue me and just wanted me to pound her but it felt so unnatural and wrong. What’s the point of sex without love. 23-28 I was happy, I’m 30 now and lonely and sad and frustrated at myself. I keep having nightmares about her, I don’t know why, we’ve had zero interaction in a year. It hurts man.
One night stand***
I've never had sex with hookers, I feel you on not being able to stick it in something you love. I just went for blowjobs and the opportunity to give a facial.
There was no girl for me.
>be me
>chubby korean girl asks me to carry her plush stuffed thing to class we share
>ask why I would do that
>she looked hurt from that
>she drifted away from me after that
>half white half black freshman girl
>super clingy
>always wants to work with me in after school program we're in
>she knits me a scarf for me
>gives it to me in a gift box she made herself out of paper and drew all over it
>find it years later fricking around in my room drunk after work
>throw it away
>another girl
>we buy each other food
>in said after school program too
>work together all the time, end up running it together
>we graduate and she invites me to get lunch together
>invites me to 4th of july bbq
>just quit talking to her
Yep. I'm getting blackout drunk again tonight
Yep, that about sums it up.
>be me
>depressed 16 year old high schooler
>qt3.14 starts making a point to sit next to me in most of our classes all of a sudden
>We'll occasionally make small talk, but for the most part we just sit in silence
>Catch her staring and smiling at me often
>Confused by her behavior, my depressed mind can't even fathom that she might like me
>Never made any kind of move, she eventually gave up and stopped sitting next to me
Kino for this feel?
No need to continue meming that this Season was good.
It has all of two memorable sequences- the shootout, and Ray’s rock’n’roll relapse.
Casper knew this.
No you couldn't.
This. You are who you are. The moment you accept this as unchangeable fact, is the moment you liberate yourself as a person.
>I know who I am
>there is a victory in that
What did he mean by this?
this was the movie I realized Colin was a kino machine. i wish it was just him, insane charisma.
guess it's time for a rewatch (3rd of the year)
I hope he didnt actually say this in the movie
would it be too kino for you to handle?
It's alright lads, we'll get another chance in the next life, just make sure you don't frick that one up as well.
same
>My father made me nervous
>Maybe you were already nervous. Maybe you lacked grit.
kino. just kino.
>Oh son, they kill you. They shoot you to pieces
Why does this scene hit so hard bros?
It's realizing your dad was really hard on you because he was trying to protect you.
Damn, my dad was just like that. Very hard on me because he didn't want me making the same mistakes he did
Because you're shitposting.
>Boy that Fünke, sure is something
lots of good scenes in this, but this one comes to my mind the most often, i think i lack grit
When did it happen to you?
27. I got a good career making good money, my own place, a girlfriend (not filipino). Lost that girlfriend when my autism came out and I've since decided to just go to work and go home. I've even taken the Rust advice of not drinking before noon.
I just run an olive shop in an eastern european shithole and that sort of thing. Not a lot of money but little hours and it keeps me afloat. seeing young people with girlfriends destroys me inside a lot of the time but i've accepted it. not on speaking terms with any of my family, i pay for this small apartment in the same building as the shop i work in for this old guy. it's something. i get sad a lot. i really get sad. it's bad enough to intentionally waste your youth but to put yourself out there only to be brutally turned down and humiliated each time is worse. i wish you all well in your lives. we could have been different but we have to keep going.
Does it make a difference when those people who wasted their youth but didn't try would still have just gotten rejected and humiliated. Atleast you can say you gave it a shot unlike the rest of us even though the end result would likely be the same. I live in a 1st world country but what's the point? my youth is gone, i have nothing and only chronic health conditions to show for it. Life is such a joke for people like us.
Life tears everybody down, anon. Those people you envy and believe to have lead fulfilled lives in their youth will still end up miserable pieces of crap who's entire life will be reminiscing when they were little shits running around bars. They'll actually be even MORE miserable than you because eventually, the party has to end. Life isn't about that, life is a senseless grind and it'll destroy everyone by the end. At least we got a taste of REAL life (not the fugazzi world these people lived in) and we're better equipped to survive. I know this guy who was a total party animal/womanizer who ended up a total failure as did every single person of this type. I mean, total failure. Guy still hangs around 18 year old gals when he's in his 30's. That's not a place anyone wants to be. It's basically 'grass is greener on the other side' they have their few years of 'bliss' then get the most brutal introduction to the real world.
Maybe that's just our way of coping thinking that eventually they'll have a shit life and even if they did, atleast they got to experience somethign while we didn't.
I wish it was so I'd have something to be zealous of but now i'm just numb. The people I envied end up miserable all the same. It's not that special anon. It really isn't. Your life or situation doesn't change one iota after you've had sex with a girl. you just had some quick pleasure and that's it.
There are times where I wish I didn't have it as good as I did so the pain would hurt a lot less.
Why did rust say not to drink before noon? My routine is coffee at 8. Then workout for about an hour and then drink at 11 or so. Get blacked out by 4 which then leads to about 5 hours or so of epic shitposting I'll forget the next day and possibly feel social anxiety over in case "i went too far".
verification not required
I don't drink but I am guessing the mood and time is right at noon. The day reaches it's midpoint and you can feel the 'grease' on the air (as one guy I knew put it) it relaxes the mind as the grind is done and you can go home and get wasted.
Based, I do the same thing.
>verification not required
Oh thank God. I thought I was the only one. Do you guys purposely chase the blackout just cuz that's the funnest part but then the next day ur like why did I do that?
I really just hate not remembering stretches of time and I'll be like, did I say something totally moronic?
I don't chase the blackout; it's more like my late morning/early afternoon routine, and I get woozy and take a nap and then wake up in evening and guilt myself for having boozed myself into wasting a chunk of the day.
Are you me?
Except for the working out. I have my coffee and then I work on my writing, which is kind of working out, but I usually drink when I write, so I start breaking out the whiskey. On days I wake up exceptionally early, the whiskey has to shift its schedule. I've done it as early as 8:00.
When I went off to college for the first time. Didn't make any friends, didn't interact with anyone, just went to class and went back to my apartment. Now it's the same except I go to work instead of class.
Literally me. I'm charismatic enough to make friends easily if I want to but it’s too draining to have other people in your life. I don’t care about drama and I just don’t see why everyone cares so much about things that don’t matter at all
Let's look for a woman who is the same.
When I was younger (early teens) I'd see those cool cats characters in the movie. Like some Chad-ish guy who takes a liking to a social inferior and teaches him the tricks. Elevates him. Then I realized that nothing of the sort was going to happen and I was not dumb enough to not see that I couldn't make it on my own. Now I'm 30 and I slowly took the consoomer pill. It's ok. Not everyone has the gift or things like the talent for the arts or a domineering nature and of course the Alpha-tier looks. I'll be doomed to be a nervous, lonesome wreck and it wasn't my father who made me so. Thanks for reading my Diary entry.
it happens every year nowadays. I find something new to try and get into to meet people, do that for about half a year, then get disillusioned and fall into a pit of depression for a while.
Army. Got stuck babysitting these incompetent toddlers straight out of high school so I needed my happy juice to survive the day.
is there a name to the soundtrack playing during this scene? Makes me suicidal, in a good way
A decade ago. Nothing's changed in the past 10 years. They just slipped through my fingers.
time flies
So what do you have to show for it?
Some quality shitposts on a Xiongnu zoetrope forum.
The past 10 years have slipped through my fingers, what a waste. I wish i could go back and do things differently.
2022. Lost my house and my car. My "friends" didnt have a place to crash anymore so I outlasted my usefullness. I would go back to construction but that os almost impossible tp do without reliable transportation. Funny to me I was better off at 22 than I am at 28.
I dropped out of college in 2012 and have done nothing since. I'm 32, almost 33 now. Haven't had a gf since I dropped out. My friends are all going to do great things for themselves. I gotta get back in the game. I don't know how.
I know its trite but maybe go learn a trade and make some money with your hands. Its not glamorous but you'll get back out there, make some money and pick up valuable skills. Men are built to work and the right job can bridge the gap between cerebral satisfaction and physical exertion. You're still young enough where you can do a lot of things. You just have to start small and build some momentum.
t. pipe welder
My parents and grandma within 3 years of each other to cancer dying then me realizing I'd probably have to watch after my weird OCD uncle and my late to launch zoomer sister for nearly the rest of my life.
leave them.
When I was 26 and I finally realized what the saying "The more things change, the more they stay the same" truly means.
After college and being in debt for the rest of my 20s. Spent too many years as a lonely sperg even with friends, and tensed up around women even when I was in decent shape.
At the very least I've got most of my 30s still ahead of me with a decent job and I pulled myself from the student loan tar pit. Only thing is now I see people in my demographic settling down with kids and homes. It's like I spent my whole life being a decade behind everyone.
2021. About to leave the Marines just before the vax mandates, libtard dad says I can't come home unless I take the shot.
I went my own way and now I have a house and go to college, but frick my life could have been easier.
it began when i started high school, with my developing social anxiety, depression, and drug problem. it really happened when i started college (nice, expensive liberal arts school) and only lasted a semester there without making any friends. 5 years later i'm still getting my shit together as slowly as possible
you serve zero purpose
Man it was satisfying seeing this rat frick get beat up and squirm
>Remember where I found you?Pushing baby aspirins to club kids. Johnny wanted to cap you in the alley I said nah, there's potential there.Now you just shit my carpet
>look me in the eyes. I want to watch your lights go out
Fricking kino. I miss summer 2015.
S2 wasn’t as bad as I heard but why DID Velcoro not go to a public place when he knew he was being followed?
The people pursuing him were cops, and he was on the lam. They could've killed him and public and claimed he was a dangerous criminal, no one would have batted an eye
Yes but he had more chance to escape in a public space rather making it as easy as possible for them
Wanted to see his boy one last time.
I meant once he knew the tracker was on him
I think I might have the timeline messed up. I thought he visited his son and then when he went back to the car, that's when he noticed the tracker, and from there he drove off into the forest. Did I remember wrong?
Also the implication either way is that he had eyes on him and would have lead them to everybody else if he hadn't noticed it.
No you got it right
But once he has the tracker, why go into an empty forest
Go into a public place, yes you’re still being hunted but it’s harder for shady spec ops boys to hunt you in a crowded mall than it is in an empty forest
It just seems like he gives up once he notices on the freeway
Yeah, honestly I would have tried to sneak off and jack another car like he lied that he was going to. He may have missed the boat but he could have still survived. Amongst all the nitpicking of S4, I'll allow a nitpicking of this.
>Some people say it's not the size of the boat but rather the motion of the ocean. Well guess what, Ray? I can't even swim. Never even had a bath.
Caspere knew this.
I was so invested in the finale I forgot to be disappointed that this line doesn't actually show up.
>it's a dog eat dog world, Ray.
>And me? I'm the frickin Chinaman.
I remember this. I've never laughed as hard before or since. I was about to faint from a laughing fit when reading these.
the simplicity of
>Caspere knew this
is hilarious
someday? someday my dream will come?
>I could've been different.
I used to be the most negative, dour and completely insufferable person until I woke up one morning and my system couldn't handle any more negativity. I can't stop smiling or making jokes, having fun. I realized that forcing yourself to be jovial and happy despite your immense suffering and less-than-ideal situation in life, it's basically out of spite. Don't reject anger or spite or try to cleanse it, let it be because it'll always be there. Just try to play a cat-and-mouse game and always make sure you're happy and smiling, never let yourself be influenced by the words of others. We're all meat puppets having fun on a rotating ball of space matter. None of it matters and that's the good part. I hope you set yourself free and be as considerate to yourself, even one bit, as you are of what others say or think.
>just delude yourself bro
This. Part of why my prime years were so wasted was because I spent them being insufferably arrogant, cynical, and condescending, thinking that's what it meant to be grown up compared to my peers being "happy" and "in the moment". Only now do I realize what an unlikable person I was.
What's it like being an alcoholic Cinemaphile ?
It's cool until you can't go even a half a day without and that you drink it like water, and getting the shakes in the morning and taking your morning drink to keep yourself from having a seizure.
lots of good scenes in this, but this one comes to my mind the most often, i think i lack grit
I spend way too much fricking money on alcohol and I keep slacking at work (remote) so I can start drinking at 2. I am surely going to be fired soon.
Terrible. It takes literally decades to kill you so it isn't even good for that.
The worst part isn't the depression, the money you waste, the effects on your body or even the relationships you destroyed but the collective realization of all the stupid embarrassing shit you did while shitfaced.
>10 years
where has the time gone bros? we have to go back.
Having moron parents is infinitely worse than being an orphan
Sometimes I don't feel like I can take it anymore lads. I've been trying to overcome my OCD for years, but it's only gotten worse. If only my youth had been different
I think
>I would have never
'is actually more common
>off-topic feels shit
go back to your containment board
more Colin Farrell detective kino incoming
>PERSONAL STRUGGLES
>INNER TURMOILS
>CONFLICTS WITH THE SELF
holy frick why is every detective show like this? every fricking one, holy shit a guy on the job is sad because his uh grandpa died or shit or he does drugs and it's the focus of 60% of the series
who got that image of Rachel with cat ears shopped in?
I don't have it but I'm interested.
this one's on the house kids
Kawai, she looks like she shyly admits she likes really big dicks.
There is something so fundamentally depressing about season 2. I watched it during my peak alcoholism phase and damn I felt awful.
It's a story about four people trying to be what they're not and failing miserably. I honestly can't think of an recent show that's so uncompromising bleak.
The Lera Lynn soundtrack adds a lot to the atmosphere
>something
...almost everything. Like, that's the entire season. It's miserable and hopeless by design.
i disagree, yeah it's bleak, but such is life. those broken characters don't gladly accept evil, don't agree, they all want to be better, and in the end all men die fighting for those they love, and women survive to carry the life. doesn't get much better than that in life, ask anyone who spent the whole life as a soulless npc
anons i'd really suggest you to read all of ligattis work (especially conspiracy against the human race and noctuary) and pizzolatto's novels.The only reason you cling to this season is the dialog so go straight to the source
I haven’t given up, lads.
I’m gonna make it for all of us.
you aint making shit you bum
Look on the bright side, if you're 30 or over maybe now's the time to act like an adult. I think the reason why some of us are the way are is because we, on some subconscious level, didn't enjoy "being young". Probably because we saw how young and dumb some of our peers were and knew how they'd wind up in the "adult world" (and some of us were proven right).
To any anons here, if you've taken care of yourself and you have a modicum of disposable income, you can change now.
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