worth it if you're a virgin and want to see what the fuss is about, but do not cheap out, hire a legit expensive one
beyond that only worth it if you're rich
frick your shit of being wit0h a real woman. i cant wait to find a way to have vivid dreams of my own idealistic version affection that reality cant possibly offer
this. I fricked one, got it out of my system and felt way better about myself, it's especially cheap where i live. Gf is too much work, women are a joke and should not be a hard pursuit, they should bear children and shut up.
How do you go around hiring one? Is there some website for it or? And how do I now she's not undercover cop? and what if she's ugly would it be rude to reject her?
I on the other hand, hope I never get a girlfriend. It sounds like so much work and so much shit that I don't care for, I don't even care about sex, I'm not asexual, if someone offered it to me, I wouldn't turn it down, I just have no desire to pursue it.
It sounds like you don't want a girlfriend as much as you want to feel something towards another. You've never known what it's like to actually care about someone and the "idea" of a girlfriend that you hold is the way you express your desires outward with your non-existent experiences. In other words you lond to love but have zero clue what that actually means.
I don't want to go to Christmas because my family is overly nice to me like I'm a special needs kid who gets normal accomplishments treated like they winning the nobel prize
Had a shit time on xmas day with parents because I'm a spergtard and boring, I can't entertain people and have nothing to talk about so it was sitting around awkwardly for half the day
>15-22 >jovial twink tier youth >able to make entire family roll on the ground with laughter >everyone loves me >everyone pulling me aside and asking for personal accounts of things I’ve done just to hear my delivery >22-30 >do nothing with life >shut in NEETcel >militant Cinemaphileard >ugly sets in >not funny anymore >can’t hold a conversation anymore >haven’t laughed in years >can’t make anyone laugh I just creep them out now
They stopped inviting me to things at 26. I am only seen sometimes by very close relatives. They say I make people uncomfortable.
I don’t know I did it but I became a semi verbal recluse in the span of about a decade and a Chad life was completely thrown away.
I have never held a girls hand. Everyone in my family my age is now married and over half of them have children.
I can’t. I don’t have it in me anymore. I’m not funny or social and I can barely articulate myself in the 100 or so human interactions I have per year.
You can, you just have to try. Being able to have a conversation and be engaging is a skill that's trainable just like any other. You don't have to be a misanthrope hermit if you don't want to be, and you'll be happier if you aren't. People need friends.
Life is a process of becoming and for my time as a conscious being the majority of it has been spent sad, lonely, and angry, it has become who I am. There is no going back.
5 months ago
Anonymous
become an ethno-nat and meet these people irl. its what I did and it worked out well enough for me
5 months ago
Anonymous
this is just crap
5 months ago
Anonymous
Losing the ability to speak is crippling.
I can not string together more than three sentences. I literally lost my ability to speak because of being terminally online. I accept my fate and have made peace with dying alone. I just wanted to post in this thread because it makes me feel better and I feel a twisted sort of pride being “the biggest loser on the beach”.
5 months ago
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>I can not string together more than three sentences.
ok, but this can be fixed through practice. If people who have their brains scrambled by head trauma can literally relearn how to speak, so can you.
5 months ago
Anonymous
You’re very optimistic.
Don’t get old.
5 months ago
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I'm 34.
5 months ago
Anonymous
Maybe the people around you are narcissists that won't let you get a word in edgewise and/or don't bother to ask you questions that will help you be included? Sometimes it's not you. On the other hand if it is you, are you just a condescending negative dick about every topic that comes up? A party pooper? Do you have a resting b***h face and people think you're bringing the vibe down? Have you tried cocaine?
5 months ago
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Man I wouldn't usually recommend it but cocaine will fix this shit in a snap of the fingers. Do coke and head out to a bar once a week until you're used to the social setting and then wean off coke. - Don't mix it with drink, it'll cause you to act moronic.
I held hands with a girl before. I even sort of kind of had a girlfriend at one point (same girl) but I never considered her a girlfriend . It's weird how things work. I honestly never cared about relationships. Call me an incel chud loser, doesn't bother me.
>high school pretty boy >tackles life like a woman >never develops skills to provide value to the world >becomes a loser obsessed with vanity
the hell you built for yourself tbh
Can sort of relate, but I felt ugly since like age 5
I had a few friendships with other guys in my youth but felt too ugly to interact with girls, and they ignored me anyways
'tism really look its toll over here, spend many waking hours just wishing I didn't exist and waiting to be punished for being a failure
I am so completely spent these days
"It doesn't even matter anymore", the whims I have are mostly pointless, things that should have happened many years ago like they naturally happen for others
Casual meth user here, getting shit done, being productive, even shifting some excess pounds. It makes me nearly impotent most of the time but if you ever manage to get horny you will frick a woman to death. Or jerk off for 6 hours...insanely horny to the point where even if you are straight you will find homosexual shit arousing. A lot of people will have 24 hour fap sessions. It makes me incredibly horny to the point gay shit turns me on. I snorted daily for a year then smoked daily for a year before I got off. Caused myself to get psychosis. Sucked a few dicks. Life is better without but I still get a gram every couple months for old times sake. It eliminates the weak. Smoked a few bowls last night, fapped for 12 hours. Now I'm drinking beer and about to get some food. Idk when I'm on it I can work 80 hours/week no probs. Made me stink so bad. I was always paranoid I smelled. Of course I was too afraid to ask anyone if I did out of fear of letting on that i was on meth. I'm clean too, no problems over here. Pump up the jam.
I got molested multiple times as a toddler by my teenage sister.
It's made me "discover" myself too early and I probaly fricked up some other kids lives by passing my trauma onto them...
Because of this, I just can't have sexual relations now. Totally ruined relationships 🙁 🙁
I wish the world was a gentler place and the brutal psychopathic posts and comments I make online are a defense mechanism which protects me from the horror of reality and stops me from feeling crippling sorrow born from empathy for the human condition
if I knew my in-laws before marriage, I would not have married her... sat on the couch next to them sitting around the dining table, in my own home, just posting on Cinemaphile while they talk amongst themselves. I am not apart of their family, I am not accepted, I am not liked, and the feeling is mutual.
Make sure you get along with your potential in-laws fellas.
I broke up with my ex years ago due to a mix of things. At the time it was pure youthful impetuousness. I was bored, she was annoying me. Very surface level shallow reasons that on reflection don't really hold weight.
I am now married, do not find my wife sexually attractive and never really have, am not even sure if I love my wife anymore, and still miss my ex so much that it physically hurts me. Like i genuinely feel like someone has just died. It feels like we just broke up.
Long story short, my friend killed himself, i was diagnosed with adhd, then after my marriage started breaking down i shared some things with my therapist from my childhood and he now strongly believes i have trauma (which would explain the adhd as its basically related to trauma fricking your brain development).
The adhd and trauma brought me leaving my ex back into the spotlight for me and I miss her so fricking much i feel like killing myself. I haven't had sex with my wife in a half a year. She loves me dearly and is a lovely person but I just do not feel the same way about her as I used to.
Also, wolf of wall street is fricking trash for moronic children.
I feel bad for you and feel somewhat similarly, so let me write what helped me. My father died when I was 18, and my first gf that I loved dearly cheated on me when I was out of state for his funeral. Kinda hated women after that and had a few gfs but things never worked out because I was paranoid.
I met my wife about 6 years later. We've been married 6 years now. I definitely feel like I don't love her as much as much as I could've if I never met my first gf, but I still recognize that she's objectively better for me. I do love her. Try to look for the positive things in your wife and work on your relationship with her. Realize that your first serious relationship is always going to feel the deepest, but that doesn't mean it was the best. I think we have a tendency to put more effort into our first relationship and that makes it feel better, too - try to channel some energy into your current marriage to breathe some life into it. Good luck
Thanks but I have been feeling this way for well over a year, and we have been actively working for things for 6 months and I am only feeling worse.
The sex thing has been an issue for 4 years at this point, but my wife and i both buried our heads in the sand about it and got married anyway. I have never been sexually satisfied by her, but she loves sex with me. She has no idea about this, though. It would destroy her. Basically the way I see it is that I entered into a relationship, ignored all the signs that this wasn't something that would work out long term, hyperfocused on the proposal and wedding, and just suppressed all the issues I felt from the beginning. It feels like i tried to overcorrect for my first relationship.
The thing that gets me is that there really was no good reason for me to leave my ex. None. And my wife has done nothing wrong. I just do not find her attractive. I don't even like her smell, i don't like her touching me. She is a loving, kind, caring and understanding person, and she isn't ugly. I just have never found her sexy. I have never enjoyed sex with her. I have not only left a woman I loved, potentially ruining my life, but I have also lead on my wife and will seriously fricking hurt her.
I feel like killing myself because I can't live with either of these things.
It's like you're making the same mistake all over it you dimwit. Maybe you have a problem with your dick. After a long enough dry spell I can get it up and frick just about any pussy available. If you have gone six months without sex it's definitely you, not her.
So I met my brother's gf for the first time the other day and she told me my brother told her I'm a massive autistic moron. And okay, I did go to special ed and I do have some diagnoses but my brother is equally fricked in the head (he's my identical twin so of course should have the same intelligence and genetic disorders). Only difference is that my brother avoided a lot of special ed stuff and he never got the PDD-NOS diagnosis because he did better than me in school (only reason I did bad is because I literally refused to do anything). I'm fricking sick of being "the moronic autistic brother" even though he's clearly just as autistic and logically would HAVE to have the same disorders as me since they're all genetic. And know I know people might still talk about me like I'm some sort of drooling reject behind my back, my own family even. I don't really trust anyone anymore.
I justify age gaps these days by acknowledging that even if I'm a decade older she likely already has way more experience compared to my essentially zero experience
Like if I'm early 30s and a virgin, what's the harm in hooking up with a mid 20s age woman who's already had a dozen or more partners (even though this likely would never happen just because I'm not desirable and they have better options)
I justify age gaps these days by acknowledging that even if I'm a decade older she likely already has way more experience compared to my essentially zero experience
Like if I'm early 30s and a virgin, what's the harm in hooking up with a mid 20s age woman who's already had a dozen or more partners (even though this likely would never happen just because I'm not desirable and they have better options)
Women expect the man to basically be the leader and to take charge. It can be a lot of pressure and some men struggle with this, but it comes more naturally if you're dating a woman who is much younger than you.
I'm wasting time on Cinemaphile when I could be enjoying my Christmas present that my girlfriend got me. But I'm too depressed because she's the only person I'll be spending time with tomorrow and for some reason that's not enough. I'm too upset about my family being a bunch of fricking shitters who just does nothing but trigger me and depresses me even further to the point of wanting to commit suicide. I just can't stand being around them but I also wish that I had a life being around plenty of family members. My parents aren't around anymore but I still have a grandparent, siblings, and other extended family. They're all snobby and put me down constantly. Toxic environment year after year. I haven't been able to handle the holidays the year after losing my mom. I can't take it anymore.
I can't even conceive a woman liking me in a romantic or sexual way. I'm fundamentally too fearful and awkward to pursue romantic relationship despite an intense need for companionship and social pressures to have a normal life.
I'm morbidly obese (530lbs), and have put on the funny guy persona my whole life. I am able to work still, but every day my feet kill me, my legs swell, I can't breath, and I feel like a failure. I worry every day that when I go to bed, i wont wake up, but deep down I'm ambivalent too it.
I just hope this year is going to be the year i turn my life around.
I'm desperately sad, but I wont ever let people see it.
I had no expectations for christmas and was still dissapointed. my presents were all low value and i'm not going to use them or enjoy them in any way. I feel rather sad about not caring about christmas anymore, and somewhat guilty.
I am single at 33 with a cat and just want a gf so they can experience how nice my cat is because my family does not care about my cat.
My cat was made for a family and loves attention which is ironic. She has also never bitten, scratched or hissed at me and loves being picked up and sleeping with me.
I don’t care about sex I just want a girl to love my cat.
>Girlfriend and I live together with three cats >She always wants more cats >Now we have eight fricking cats
You are not missing out, trust me. Don't get me wrong I love them but I fricking hate them. Pretty sure one of the kittens we recently adopted has herpes, which is really no big deal as half of cats have it and don't show symptoms, but that's just more money down the drain. Especially if our other cats catch it. She is isolated currently until we take her to the vet because once they stop showing symptoms they stop shedding the virus. But it's all just a hassle and money.
You can start by wiping that fricking dumbass smile off your rosy fricking cheeks. Then you can give me a fricking automobile. A fricking Datsun, a fricking Toyota, a fricking Mustang, a fricking Buick. Four fricking wheels and a seat!
I really don't care for the way your company left me in the middle of fricking nowhere with fricking keys to a fricking car that isn't fricking there. And I really didn't care to fricking walk down a fricking highway and across a fricking runway to get back here to have you smile at my fricking face. I want. A Fricking. Car. Right. Fricking. Now.
Over the summer I was regularly jerking off while inserting a hairbrush into my ass. Then one time it made my insides bleed and I haven't done it since.
I'm scared of losing control of my life but the truth is I never had any control to begin with.
I post annoying political memes and act like a piece of crap on purpose because i like getting a reaction out of people because it distracts me from my own emptiness. As a result I've driven away many friends and will likely continue to drive away more. I don't want to. I hate that I've done this.
I'm supposed to be a Christian but the truth is that I'm more scared to give my life over to God than anything because of what it can and likely will cost me.
The MCU is better than every anime I've ever been asked to watch by some mall ninja proto-troon insisting that THIS was the best around. Akira, Ghost in the Shell, whatever, it's always garbage for moronic knuckle dragging subhumans who think watching a foreign cartoon will make them seem like they have a personality. Now that israelites have glommed onto anime the same way they did comic books, you'll begin seeing more and more of it mainstreamed, and you'll start to see these people hanging themselves as their entire personality is taken aware from them and turned over to the former viewers of Big Bang Theory.
I find teenagers attractive. I'm in my 30s. I wouldn't do anything with one, whenever I talk to them I remember they are vapid and insufferable, but it is what it is.
it seems to me that "teenagers are obviously hot but off-limits" was the default mainstream position until like ten years ago when "progressive" men started pretending they don't find them attractive in the first place, i guess to make themselves seem unthreatening >don't worry i couldn't possibly get it up for your 16yo daughter haha that would be so disgusting
>God: I am going to make human beings sexually viable around age 13. I'm also going to impregnate a 13 year old so that I can become human and save mankind >Human beings in current year: IF YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO ARE 17 ARE ATTRACTIVE I AM GOING TO HANG YOU FROM A TREE
lol, okay folks.
I'm bald and my dick doesn't work well anymore, but it evens out because I haven't had a GF in nine years. Fricked a few fatties and escorts but it's not the same. Some things are honked from the start. The only option I have is to move out of my parent's home and into some shack in the middle of nowhere so I don't have to be a visible disappointment to anyone. Life is bleak.
I feel shitty for being ungrteful but I always try my hardest to get something special for peoples birthdays, something that will be useful or make them happy. Today is my birthday and people always buy shit that I won't ever use, where I'm actually flabbergasted as to where they came up with this crap. Next year I'll probably ask everyone not to give me anything since what I hate the most is the waste of money for things that will land in the trash anyways.
IKTF, in my opinion there's nothing wrong with being ungrateful if it teaches those buttholes to actually consider what you want before giving you junk.
I got my dad a new truck for Christmas, got my mom diamonds and my brother some fun stuff. I made it super clear to them I don't want pants, don't want any baggy stuff, etc. I also know they're short on money so I deliberately ask for very little.
I went to Christmas and literally received 27 pairs of pants that all do not fit and look like shit. I also got a ton of oversized shirts, and underwear that is too tight.
It was such a gross waste of money I almost got mad. I am going to have to donate legitimately all of this horse shit.
You're fat
I've been eating a lot of chicken
I think Blade Runner is boring
That’s part of the appeal.
I'd rather not go to Christmas tomorrow because I'm an embarrassment of an organism and don't want to be gawked at by more successful people.
I can´t wait to frick a prostitute. Frick all that shit about having a gf
i would want to see one but im kind of a b***h about many aspect of it. mainly, how would one justify paying( like a cuck) to get pussy?
Just jack off or if you want to spend money buy toys/a sex doll.
Masturbation is boring.
worth it if you're a virgin and want to see what the fuss is about, but do not cheap out, hire a legit expensive one
beyond that only worth it if you're rich
gets boring quickly.
frick your shit of being wit0h a real woman. i cant wait to find a way to have vivid dreams of my own idealistic version affection that reality cant possibly offer
this. I fricked one, got it out of my system and felt way better about myself, it's especially cheap where i live. Gf is too much work, women are a joke and should not be a hard pursuit, they should bear children and shut up.
How do you go around hiring one? Is there some website for it or? And how do I now she's not undercover cop? and what if she's ugly would it be rude to reject her?
Depends on where you live. Here we have a lot of websites and most are legit. The more expensive the prostitute the less risk she's catfishing
I can't wait to get a girlfriend. Frick all that shit about fricking prostitutes.
I on the other hand, hope I never get a girlfriend. It sounds like so much work and so much shit that I don't care for, I don't even care about sex, I'm not asexual, if someone offered it to me, I wouldn't turn it down, I just have no desire to pursue it.
Samesies.
It sounds like you don't want a girlfriend as much as you want to feel something towards another. You've never known what it's like to actually care about someone and the "idea" of a girlfriend that you hold is the way you express your desires outward with your non-existent experiences. In other words you lond to love but have zero clue what that actually means.
Literally low test. I bet youre under 24yo. This kew generation is full of beta """men"""
Leave that anon alone, you try hard fake ass b***h boy.
literally me before i found the woman of my life
relationships only feel like work when you're not completely compatible
I act humble on the outside but I'm a pretentious elitist inside
The holocaust never happened, but it should have.
I don't want to go to Christmas because my family is overly nice to me like I'm a special needs kid who gets normal accomplishments treated like they winning the nobel prize
That’s ok sweetie you do what’s best for you. We’re all really proud of you
I watched What's Up Doc and found Barbara Streisand irresistably attractive
I think I've finally got cirrhosis
What makes you think that?
Had a shit time on xmas day with parents because I'm a spergtard and boring, I can't entertain people and have nothing to talk about so it was sitting around awkwardly for half the day
>15-22
>jovial twink tier youth
>able to make entire family roll on the ground with laughter
>everyone loves me
>everyone pulling me aside and asking for personal accounts of things I’ve done just to hear my delivery
>22-30
>do nothing with life
>shut in NEETcel
>militant Cinemaphileard
>ugly sets in
>not funny anymore
>can’t hold a conversation anymore
>haven’t laughed in years
>can’t make anyone laugh I just creep them out now
They stopped inviting me to things at 26. I am only seen sometimes by very close relatives. They say I make people uncomfortable.
I don’t know I did it but I became a semi verbal recluse in the span of about a decade and a Chad life was completely thrown away.
I have never held a girls hand. Everyone in my family my age is now married and over half of them have children.
you should change that
I can’t. I don’t have it in me anymore. I’m not funny or social and I can barely articulate myself in the 100 or so human interactions I have per year.
You can, you just have to try. Being able to have a conversation and be engaging is a skill that's trainable just like any other. You don't have to be a misanthrope hermit if you don't want to be, and you'll be happier if you aren't. People need friends.
Life is a process of becoming and for my time as a conscious being the majority of it has been spent sad, lonely, and angry, it has become who I am. There is no going back.
become an ethno-nat and meet these people irl. its what I did and it worked out well enough for me
this is just crap
Losing the ability to speak is crippling.
I can not string together more than three sentences. I literally lost my ability to speak because of being terminally online. I accept my fate and have made peace with dying alone. I just wanted to post in this thread because it makes me feel better and I feel a twisted sort of pride being “the biggest loser on the beach”.
>I can not string together more than three sentences.
ok, but this can be fixed through practice. If people who have their brains scrambled by head trauma can literally relearn how to speak, so can you.
You’re very optimistic.
Don’t get old.
I'm 34.
Maybe the people around you are narcissists that won't let you get a word in edgewise and/or don't bother to ask you questions that will help you be included? Sometimes it's not you. On the other hand if it is you, are you just a condescending negative dick about every topic that comes up? A party pooper? Do you have a resting b***h face and people think you're bringing the vibe down? Have you tried cocaine?
Man I wouldn't usually recommend it but cocaine will fix this shit in a snap of the fingers. Do coke and head out to a bar once a week until you're used to the social setting and then wean off coke. - Don't mix it with drink, it'll cause you to act moronic.
I held hands with a girl before. I even sort of kind of had a girlfriend at one point (same girl) but I never considered her a girlfriend . It's weird how things work. I honestly never cared about relationships. Call me an incel chud loser, doesn't bother me.
>high school pretty boy
>tackles life like a woman
>never develops skills to provide value to the world
>becomes a loser obsessed with vanity
the hell you built for yourself tbh
Do you also hold it against animals for the crime of not being like yourself?
>you’re using race as a cope because you failed at life
My mom says this to me.
>Do you also hold it against animals for the crime of not being like yourself?
yes
Can sort of relate, but I felt ugly since like age 5
I had a few friendships with other guys in my youth but felt too ugly to interact with girls, and they ignored me anyways
'tism really look its toll over here, spend many waking hours just wishing I didn't exist and waiting to be punished for being a failure
Turn whim mode on anon
I am so completely spent these days
"It doesn't even matter anymore", the whims I have are mostly pointless, things that should have happened many years ago like they naturally happen for others
Casual meth user here, getting shit done, being productive, even shifting some excess pounds. It makes me nearly impotent most of the time but if you ever manage to get horny you will frick a woman to death. Or jerk off for 6 hours...insanely horny to the point where even if you are straight you will find homosexual shit arousing. A lot of people will have 24 hour fap sessions. It makes me incredibly horny to the point gay shit turns me on. I snorted daily for a year then smoked daily for a year before I got off. Caused myself to get psychosis. Sucked a few dicks. Life is better without but I still get a gram every couple months for old times sake. It eliminates the weak. Smoked a few bowls last night, fapped for 12 hours. Now I'm drinking beer and about to get some food. Idk when I'm on it I can work 80 hours/week no probs. Made me stink so bad. I was always paranoid I smelled. Of course I was too afraid to ask anyone if I did out of fear of letting on that i was on meth. I'm clean too, no problems over here. Pump up the jam.
I got molested multiple times as a toddler by my teenage sister.
It's made me "discover" myself too early and I probaly fricked up some other kids lives by passing my trauma onto them...
Because of this, I just can't have sexual relations now. Totally ruined relationships 🙁 🙁
I think if you put yourself out there you'll find someone anon <3
do humanity a favour and overdose you subhuman druggie.
1. plenty of people jerk off all day
2. you are gay
3. nice bait enjoy your (YOU)
I LOVE THE GODS
I only have sex with 45y+ asian hookers. Have a regular now that I bare back and blow my load in. 80$ leaf bucks when ever I please.
I wish the world was a gentler place and the brutal psychopathic posts and comments I make online are a defense mechanism which protects me from the horror of reality and stops me from feeling crippling sorrow born from empathy for the human condition
Are you me?
It is the moral duty of intelligence to rescue all life
The Whale is the epitome of "dishonest". Emotional manipulation via empty angst is not honest cinema.
i only watched the first 4 episodes of the sopranos and gave up. I also watched the first 3 seasons of the shield before giving up on that.
I love this movie. people around me always shit on it. but its just that good.
Fantastic taste anon its a great movie, anybody that says otherwise is wrong.
Did you read the book?
>gets an honest look of disgust from delivery guy
>spirals out of control
The only role model I ever had in life was my grandpa who I watched get reduced to a diaper wearing lunatic by Alzheimers.
if I knew my in-laws before marriage, I would not have married her... sat on the couch next to them sitting around the dining table, in my own home, just posting on Cinemaphile while they talk amongst themselves. I am not apart of their family, I am not accepted, I am not liked, and the feeling is mutual.
Make sure you get along with your potential in-laws fellas.
You sound autistic as frick my man
I broke up with my ex years ago due to a mix of things. At the time it was pure youthful impetuousness. I was bored, she was annoying me. Very surface level shallow reasons that on reflection don't really hold weight.
I am now married, do not find my wife sexually attractive and never really have, am not even sure if I love my wife anymore, and still miss my ex so much that it physically hurts me. Like i genuinely feel like someone has just died. It feels like we just broke up.
Long story short, my friend killed himself, i was diagnosed with adhd, then after my marriage started breaking down i shared some things with my therapist from my childhood and he now strongly believes i have trauma (which would explain the adhd as its basically related to trauma fricking your brain development).
The adhd and trauma brought me leaving my ex back into the spotlight for me and I miss her so fricking much i feel like killing myself. I haven't had sex with my wife in a half a year. She loves me dearly and is a lovely person but I just do not feel the same way about her as I used to.
Also, wolf of wall street is fricking trash for moronic children.
>Also, wolf of wall street is fricking trash for moronic children.
based
sorry about your predicament dude, reach out to her if possible and get some closure. thats what I did
have sex
watch eyes wide shut. its literally what youre going through
I feel bad for you and feel somewhat similarly, so let me write what helped me. My father died when I was 18, and my first gf that I loved dearly cheated on me when I was out of state for his funeral. Kinda hated women after that and had a few gfs but things never worked out because I was paranoid.
I met my wife about 6 years later. We've been married 6 years now. I definitely feel like I don't love her as much as much as I could've if I never met my first gf, but I still recognize that she's objectively better for me. I do love her. Try to look for the positive things in your wife and work on your relationship with her. Realize that your first serious relationship is always going to feel the deepest, but that doesn't mean it was the best. I think we have a tendency to put more effort into our first relationship and that makes it feel better, too - try to channel some energy into your current marriage to breathe some life into it. Good luck
Thanks but I have been feeling this way for well over a year, and we have been actively working for things for 6 months and I am only feeling worse.
The sex thing has been an issue for 4 years at this point, but my wife and i both buried our heads in the sand about it and got married anyway. I have never been sexually satisfied by her, but she loves sex with me. She has no idea about this, though. It would destroy her. Basically the way I see it is that I entered into a relationship, ignored all the signs that this wasn't something that would work out long term, hyperfocused on the proposal and wedding, and just suppressed all the issues I felt from the beginning. It feels like i tried to overcorrect for my first relationship.
The thing that gets me is that there really was no good reason for me to leave my ex. None. And my wife has done nothing wrong. I just do not find her attractive. I don't even like her smell, i don't like her touching me. She is a loving, kind, caring and understanding person, and she isn't ugly. I just have never found her sexy. I have never enjoyed sex with her. I have not only left a woman I loved, potentially ruining my life, but I have also lead on my wife and will seriously fricking hurt her.
I feel like killing myself because I can't live with either of these things.
It's like you're making the same mistake all over it you dimwit. Maybe you have a problem with your dick. After a long enough dry spell I can get it up and frick just about any pussy available. If you have gone six months without sex it's definitely you, not her.
So I met my brother's gf for the first time the other day and she told me my brother told her I'm a massive autistic moron. And okay, I did go to special ed and I do have some diagnoses but my brother is equally fricked in the head (he's my identical twin so of course should have the same intelligence and genetic disorders). Only difference is that my brother avoided a lot of special ed stuff and he never got the PDD-NOS diagnosis because he did better than me in school (only reason I did bad is because I literally refused to do anything). I'm fricking sick of being "the moronic autistic brother" even though he's clearly just as autistic and logically would HAVE to have the same disorders as me since they're all genetic. And know I know people might still talk about me like I'm some sort of drooling reject behind my back, my own family even. I don't really trust anyone anymore.
Bruh tell her exactly that about the genetics.
Shut up, you SOUND like an autistic moron
We are you autistic moron family
I have a drinking problem and self sabotaging tendencies.
https://voca.ro/1asqElQ6Dwum
I am scared of dying but I find the idea of sleep forever like a good thing
covid was literally the final assault of the insane and they've now successfully taken over the asylum
Two more weeks
For me it was pic-rel. It was just so blatant.
My life is starting to get better, all i need to do is to be more focused and work. Despite that i just want fo fricking die.
I love Sarah Gadon!
I'm just one more thing going wrong from getting on a plane to the congo and wildin out
I got a crush on a girl for the first time in years. She's 10 years younger than me. I don't care, I'm pursuing it.
I justify age gaps these days by acknowledging that even if I'm a decade older she likely already has way more experience compared to my essentially zero experience
Like if I'm early 30s and a virgin, what's the harm in hooking up with a mid 20s age woman who's already had a dozen or more partners (even though this likely would never happen just because I'm not desirable and they have better options)
Exact same for me. Im 21
go for it, who cares, zoomer girls date old guys all the time now
Women expect the man to basically be the leader and to take charge. It can be a lot of pressure and some men struggle with this, but it comes more naturally if you're dating a woman who is much younger than you.
OP is a giant homosexual.
I'm wasting time on Cinemaphile when I could be enjoying my Christmas present that my girlfriend got me. But I'm too depressed because she's the only person I'll be spending time with tomorrow and for some reason that's not enough. I'm too upset about my family being a bunch of fricking shitters who just does nothing but trigger me and depresses me even further to the point of wanting to commit suicide. I just can't stand being around them but I also wish that I had a life being around plenty of family members. My parents aren't around anymore but I still have a grandparent, siblings, and other extended family. They're all snobby and put me down constantly. Toxic environment year after year. I haven't been able to handle the holidays the year after losing my mom. I can't take it anymore.
I can't even conceive a woman liking me in a romantic or sexual way. I'm fundamentally too fearful and awkward to pursue romantic relationship despite an intense need for companionship and social pressures to have a normal life.
I'm morbidly obese (530lbs), and have put on the funny guy persona my whole life. I am able to work still, but every day my feet kill me, my legs swell, I can't breath, and I feel like a failure. I worry every day that when I go to bed, i wont wake up, but deep down I'm ambivalent too it.
I just hope this year is going to be the year i turn my life around.
I'm desperately sad, but I wont ever let people see it.
deathfat tier, you have to change now, and don't expect sympathy or help from anyone, you have to claw yourself out of this hole alone
>240kg
how tall are you?
dude just 70 more pounds and you can meet Dr. Now
Make
your new home board
Go to the /fat/ general. And /fph/ if you want motivation through bullying
I had no expectations for christmas and was still dissapointed. my presents were all low value and i'm not going to use them or enjoy them in any way. I feel rather sad about not caring about christmas anymore, and somewhat guilty.
I am single at 33 with a cat and just want a gf so they can experience how nice my cat is because my family does not care about my cat.
My cat was made for a family and loves attention which is ironic. She has also never bitten, scratched or hissed at me and loves being picked up and sleeping with me.
I don’t care about sex I just want a girl to love my cat.
>typical psychopathic cat owner
>Girlfriend and I live together with three cats
>She always wants more cats
>Now we have eight fricking cats
You are not missing out, trust me. Don't get me wrong I love them but I fricking hate them. Pretty sure one of the kittens we recently adopted has herpes, which is really no big deal as half of cats have it and don't show symptoms, but that's just more money down the drain. Especially if our other cats catch it. She is isolated currently until we take her to the vet because once they stop showing symptoms they stop shedding the virus. But it's all just a hassle and money.
Why don't you be a fricking man and put your foot down?
post cat
I am 29 years old and I never even kissed a girl
I LIKE, LITTLE GIRLS THEY MAKE ME FEEL SO GOOD.
i thought "the whale" was going to be an epic Moby Dick Story with Brendan as the WHale hunter.
its about some fat pathetic homosexual instead
Mel Gibson has never told a lie.
I'm Jamie Bell. I've been posting here since 2007ish.
>Scully aliens are real, the government is behind everything bad, and I have to jerk off to porn of redhead women a LOT.
He's literally me
You can start by wiping that fricking dumbass smile off your rosy fricking cheeks. Then you can give me a fricking automobile. A fricking Datsun, a fricking Toyota, a fricking Mustang, a fricking Buick. Four fricking wheels and a seat!
I really don't care for the way your company left me in the middle of fricking nowhere with fricking keys to a fricking car that isn't fricking there. And I really didn't care to fricking walk down a fricking highway and across a fricking runway to get back here to have you smile at my fricking face. I want. A Fricking. Car. Right. Fricking. Now.
I think I'm dying of prostate cancer but I'm too busy to get it checked out at the hospital. That and I don't want a finger up my ass.
You'll get many fingers up your ass once you reach the stage your entire butthole is rotting out. Go get fingered, bruv.
Over the summer I was regularly jerking off while inserting a hairbrush into my ass. Then one time it made my insides bleed and I haven't done it since.
You just had internal hemorrhoids and they popped.
Get one of these. It swirls around inside your ass like a five inch long tongue is reaming you out (and also vibrates). It feels fricking divine.
I’ve been realizing that I’m actually crazy
I have phimosis and jt
I'm scared of losing control of my life but the truth is I never had any control to begin with.
I post annoying political memes and act like a piece of crap on purpose because i like getting a reaction out of people because it distracts me from my own emptiness. As a result I've driven away many friends and will likely continue to drive away more. I don't want to. I hate that I've done this.
I'm supposed to be a Christian but the truth is that I'm more scared to give my life over to God than anything because of what it can and likely will cost me.
Im an alcoholic and have pushed away everybody in my life. Try to change before its too late. Suicide or prison is the only way out.
I liked the Willow show and Warwick Davis is a good actor and not even really that short.
Pulp Fiction is massively overrated
John Travolta and the motherfricker guy is good in it
Are we actually just living in a simulation? Why would anyone do this. Those are just fricking NPCs
did you know that israelites rape kids?
The MCU is better than every anime I've ever been asked to watch by some mall ninja proto-troon insisting that THIS was the best around. Akira, Ghost in the Shell, whatever, it's always garbage for moronic knuckle dragging subhumans who think watching a foreign cartoon will make them seem like they have a personality. Now that israelites have glommed onto anime the same way they did comic books, you'll begin seeing more and more of it mainstreamed, and you'll start to see these people hanging themselves as their entire personality is taken aware from them and turned over to the former viewers of Big Bang Theory.
I liked the new Wonka movie, I found it charming and I teared up at the end when he imagined his mom coming back
I'm in love with Jenny Nicholson!
I lost my virginity to a +300lbs whale. I still regret it 5 years later and wish I had gotten a prostitute instead.
Im 30 and only had sex with 3 different women, however, ive never ate pussy. I hope i can find a clean b***h one day that will let me eat her out.
I find teenagers attractive. I'm in my 30s. I wouldn't do anything with one, whenever I talk to them I remember they are vapid and insufferable, but it is what it is.
Anon.... we're too old for that now. It's just time for us to die
it seems to me that "teenagers are obviously hot but off-limits" was the default mainstream position until like ten years ago when "progressive" men started pretending they don't find them attractive in the first place, i guess to make themselves seem unthreatening
>don't worry i couldn't possibly get it up for your 16yo daughter haha that would be so disgusting
>God: I am going to make human beings sexually viable around age 13. I'm also going to impregnate a 13 year old so that I can become human and save mankind
>Human beings in current year: IF YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO ARE 17 ARE ATTRACTIVE I AM GOING TO HANG YOU FROM A TREE
lol, okay folks.
I hate women
I really don't mind trans people, israelites, blacks and homos.
me neither but i don't really have to interact with them in my daily life
I do with some black and gay people, but they're just regular people who happen to be black and gay.
I miss my father, he died before I could get my life on track. I’m doing good now and I’m sad he only seen the worst side of me.
I'm bald and my dick doesn't work well anymore, but it evens out because I haven't had a GF in nine years. Fricked a few fatties and escorts but it's not the same. Some things are honked from the start. The only option I have is to move out of my parent's home and into some shack in the middle of nowhere so I don't have to be a visible disappointment to anyone. Life is bleak.
I feel shitty for being ungrteful but I always try my hardest to get something special for peoples birthdays, something that will be useful or make them happy. Today is my birthday and people always buy shit that I won't ever use, where I'm actually flabbergasted as to where they came up with this crap. Next year I'll probably ask everyone not to give me anything since what I hate the most is the waste of money for things that will land in the trash anyways.
IKTF, in my opinion there's nothing wrong with being ungrateful if it teaches those buttholes to actually consider what you want before giving you junk.
Happy birthday, Anon. What's it like to have your birthday on Christmas?
Shit
J-Jesus? Are you back?
I got my dad a new truck for Christmas, got my mom diamonds and my brother some fun stuff. I made it super clear to them I don't want pants, don't want any baggy stuff, etc. I also know they're short on money so I deliberately ask for very little.
I went to Christmas and literally received 27 pairs of pants that all do not fit and look like shit. I also got a ton of oversized shirts, and underwear that is too tight.
It was such a gross waste of money I almost got mad. I am going to have to donate legitimately all of this horse shit.