>Sober for more than 20 years
>Decides to one day just buy 50 bags of heroin
I don't get it. He had a family and success. Why the frick did he revert to his old vices?
>Sober for more than 20 years. >Decides to one day just buy 50 bags of heroin
>Sober for more than 20 years
>Decides to one day just buy 50 bags of heroin
I don't get it. He had a family and success. Why the frick did he revert to his old vices?
was he killed
He was on the Kevin Spacey list to testify against him.
story is he got drunk at The Master wrap party and that got him started on his final downward spiral. apparently all his wordly success and family life wasn't enough to fulfill him. he was an addict, many such cases.
It was his magnum opus so I guess it makes sense
I think I'm an alchy but not sure and I can relate. I watched The Master for the first time a month ago and within a week I ran out of money until early 2024. Zero dollars. Drinking every night, 5-10 beers, down to nothing. I was scouring the home for booze. I ended up drinking 500ml of rubbing alcohol. I made sure it was ethyl alcohol I'm not a total moron. I got really really drunk and had horrible intestinal and stomach pain for a week afterwards.
I'm sure there's a term for it, but I call it "The Switch" - where you decide you're getting fricked up no matter what. Like rob, cheat, steal if you need to. I've been parked outside of liquor stores that were closed, contemplating how many minutes I'd get to loot after throwing a rock through the window.
After that rubbing alcohol I had 5 days sober out of fear of permanent organ damage. I'm fine. As soon as I had another dollar of spending money I began drinking again.
I can only imagine how awesome heroin is. I'd be dead in a year if I tried it. I made a pact with myself - no heroin til 60. I'm 30.
>I think I'm an alchy
>would rob a liquor store for a chance at booze
>think
what do you mean YOU THINK
I have a huge ego. I've never robbed a store I just parked outside of one with the shakes once.
I also smoke a lot of weed in the late evenings. Smoking is weak and does next to nothing for me. I used to take crazy high doses of edibles, like 250-400mg a night, but I realized that doing that + drinking was really really bad for my liver.
I got diagnosed in 2020 with fatty liver. I quit for a year, lost 110lbs of fat (lifted weights and controlled diet), then had tests done afterwards and my liver was completely healthy. I take NAC and milk thistle and walk 2h a day, lift 4 days a week, drink 3-5L of water a day.. I know a lot about how booze hurts your body and try to combat the damage. I'm good, I'm still young, it's more of a 44 year old me problem.
My ego has always been massive and I think I have a "luck" stat in life. I'm 6'2" 188lbs and had 3 near-death scenarios. Not exxagerated ones - almost dead ones. Cirrhosis is a death sentence but I would just triple suicide if I got that diagnosis.. aka.. OD on pills as I hang myself and shoot myself in the head while the noose is around my neck. It's a perfect plan.
Secondary plan is to get massively blackout drunk WAY out in the bush, with a necklace-type thing I make with heavy magnets on it, and fall asleep head first on the corner of train tracks.
Please judge my plan. I think it's pretty genius compared to some moron shooting himself in the head with a 22 and living in a wheelchair for life, or suffering for 45 minutes from a failed hanging.
how about you don't do any of that
I think I'm too smart and I use downers to tone down my brain so I can feel connection to my friends.
What do you do for fun?
You sound like a huge insufferable homosexual. If you were actually smart you would have done something in life. You're just a boring frick up.
If you're so smart get a PhD in something interesting
Should be easy for a smart guy. I'm going for systems engineering
>and fall asleep head first on the corner of train tracks
Please don't do this, train drivers already have to deal with enough shit without splatting your brains all over the tracks
Yeah, nah man, you're just a c**t
I don't know what made you this way, (an butthole, not just a drunk) but you will regret all these choices you've made when your number finally comes up. On your deathbed, you won't be thinking it was worth it, you'll be in and out of consciousness in the worst pain of your life, without any energy or ability to even form a complete thought.
Take control of your life and stop drinking. And don't commit suicide either. Don't be a coward and leave your worthless corpse for some other unfortunate soul to have to clean up or God forbid, feel responsible for. Quit the petulant child act and own this. You can still have a good life, and if you don't believe that then at the very least don't add more shit to this world by traumatizing and hurting those around you. Is it so much to ask for one sniveling coward to simply not spread his problems to others? Clean your fricking life up and make your own happiness. Make a future for yourself. Despite what you think that is still possible.
You should switch to weed. It's a healthier choice
You're probably not fine. Liver damage slowly accumulates over time. You probably have fatty liver disease already and if you don't take a long break you could get cirrhosis, which is irreversible. The first step is to stop saying "I'm an alcoholic - I just can't stop drinking" You can stop drinking.
This AA feeds off that bullshit "alcoholics are weak and completely unable to stop drinking" which is an absolute lie.
>"The Switch"
I had a similar experience, except I just flat out stopped drinking (well, after about 6 months of slowly weening myself off the stuff)
You're a moron if you continue
>Drinking every night, 5-10 beers
That's nothing though
10 beers a day can give you moderate, quite unpleasant wd symptoms, especially after your 20s, but yeah 5 isn't much.
You are not making it to 60 my dude
>t.
Wow, so the alcohol finally caught up with Chad from Cold Ones?
mittensquad?
Im an alcoholic and addict. Have been hospitlized for it a cpl times and been to rehab twice. I have never stolen anything (except maybe some cash from parents when i was younger), never pawned anything. If you are comtemplating doing that shit then yea id say you have some serious problems. Maybe im just a pussy but dude cmon
>shakes
you are objectively an alcoholic you are at a point your body cant function without it and you need to be weened out of it at an health clinic/hospital or whatever facility is certified to do it in the jurisdiction you live
the way you are casually describing your suicidal plans makes me think you are striding very near the deep end
>ego
it doesnt help you feel you have an overinflated ego but at least you recognize it and its a flaw that alot of addicts develop to cope (i hate how this word got twisted and abused by current speech) with the situation and put down others trying to help them and drive them away
but if what you are writting on a random Cinemaphile thread buried between replies is true then what you already know about everything i wrote above and you also know no anon here can help you and no one irl near can either, only can take shake off your ego, acknowledge the problem and take the plunge to get into treatment
the alternative is a slow degrading walk towards death
It takes will power but picking up some xanax or even better a bunch a gabapentin will get you over the hump without hospitalization. Problem for me is that its been so easy that a
I jump right back in within a few weeks.
But yea this dude sounds like hes got even more underlying issues.
>but if what you are writting on a random Cinemaphile thread
/v/ermin exposes itself
but yes, you're completely right
"People" like you are not even human anymore
How fricked am I ?
I don't usually drink like not one drop for weeks but every summer for about one month I drink almost everyday at the very utmost a crate of beer so 12 liters of beer (and only beer) but I make sure to puke it all off each and every night
I feel fine while doing it and fine when coming back home, no alcohol withdrall at all and have no particular craving for beers,
I'm 32 btw
It's not healthy to puke
The Master seems to be some kind of alcoholic's cursed movie
It's so good I wouldn't be surprised if it was also cursed.
It's a film about daddy issues so yeah.
Addicts are so fricking pathetic. Black personbrain piece of trash
A PTA regular at the wrap party had nobody looking out for him to not relapse? He needed a nanny cam or addict's collar.
>addict's collar.
what is this? is it an item i can put on my neck like a cat, needs a key and, notifies a device when alcohol goes through my neck as i n i drink alcohol?
It shocks you when it detects alcohol in your breath
>find some normie wearing an addict's collar
>drink booze and mouth breathe close enough to them
>watch the collar send them into a seizure
>mfw
i really don't know anything about his private life and friends and I don't want to speculate, but I don't think Hollywood people make the best friends to truly look out for what's best for you. I don't think Hollywood wrap parties are a just informal gatherings where people simply share anecdotes from the movie shooting.
But even if he was surrounded with shitty cowardly fake friends, maybe all they saw is a guy drink a few beers and let loose for a night and had no reason to intervene. tough to put the onus on anyone but the main guy.
I'd be devastated if I was Anderson.
You never get over an addiction like heroin, all you try to do is keep it at bay
I knew a guy who let his pretty idealic life go to absolute waste because he tried it once at this weird orgy party he somehow got roped into. I am just terrified of that stuff, I was actually smoking somewhat back then. Since, I haven't touched drink, smoke and certainly no substances.
This is more of a personal thing.
I have done shit loads of drugs and never got addicted to any, and i can smoke crack or heroin and be fine.
Though my preferred choices of drugs are booze, coke snd LSD, occasional weed and vidya.
Still never would i shoot heroin.
Yet you post on Cinemaphile, your life is already over
Cinemaphile is the one drug that I can't kick
I quit Cinemaphile long ago
Now I'm more of a Cinemaphile guy
>Does he know
Cinemaphile died last month, bro
Check again. You’re back on the hard stuff
It would be nice if there were a way to demonstrate how easy it is to get roped into doing stuff you just shouldnt be doing. Movies show when it goes to shit, but by then it's too late anyway.
There is an episode of Taxi where the messed up wierd guy has a flashback to when his life turned to drugs, his friends basically bullied him into it and then he spiralled out. Same actor that was Doc in Back to the Future. I am a pushover b***h with my friends and I only really got into drinking because they were, sometimes it do that way.
You end up with the war movie problem, where it inherently glorifies that which it attempts to condemn.
It's been over a decade since I quit smoking, and I'll still crave one at least a couple of times a week.
Friend of mine is a former alcoholic, when people ask him when he finally stopped craving it he said he didn't, he thinks about it all the damn time. He says he still is an alcoholic even though he hasn't drank on 10 years.
So cringe. Reminds me of AA - "I have no power at all in my life I am pathetic I am an ant I have to beg for help" as you're surrounded by crackheads who are court mandated to go to AA. I never went because of that. Breaking Bad does that well with Jesse's recovery clinic thing.
That's one of the things about addiction they don't talk to kids about. When I started smoking, I figured one day I'd quit, and I knew it would suck, but no biggie. Never dreamed it would always be lingering in the back of my mind.
weed?
Nope, just regular cigarettes. I was never around weed too much. Tried it a few times, and wasn't too impressed.
It's wild my dad quit smoking cigs when I was maybe 2. He started again when I was 16. Quit. Started again when I was 28 or so.
Pandora's box? Is there a better analogy?
Nicotine is addictive AF. Hopefully, he quits and doesn't pick it back up. It's hard.
I
One imagines it's counterproductive to admit that to kids, since it encourages a nihilist view. "If I'll never get better, why try to quit?" And so forth. Better to imply that even if you become an addict there's always hope of getting out, even if the truth is that you never quite do
That's a good point.
This is bullshit. I smoked in my most formative years about 16-28 and I quit one day after I got fed up with the symptoms. I had been noticing for a few years that during the winter, my hands and feet got ice cold and took forever to warm up. Also I was walking up some stairs one day and felt very winded just from one flight.
I knew I had to quit and I did. After about 3 weeks I experienced zero cravings and have grateful I quit for several years now
Weed doesn't cause physical dependency. Alcohol does, most pills that are fun do. Paranoia, sound/sight hallucinations, anger, sweating, shaking, those are the symptoms that usually make people break. Have you ever experienced that? In my experience, even knowing the voices aren't real.. doesn't help much. You just have to keep your cool for 4-5 days and then it stops.
I think that anon is writing about smoking tobacco.
>>Weed doesn't cause physical dependency
Bull fricking shit, so says every pathetic stoner that can't live without it
not in the same way as alcohol, nicotine and a few hard drugs. i think you are talking about psychological addiction.
it doesnt create a physical one like opioids and alcohol do, without those substances the body starts shutting down and in the case of alcohol if bad enough the cold turkey abstinence will kill a person
weed does not do that but it can still give you a crippling mental addiction pretty much like gambling, gaming, sex and other mental shit
theres alot of medicine and prescription drugs that dont affect you at all mentally, ie arent psychoactive, but do induce dependence and thats why doctors reduce the dosage by small steps when they want you off the stuff
No one has ever died of opiate withdrawal
Limit drinking to one day a week and only have enough alcohol in the house get you to .10
I just saved your life
>No one has ever died of opiate withdrawal
never wrote it did, i wrote that alcohol abstinence does
>Limit drinking to one day a week and only have enough alcohol in the house get you to .10
cmon for alcoholics thats pure fantasy its not doable
Works for me
I was getting drunk every day. Just decided to limit to one day a week and no exceptions. Don’t keep alcohol in the house. And I bought a breathalyzer to keep me from going too far.
Maybe it was easier for me because I only developed my alcoholism from a combination of major depressive disorder and sheer boredom.
If i could get gear as good as i was using back in the day, i would dabble in it for sure.
But it's all watered down garbage since covid happened, so that helps keep me off it.
I was a heroin addict for like two years. I honestly couldn't care at all now.
Here's some tips, kids:
1. What you call a drug problem could more accurately be described as a money problem
2. Heroin isn't that addictive. The lifestyle is. To walk from heroin you just need to put up with the sickness which is like an ayahuasca trip if you let it be
what do you mean by #1? the problem is not addiction, the problem is being able to afford it?
You’re always chasing money. The drugs are just chemicals that that make you feel good. The whole thing- copping, shooting, getting every dollar you can, living and acting like a vampire, being surrounded by art made by junkies excusing relapses, being a total outsider.
The chemical is one little part of the addiction.
that's an idiotic take, anon.
Maybe.
I would have tried it by now if I had access to it, but I don't want to risk buying fentanyl off the darkweb and dying the first time.
Just wait until you have a toothache and save then take 3 perks at once. It's the same high a junkie gets. But then maybe you're not cool unless you're doing actual smack or fent.
Drugs are so gay.
A cigarette and a cup of coffee is peak drug usage. Maybe a doobie and a movie. Everything else is a waste of time.
I grew up with theguy who was arrested for selling him h (Maximilian Rosenbaum from Hopkins mn) he was a regular customer. Picked up everyday.
Rosenblum*
Rich spoiled israeli brat who thought he was better than everyone because he had mommy and daddy's money. Moved to NY to be in the bass scene and instead just did heroin with mimosa muzik and martyparty. Real cool kid. Did 7 grams of mushrooms weekly in high-school cuz drugs. Lol!
>Did 7 grams of mushrooms weekly
How the frick do you even do this? I did mushrooms four times over two years, and now I get nauseous if I taste regular button mushroom in anything and have to avoid it in my food.
realized all the films he was in were terrible and this greatest performance was the shart guy
for me its boogie nights and before the devil knows youre dead.
>before the devil knows youre dead
I thought that movie was pretty good but all I really remember from it was Marisa Tomei
because life is pretty fricking gay compared to heroin
I wanna become a heroin salesman.
Good time to get in on it, its all fent now that afganistan stopped production. You manage to grow or get a pure product you can name your price
>Afghanistan stopped heroin production
Damn, maybe the Taliban had an epiphany and decided to stop being moronic bad guys for once.
Very funny, CIA
you ever had heroin?
its like, really good
I'm afraid to try coke because I think I'd like it too much.
Its overrated. The comedown feels like having the flu
I only tried it once and I didnt try much. I became very talkative, just rambling, felt very upbeat and thought every stupid thing that came out of my muth was some profound shit. I just became annoying.
I just dont do well on drugs. Whatever that euphoria or whatever it is people get out of it, I dont. Weed is the same thing. Weed doesnt make me feel anything, it's just a physical sensation of my body just becoming slow and heavy and I become a little naucious.
I dont get much out of alcohol either. It doesnt come with whatever 'feel good' juice other people I know get out of it. It's just a mood booster for me. If I'm in a good mood, it boosts my good mood. If I'm in a shitty mood, it boosts my shitty mood.
You have to set boundaries in life. I'll never do hardcore drugs. Alcohol is bad enough.
I’m not a teetotaler homosexual but alcohol is unironically a hard drug if you consider the cognitive and physiological damage caused by a ‘standard’ user dose to achieve the desired effects compared to other drugs. For alcohol I think that is 4-5 units.
It’s not quite as addictive as other hard drugs, but it nukes your body and brain just as much
wtf is he dead?
He died doing what he loved.
Different drug, but I got addicted to meth and sex with trans hookers in 2015 in London, moved to different country with no contacts to quit, and I still have to wank 5-6 times until the craving goes away.
Even the sight of a meth pipe gets my wiener hard as steel.
Idk what it is about meth, I smoked it once and jerked off for hours it's bizarre. I can imagine if some really fricked up person did meth they could go on a rape spree.
if i would take meth on a daily basis id become a serial killer, it just really activates my lizard brain.
Enjoy the wank
That's relatable.
Where'd you get meth in London, it's extremely rare. Gay club?
(yea I do want some)
It was probably really fricking good H OP
On boy it must be an addictscum thread! Here you all come with your sob stories and competing stories of how much of a fricking loser you are.
have a nice day
Your "personality" is literally much addiction wow is me!
have a nice day
You're fricking pathetic and about as interesting as talking to a cyclist.
have a nice day
You're a literal gay weeb.
I wish I was. Frick women.
damn bet you impressed the kids at school with those sick burns, nerd.
Yes we can tell you're a nerd, even on the anon internet
People that care about impressing others are the druggy losers like yourself.
Kill your worthless self
I saw Philip Seymour Hoffman play Willy Loman in Death of a Salesman on Broadway in the summer of 2012. It is the single greatest artistic performance I have ever seen in my life. I am not a big theater lover, but the fact that there were thousands of people in the audience juxtaposed with the raw emotion he brought to the role... I know it's cliche but you really could hear a pin drop. The gasps as the emotional moments reached crescendo.... I will never forget walking out of that theater into the late evening summer sunshine and feeling like I was stumbling and shuffling like a zombie. All the thousands of other patrons looked shell shocked just like me. It was unbelievable.
Like I said I was never particularly interested in theater, and I still are not, but that performance was for me once in a lifetime to witness. RIP to a legend.
Now somebody post the pasta about his death with the greasy pizzas and machine gun poops
I'm really jealous - I wanted to see that. that's great you got to see him though. he's unironically my favorite actor. he played underdogs and schmucks really really well, and he was good when he yelled on the screen. he just had a presence about him. off hand my favorites are
Mattress Man in Punch Drunk Love
him in Love Liza
Syncedoche
The Master
>Sober for more than 20 years
lel
He had the bloated flushed face of an alcoholic his entire late adult life. He was never, ever sober.
>Heh, I will do heroin now as an obese 50 year old man with children!
>OOPPS I DIED LMAO!
Hes a stupid piece of shit and him being a decent actor doesnt take away from this.
Why did he call that guy a pig
it was H&Coke speedball that killed him. after a certain age doing hard drugs can be a bad thing
unless your ozzie or iggy pop
My man was killed.
If you believe famous actors are blackmailed into doing whatever they’re told, then the story suddenly makes sense.
It’s pretty fricked up how all these celebrities are either
>pedophiles raping little girls
>on heroin
Why can’t they be satisfied with normal pleasures like sex with grown women, and moderate drinking and marijuana use?
As an addict (alcohol) in recovery and still very apart of the recovery community, it happens ALL the time. Doesn’t matter how much clean time one has, a relapse can happen out of nowhere for no real reason at all. Drugs like heroin are dangerous, so addicts OD on them forgetting they have no tolerance or not realizing how much stronger it has gotten.
Last time i went to rehab
, i met this awesome dude. Ending up sharing a room with him in sober living. He had been sober a year, and was just an all around seemingly awesome guy, confident, happy, and super positive. Then he bought H off the darkweb and OD d while staying at his ex-wifes house to watch the kids for the weekend. His 12 year old son found him. Seriously fricked with me and there is no god.
I’m in sober living now following treatment and there’s a story like that every couple of months within the community. Usually happens when the addict is going to visit family, then they get discovered OD’d in their bedroom at the family house or in a hotel room after disappearing. It’s really sad, but I’m becoming numb to it and don’t bother making friends unless the person has been around awhile.
Yea i feel you. I did it for 6 months this year at an oxford house. It kept me sober but i hated dealing with the drug testing and constant relapses. Having to kick people out that are crying and know they have no place to go. Been out 2 months and moved to Hawaii. Things are going good. Good luck to you dude.
my brother went to an expensive 7 week rehab, and drank a fifth 2 days after getting out. fricking unreal
he wasnt sober, he was just hiding it
same with perry
i quit smoking a year ago, on two occasions in the past 4 months i’ve bought a pack and chainsmoked until it was empty and then went back to being quits.
idk why i did it, i just felt like it. they tasted like shit and it felt weird holding them in my fingers. addiction is weird.
>About to name the J*w
>ODs first
Pvre coincidence.
Christ the pity party is still in full swing I see. Bunch of fricking losers. Go inject/snort/drink something laced with fentanyl and do the world a favor. Your "disease" is as real as more than 2 genders.
OP I don't know if you understand this or not but heroin feels frickin good. You could quit for 20 years and never forget how nice it made you feel. Homeboy was on top and wanted to make it feel even better. Not a terrible way to go out. Catch a nod, look at some Christmas lights, some nice music and call it a life
huge heroin fan
don't use it just like being around it
study it
appreciate it
use it sometimes
He had information that might have led to the arrest and conviction of Hillary Clinton.
Glad I kicked the bottle. Pot and psychs is more than enough.
I love taking psychs but almost everything beside the trip is homosexual shit. Can only take them so often and when your professional dealer goes down you have to interact with gay ass psychonauts to reup.
Thankfully as a leaf I can order large quantities online and have them come in the mail.
reading some of these stories is really heartbreaking, i wish the best for all of you guys
anyone else have issues with adderall or amphetamines? i think these things will frick up my heart one day
It's less your heart, and more your head. I've been on them for about 6 years, and I can legit tell I'm less rational now.
I binge them for a few days and go maybe a week or two without. I've heard of increased risk of like dementia and stuff but I'm guessing it depletes your dopamine and shit pretty badly too long term right?
Most definitely. If you can keep them that seldom, great, but they will eat you from the inside out.
appreciate the reply anon, I had a pretty bad issue with them in college but stopped. I'm 26 now and really don't need another bad habit, those things are too tempting.
my friend got off addies 7 years ago after his ex died in a freak accident. he's doing pretty well now. during his bad times he was not rational at all and could barely function in public spaces. now he's got a career, a mortgage, and a gal. i'm happy for him. YAGMI anons
hurray for mortgages
When you take them often enough you end up needing them for everything, even playing video games. They really can take over your life if you let them, insane we give this shit to children
yeah he was getting to that point, felt really bad for him. couldn't study or play vidya or even work without an addie
despite what Cinemaphile thinks of mortgages, they are pretty great for career and income motivation from my experience
I've been on Vyvanse for 8 years and Adderall for 6. I abused Adderall more and my heart skipped a few times
We need to get people addicted to feel-good nutrition, getting some sun, exercise. Serotonin boost in a positive feedback loop. Not diminishing returns. When you can use all your organs for a long time, you'll feel good instead of wanting death. Keto/high protein cures many things. Stop the corn syrup processed food diet.
i lost 60 pounds on keto in 3 months, its miserable but i never had more energy
Yes! It's hard in the beginning, but it's like bodybuilding for peak performance.
I've got a packet of panadeine forte, how do I extract the codeine part?
Cold water extraction
I reckon he was probably never sober
watch love liza
Andrew Garfield convinced him to have a drink of champagne at the Death of a Salesman wrap party. Two weeks later he was dead.
I heard he was getting divorced is what did it.
>plays a thinly veiled portrait of L. Ron Hubbard
>ODs shortly after
We lost another to the vax
man, imagine if porn addiction worked like this. you go straight for 20 years no porn nofap - all your ejaculations are nocturnal or involve your partner - then one day you just tweak out and prepare a blowout goon bonanza that ultimately kills you.