Thanks la, you'll be okay too. In the end, everything can always be okay.
my parents died when I was young. I'd fricking kill to be living with mommy and having birthday cakes and stuff like that. it's been years since I opened a gift or something on my birthday. you boys don't know what you got. not even kidding, cherish that shit.
my best friends a 30 yo neet who b***hes about his mom regularly and it drives me nuts. it makes you fricking MORE pathetic, not less, to act like the parent your leaching off of is an inconvenience and not a fricking blessing from God.
Sorry for your pain. Hope you know you're cherished in a weird sort of way here.
Stop drinking. Start lifting (stronglift 5x5). Quit putting off the fun things you want to do.
I would even put off watching shows and browse here. Quit that.
Also read, homie. A book, fantasy or sci-fi, or a classic.
Is there anything at all you can possibly do to improve your life? Losing weight, gym, finding a new job, making friends, anything. If so you should do that (even if it takes years to pull off) before giving up. It’s worth a try.
Also read the Bible, go to church, and pray.
Stop drinking. Start lifting (stronglift 5x5). Quit putting off the fun things you want to do.
I would even put off watching shows and browse here. Quit that.
Also read, homie. A book, fantasy or sci-fi, or a classic.
i don't really want to go into too much detail but i have a neurological condition from being exposed to high levels of trace lead in utero
unfortunately my brain doesn't work quite the same as most other people
i've had a pretty decent life and i've exerienced mostly everything i can here, i just am ready to rest
high level lead exposure; it's a neurotoxin and babies are extremely susceptible, binds to sites where calcium would otherwise in your bone development and is effectively stays with you your whole life
my sister is a few years older than me and was exposed to it for those extra years and is much much worse, i feel bad for her but she doesn't really know otherwise and has found some kind of life that she will be safe in.
but yeah developmental issues, behavioural issues cognitive issues, reddit spacing the list could go on ; we don't really know a whole lot about it
9 months ago
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how did you get exposed to lead?
9 months ago
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i don't want to tell you the specifics but it's mining related
9 months ago
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9 months ago
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Plumbing used to be made of lead.
Plumbum is the latin word for lead if you didn't know.
It was also used in fricking everything, paint, insulation, fake snow, cosmetics.
Live in an old house and you'll likely be exposed to lead in roofing.
9 months ago
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>but yeah developmental issues, behavioural issues cognitive issues, reddit spacing
that must be hell, specially the last one
9 months ago
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Kek
9 months ago
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how is a leadbaby a better poster than you?
9 months ago
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i prefer the term leadhead
9 months ago
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ever learn to meditate? helped me a lot, basically rewires your brain to make it function more clearly
Today was my birthday bros
23, never even kissed a girl
But I did get a girls number from a dating app today, and plan to have coffee next week with her
Wish me luck frens, I’ve never even held a girls hand or been on a date before
good for you anon, have fun and don't worry about doing well, I tried for years to "do well" on dates and it was all just cringe
Fair enough then. Either way, always remember God is there for you. Just throw out a pray or two and see what happens. Decent chance I’d be dead or on my way to it without doing just that lol
>turning 29 in 5 months >haven't done anything with my life >basically been a complete shut in since high school >never had a job, dropped out of (community) college, never had a gf >have barely spoken to a human being outside of my family for like 10 years, save for a small group of internet friends I've kept >more and more they're too busy with their own lives - being normal, functional adults - to spend time with me >start to feel as though I've legitimately forgotten how to go out and have fun with other people >want more than anything to be normal, to have people that I can talk to and confide in who care about me >feel as though my personality has become so morbid and bleak as to be off-putting >afraid I've created impossible standards for any friends or partners I might meet, assuming I ever manage to slither past my front door >always joked that I'd be dead by 30, that I'd never live to be an old man >every day it feels less and less like a joke
Just getting out of bed is a challenge in itself most days. I don't really want to die, and the thought of my mom finding my body is more than I can bear, but I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.
Just get a fricking job for God's sake. I've been there. I've lived what you're living. And all I did was get a job and start paying my mom's bills. That's all you need to make getting out of bed feel less insufferable. It's the bare minimum, but actually contributing to something in your life is all it takes to not feel crushingly depressed with being a complete loser.
kek we're almost exactly the same, except im only 27
but i truly dont want any of this stuff, i tried living a bit of a normal life but i found myself just not enjoying it
but dont really know what to do, dont wanna die either so im just living this mundane existence
it feels like im just biding time, but waiting for what, i dont know
maybe itll hit me one day but for now this is true depression
We should stop being ashamed that our moms still make us cakes for our birthdays just because we live with them.
Other people DON'T have that. They hide from their birthday. Our mothers never let us hide from it. They make sure we're better than those other cowards who have abandoned home and even moved out of state just so they can have sex without mommy accidentally coming in without knocking. Hundreds of thousands of wasted dollars, just so they can jerk off inside of some 5/10 who doesn't love them.
I know who loves me. And it's the only love a man can be sure of, if he has any at all. And it's Mom's love.
my parents died when I was young. I'd fricking kill to be living with mommy and having birthday cakes and stuff like that. it's been years since I opened a gift or something on my birthday. you boys don't know what you got. not even kidding, cherish that shit.
my best friends a 30 yo neet who b***hes about his mom regularly and it drives me nuts. it makes you fricking MORE pathetic, not less, to act like the parent your leaching off of is an inconvenience and not a fricking blessing from God.
God bless you, anon.
I remember lots of stories from lots of anons and at the very least I'll be praying for you tonight.
I intend to find a home that has many bedrooms so my kids can live at home while they work or go to college, until they're ready to start their own families (should I ever get to start my own).
some of these i find weirdly uplifting because its hard to make friends these days for anybody, but a supportive family (even one thats just going through the motions) really can go a long way. Not everybody has that.
like this one especially, its obviously a family in the midwest of a bunch of boomers but they let her do her own thing
or even this one
like yeah they put their foots in their mouths or whatever, but theyre making an attempt and even if the execution gets an F the attempt comes from a place of love
Goth fashion for women is just an excuse for plain / fat chicks to wear more makeup than usual to cover up how plain/fat they are. They're not naturally hot enough to be a stacy, so they go for this edgy prefab look to artificially up their sexual value / limit the dating pool. It involves zero creativity so it's not exactly self-expression. All goth chicks look the same. They are the mcdonald's of women.
I hear that helps but it's not enough. Apparently even after you're aware you're reincarnating you still are forced to come back for thousands of lifetimes.
SOVL
I want to go back bros
I wonder where she is now, probably married with children of her own.
>live away from home for work >thought covid was gonna kill my boomer parents >used to talk to them once every few weeks >since 2020 now talk to them every day and end each call with "i love you"
>tfw when several cousins birthday parties were always huge events like 30-50 ppl show up >decide i finally want one and mom throws a party >nobody comes
ngl it still stings to this day. never celebrated my birthday after that. always coped and told people i dont like parties or being thr center of attention but it was pure cope.
I'm so desperate I probably would. I'm not joking in the slightest. I need a woman, bros. Any fricking woman. I see girls that are 7/10 at maximum and still desire them. I know that's the best I could do but still end up having nothing.
as this anon said you can start with less attractive girls
After that work your way up to attractive ones (you gain confidence)band marry who you want, that's what I did
the internet told me that they do this for kids with a terminal illness. that part of explaining whats happening to them involves picking out their coffin and asking how they want their funeral themed, like its a part. then when the child dies the parents simply fulfill the dying wishes of the kids and the obviously picked some kiddy theme to the funeral. you may cry now
some of these are obvious autismo wizards but the others just look like normal parties and especially the "extra" parties people have when they visit their gma who baked them a cake or something. it doesnt mean that the sad pan cake was the actual main party or that they didnt do anything to celebrate
>live away from home for work >thought covid was gonna kill my boomer parents >used to talk to them once every few weeks >since 2020 now talk to them every day and end each call with "i love you"
>films
If you count each episode as a film, Twin Peaks: The Return is an 18-film series about getting older, things getting worse, how trying too hard makes thing even moreso worse, and to appreciate the little moments of happiness and little acts of kindness from others.
I love cake and food even if no one but my parents celebrates my birthday with me the fact I get whatever kind of food I want for a meal and a cake really makes it a day to look forward to
>me posting in "feels" threads in my 20s >see people who are 30+ and miserable NEETs >imagine how horrible that must be and think there is no way I will ever let myself go so much to not get my shit together by then >am 31 now and a NEET with 0 life experience and skills >thinking about my life fills me with such anxiety and shame I need video games or alcohol to distract me
Time just creeps up on you. Every day I told myself I will start tomorrow and quickly these days added up to years without me noticing.
I got my life together at 33 after more than 10 years as a NEET. It's possible but the best advice I can give is that you're not getting any younger. Any idea or plan you have in which you think you're too old and you think "man I wish I started this sooner" or "I wish I thought of this when I was younger" just go for it because you aren't getting any younger and eventually you'll see 31 as young and you'll be saying the same thing wishing you started something at 31
I found the perfect career for me and I just went for it. It's a job thats hard for normies but ironically easy for NEETs, it makes productive use of all my worse qualities and it's a cool job that brings me pride and satisfaction. Im a merchant sailor now, working on container ships. On the ship you get your own room, your own bathroom/shower, and 3 meals a day cooked for you. Most people go insane and can't handle the being cooped up on a ship for months on end with no social life and nothing to do, but as a NEET I'm adept at doing nothing but sitting in my room on a computer all day everyday so I actually thrive at it. The fact I can sit in my room at a desk on my laptop with a hard drive of kino, vidya, and books, and be happy with nothing but that for months actually became a productive and positive thing rather than a negative thing when I was at home on land.
I only work 6 months a year, so even though you're isolated while out at sea, you get 6 entire months of NEETdome on land per year with no responsibilities to pursue stuff like that if you want. It's definitely not for everyone, but I can think over other jobs that make use of NEETskills too, like trucker. Basically any job that involves being away from home for stretches of time I think NEETs should look into because NEETs are uniquely good at being entertained with nothing but a laptop and being away from friends/family which are the kind of jobs normalgays usually can't handle
I only work 6 months a year, so even though you're isolated while out at sea, you get 6 entire months of NEETdome on land per year with no responsibilities to pursue stuff like that if you want. It's definitely not for everyone, but I can think over other jobs that make use of NEETskills too, like trucker. Basically any job that involves being away from home for stretches of time I think NEETs should look into because NEETs are uniquely good at being entertained with nothing but a laptop and being away from friends/family which are the kind of jobs normalgays usually can't handle
I found the perfect career for me and I just went for it. It's a job thats hard for normies but ironically easy for NEETs, it makes productive use of all my worse qualities and it's a cool job that brings me pride and satisfaction. Im a merchant sailor now, working on container ships. On the ship you get your own room, your own bathroom/shower, and 3 meals a day cooked for you. Most people go insane and can't handle the being cooped up on a ship for months on end with no social life and nothing to do, but as a NEET I'm adept at doing nothing but sitting in my room on a computer all day everyday so I actually thrive at it. The fact I can sit in my room at a desk on my laptop with a hard drive of kino, vidya, and books, and be happy with nothing but that for months actually became a productive and positive thing rather than a negative thing when I was at home on land.
i vaguely remember a post about this pic from like 15 years ago on /b/ >working class family >poor as shit >look at their kitchen >work hard their entire life, struggling with poverty >and now this
I'm 34 and I'm getting on the ball just now.
It's ok. So I'm 10 years behind when young men realize it's time to stop playing at 24.
At least now I know what to do with my money (literally don't do anything, just stack it until you can get a home that you can afford) and what I want out of life.
It took a long time of taking in everything, even the redpills and the self-hate of old all lead me here. I know what I want and I'm moving towards it.
Good for you anon. You've got it figured out. You're gonna make it. I got married at 36 and have a son now.
I'm 34 and I'm getting on the ball just now.
It's ok. So I'm 10 years behind when young men realize it's time to stop playing at 24.
At least now I know what to do with my money (literally don't do anything, just stack it until you can get a home that you can afford) and what I want out of life.
It took a long time of taking in everything, even the redpills and the self-hate of old all lead me here. I know what I want and I'm moving towards it.
>when young men realize it's time to stop playing at 24
What world are you living in? I turn 32 soon, and people in our age group are the infantile turbohomosexuals still eating cereal and think swearing in cartoons makes them more sophisticated. Getting your shit together and taking yourself seriously puts you ahead of the curve.
I know what you mean but I was figuring for older generations.
That was my best guess for when men grew up somewhat at least.
Mostly just based off of Alexander the Great conquering the entire civilized world by that age.
The world our parents grew up in no longer exists. Gone are the days of mowing lawns to get through college, of walking into a business and taking the help wanted sign down. Things are different now and much of your stress is holding yourself to a standard that isn't applicable. I was the same way, I couldn't understand why my parents were so proud of me when I still needed help to make rent. Everyone needs help, especially when everything is prohibitively expensive to the unestablished. If you're on the way and you aren't making an ass of yourself, you're doing better than you think. Take confidence in that and the confidence will open even more doors.
I feel like past 21 birthdays shouldn't be celebrated and if anything it feels cruel to do. When you are young getting older is exciting and birthdays come with milestones like being able to drive a car and you don't have the disposable income yet to afford nice stuff so the presents are very welcome. Also presents are easy to buy just buy a toy, video game, phone, laptop...
But once you are older getting older just means worse health and looks. As an adult you have the income to buy whatever you need so the presents are going to be garbage you dont need or someting you cant afford which will make you uncomfortable because it will feel like you now owe something. Buying presents for adults is a headache.
I haven't celebrated my birthday over 10 years and I don't miss it.
if you have kids and a wife they will want to throw you a party and its fun to see them have fun and be happy and while its true you can just buy whatever you want, you can find other ways to get nice stuff on your bday that are just gifts you can order from amazon
For the people I love I always go out of my way to make them feel better on their birthday. From experience, I know the quietening feeling of waking up on one’s birthday in adulthood, and the feeling that you should feel special but do not. I believe everyone’s birthday is a special time when they should feel more important. Everyone deserves to feel on the top of the world, even if just once a year. And with regards to gifts, that’s true to an extent. I can buy anything I want, so when I receive gifts they tend to be something small. But every so often, they are quite special. A girlfriend once bought me a leatherbound journal, which I cherish and fill with sketches every so often. I did not need it, but the thought of someone considering what I like and trying to get me something is truly touching.
This, I personally love nothing more than a well-chosen gift, so I try to do the same for people in my life, I'm broke as shit but the attempt means something and it's wonderful when the gift is actually appreciated.
happy birthday, incelbro. don't give up, my buddy is like 38 and just started dating a girl for the first time.
were all gonna make it bros
Good luck and Happy birthday, Anon.
Happy birthday
Thanks frens
we’re all gonna unironically make it
And even if it doesn’t work out with this girl, I atleast know that I am enough for this attractive girl to actively accept my date invite, which means I could do it with other ladies if it doesn’t work out
You're going to be okay bro, if the date goes well you can hopefully find some companionship. It it bombs, you gain a little life experience or maybe access to her friends.
I am still upset by this webm, I want to believe it was staged and that kid is not traumatized for life.
Don’t worry lad, I know how you feel. I did kiss girls when I was younger and even had a little puppy love in high school, but I was a virgin till I was 24. It was the most humiliating secret, I hid it from the first serious longterm gf I had until after we had broken up. The first night I had sex I had literally five pumps before I absolutely firehosed her belly and face with semen. I think she kind of knew, or suspected, because of how stereotypical it was.
At the end of the day, just don’t worry about it. You’re gonna frick that girl for sure, and if you don’t frick that girl you’re gonna frick another girl. Be confident. I don’t mean pretend you’re confident, I mean right now understand everything’s gonna be just fine and relax, and everything will get easier with chicks. Trust me. Now go frick that broad.
>just went to a friend's wedding, talked with his entire family/friends, had several meaningful conversations and really felt confident and like a proper normalgay >next day, lose all the self-confidence, forget any feelings of normalcy I felt, think of how much of an autistic moron I must actually have been and go back to wanting to an hero
I don't think my brain is physically capable of sustaining happiness
These photos kinda inspire me to be more happy and outgoing honestly, being sad all the time is lame asf but sometimes it happens, just don't want to spend my whole life like that, still an autist though who can't talk have a good conversation
Do you guys remember a time when oldgays used to call out newbies and had some sort of esteem towards being an "original" Cinemaphile user who had been here longer?
Then as time went on, the people that made it, left this site and fewer and fewer young people joined. So the majority of what is left is the people who were doomed. The people who are in the same situation they were in over a decade ago.
Being an oldgay is akin to just being doomed now. I've been posting on this site for well over 10 years having never entered a real relationship or felt like my life is going in a direction I'm happy with during that time. And it looks like my course is set to make this exact same post another decade from now.
ive been posting since '05. married with kids, no debt, Cinemaphile, paid off house, tall, and have a degree. why do you think only wizards would post and why do you think people would stop posting? www.Cinemaphile.org is more normie than ever right now. hell thats why they even did the site split
>married with kids, no debt, Cinemaphile, paid off house, tall, and have a degree.
and you're also mrna vaccinated and your kids are also so all of that work was for nothing
my wife took one for her job despite my protests and calling her moronic though but it was a jank chink or russian one, not the israelite juice mrna ones
I've been here 13 years and I'm pretty much a normie now.
Pretty much because anywhere else is unbearable.
As for you anon it's never too late, getting your shit together to an acceptable state isn't rocket science.
a) build your discipline by keeping your place clean, and yourself too
b) apply for jobs
c) earn money to enroll and pay for higher education
d) learn how to be social and hide your truly disgusting parts of yourself
I got a job and a fiance, plus my own place.
Don't kid yourself about making it means leaving.
All these years, and I just now realized getting called newbie was a warning more than insult.
You're here forever.
I have been posting here since ~2006-07. I certainly fit the stereotype of an obese dork nerd at that time, but in the years since lost weight, gained muscle, became a womanizer and a mild alcoholic, and overall life of the party before settling down. Many of the horror stories back in 2010-2011 motivated me to become somewhat of a “secret nerd.” I remember how proud I felt when I brought a girl home one night and she saw a Gundam model I had, and said she never thought I looked like I was into Transformers.
The only thing that unifies us is our anonymity. We will never know one another deeply, and that is for the better
You don't need any job experience. You just need to pass a medical (you're disqualified by a bunch of mental diagnosis' so if you're a true disabled NEET collectinf NEETbux then you're out of luck) a passport, and something called a TWIC which you can get on your own before you get the job. Basically get your medical, passport, and TWIC on your own out of pocket and then you can go apply and get hired. I did 1 job like that to make sure I could handle it, then I went to a marine school for the proper apprenticeship after I had already worked one hitch and new I liked the job. The union I joined paid for the school so it cost me nothing and its a paid apprenticeship so you're making money during school. Definitely worth it but I recommend doing at least one job before committing to school to make sure you can handle the life
oh damn so you do need school? i have a degree and was in the navy but im in my mid 30s and feel like im too old for them to want to hire me. i also live near the sea and large ports
You don't "need" the school, like I said I worked my first hitch before I went, but it's absolutely worth it and almost doubles how much money you can make right off the bat. It's also a paid apprenticeship so you're making money while doing it. They send you off to work on ships multiple times before you finish so calling it "school" doesn't even feel right. If you were in the navy then I'm sure you can skip a bunch of steps or fast track them because any time I applied for anything or filled out any form there was also special options and forms for people who were from the navy, but I never looked into it because it didn't apply to me so I couldn't give you specifics.
And for the record the industry is old as frick, absolutely filled with geezers, so don't let your age stop you. Mid 30s and you'll still be one of the youngest guys on the ship lol
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alright thanks. ill check it out. im going to be moving soon and having to restart some line of work and doing something like this may be perfect
while i love the solitude to read and work out on a ship im actually married with kids so ill have to decide if its worth it and how they would handle it. dont want to miss anything but i feel like its less of an issue now since you can just video chat literally every day
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A family would definitely make it harder, but another thing to keep in mind is that (assuming you're american or canadian) you can work on the great lakes instead of the ocean which are much shorter contracts. You're only gone for 6 weeks at a time on the lakes instead of 2-3 months at a time on the ocean, the downside being I heard it's much more difficult work. Also keep in mind it's not required to live anywhere near the port where you work, I live in the middle of the canadian prairies and just fly to port when it's time
I honestly support it, and if I were emperor, I would assign a israeliteess slave girl to every unmarried man over 27. you only get one though, so you have to make it work.
I don't want to hurt anybody anon, I just want to meet a nice girl who loves me.
I actually fantasize a lot about having a depressed, lonely gf so we can make each other happy, but then it makes me feel bad. Not that that would happen in the first place.
at least someone is posting movies and not just making it LULZ
I'm unironically feeling miserable because I developed a celeb crush out of nowhere. I was just starting to come to terms with my loser life, being fine being foreveralone and finding joy in the small things like watching a good movie or eating out but now I feel this burning sensation of loneliness. Looking at her fills me first with joy and then this heavy feeling knowing she is forever out of reach and I'm like a lower species in comparison. When I see other attractive women I feel nothing.
Is this just my brain misfiring from prolonged solitude? Is this feeling of love just an illusion and I should just go outside and meet people and then this silly infatuation will disappear?
are you a teen? give it few months and it will pass, and enjoy still being able to feel somethin
and yes and its not even the worst that could (and will) happen
I'm 30 but considering I spent the last 10 years without any friends and staying at home most of the time I guess I am life experience wise
I wonder if it's also a bizarre coping mechanism. By having this unattainable crush I can ignore attractive women I see and not be like the guys here who lust over every social media girl people post here and go BR2049 "goddammit" scene every time they see an attractive women irl. I also feel no envy towards guys with hot girlfriends or who get laid a lot. In some highly abstract nonsensical way, deep inside, I feel some kind of pride for having "good taste" and "not settling" even if it means being alone. Some part of me doesn't even want this infatuation to be over because I feel like she is objectively perfect and getting an actual gf in my league would be like taking the "blue pill". It's very odd. The brain is a strange thing.
Maybe I should go to therapy for this but I would feel embarassed talking about this IRL. Also what is the therapist going to do besides say "you need to get laid bro".
I really wanted to like that movie but none of the characters were likeable to me. Somehow Royal Tenenbaum had charm and was funny. Paltrow was such a cutie in that movie too, I am a sucker for those types. Both of his sons were sympathetic characters, hell even the guy cucking him was more likeable. Darjeeling had no charm and I hate that I wasted my time on that pretentious bullshit. At least Rushmore still exists.
I'm unironically feeling miserable because I developed a celeb crush out of nowhere. I was just starting to come to terms with my loser life, being fine being foreveralone and finding joy in the small things like watching a good movie or eating out but now I feel this burning sensation of loneliness. Looking at her fills me first with joy and then this heavy feeling knowing she is forever out of reach and I'm like a lower species in comparison. When I see other attractive women I feel nothing.
Is this just my brain misfiring from prolonged solitude? Is this feeling of love just an illusion and I should just go outside and meet people and then this silly infatuation will disappear?
You're rational mind will try to understand it, but it's just kind of a chemical stew, we're not supposed to be exposed to these propagandistic/pornographic images of attractive women all the time. Honestly it's not the women's fault, they don't know what they're doing, they just get money from looking pretty. But for men to not become simps, It's better to be near an actual "normal" woman and get to know them as people rather than live in a fantasy world where nothing could possibly happen because of the remoteness of the desired partner.
I know the feeling. For me it doesn't come from a "I'm a lower species, I'm worthless" place though. Doesn't just with celebrities either, but characters from vidya, VNs, movies, etc. It comes and goes but I find it strangely addictive in a way. Maybe in time you'll feel the same.
This thread really fuels my camera anxiety. It literally ruins my day when a family member snaps a candid photo of me and then shows it or sends it to the family group chat, and I cringe just seeing how fricking weird I look. It's the exact same as these guys with that depressed face looking down at their cake. It's unkempt, it's unbecoming, it's awkward, it's worse than "neutral".
If you have money, move to a border city in Texas or California. Meet a woman in Tijuana or some other border Mexican coty. Easiest path to meeting a traditional girl that is close enough to home that having a normalized lifestyle is obtainable. There are still vain women, as that’s quite difficult to avoid, but there are several beautiful women which still recognize man as being man and woman as woman.
This really hurts, and today's been a bad day
Turn your sadness into fuel and burn it.
Will reflect
Thanks la, you'll be okay too. In the end, everything can always be okay.
Sorry for your pain. Hope you know you're cherished in a weird sort of way here.
It’ll be ok fren
why is the bus driver wearing that little hat?
oh my god just lighten the frick up.
it doesn't have to be that frickin bad kid
based ignorant moron
or i've been through shit and came out the other side? you petulant b***h.
synecdoche
Just watched this an hour ago, not knowing what the plot was. Always wanted to see it, so saved it for watching alone on the eve of my birthday
An unfortunate choice
Well, everyone has to die, you just got reminded hard. happy birthday, anon! same birthday as my wife
that second one looks AI generated
Thanks for the suicide fuel
that one always makes me sad, hopefully Julius is living a good life now
He died not too long after this went down
From what? Source?
I remember seeing this picture years ago. I wonder what Julius is up to now.
I'm fairly certain /b/ got together and flooded this guy with cards and birthday wishes.
yeah i'm probably ending my life this year
i'm pretty happy about it all
Stop drinking. Start lifting (stronglift 5x5). Quit putting off the fun things you want to do.
I would even put off watching shows and browse here. Quit that.
Also read, homie. A book, fantasy or sci-fi, or a classic.
Is there anything at all you can possibly do to improve your life? Losing weight, gym, finding a new job, making friends, anything. If so you should do that (even if it takes years to pull off) before giving up. It’s worth a try.
Also read the Bible, go to church, and pray.
i don't really want to go into too much detail but i have a neurological condition from being exposed to high levels of trace lead in utero
unfortunately my brain doesn't work quite the same as most other people
i've had a pretty decent life and i've exerienced mostly everything i can here, i just am ready to rest
what condition
high level lead exposure; it's a neurotoxin and babies are extremely susceptible, binds to sites where calcium would otherwise in your bone development and is effectively stays with you your whole life
my sister is a few years older than me and was exposed to it for those extra years and is much much worse, i feel bad for her but she doesn't really know otherwise and has found some kind of life that she will be safe in.
but yeah developmental issues, behavioural issues cognitive issues, reddit spacing the list could go on ; we don't really know a whole lot about it
how did you get exposed to lead?
i don't want to tell you the specifics but it's mining related
Plumbing used to be made of lead.
Plumbum is the latin word for lead if you didn't know.
It was also used in fricking everything, paint, insulation, fake snow, cosmetics.
Live in an old house and you'll likely be exposed to lead in roofing.
>but yeah developmental issues, behavioural issues cognitive issues, reddit spacing
that must be hell, specially the last one
Kek
how is a leadbaby a better poster than you?
i prefer the term leadhead
ever learn to meditate? helped me a lot, basically rewires your brain to make it function more clearly
good for you anon, have fun and don't worry about doing well, I tried for years to "do well" on dates and it was all just cringe
Fair enough then. Either way, always remember God is there for you. Just throw out a pray or two and see what happens. Decent chance I’d be dead or on my way to it without doing just that lol
>turning 29 in 5 months
>haven't done anything with my life
>basically been a complete shut in since high school
>never had a job, dropped out of (community) college, never had a gf
>have barely spoken to a human being outside of my family for like 10 years, save for a small group of internet friends I've kept
>more and more they're too busy with their own lives - being normal, functional adults - to spend time with me
>start to feel as though I've legitimately forgotten how to go out and have fun with other people
>want more than anything to be normal, to have people that I can talk to and confide in who care about me
>feel as though my personality has become so morbid and bleak as to be off-putting
>afraid I've created impossible standards for any friends or partners I might meet, assuming I ever manage to slither past my front door
>always joked that I'd be dead by 30, that I'd never live to be an old man
>every day it feels less and less like a joke
Just getting out of bed is a challenge in itself most days. I don't really want to die, and the thought of my mom finding my body is more than I can bear, but I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.
I don't think I'm going to make it bros.
Just get a fricking job for God's sake. I've been there. I've lived what you're living. And all I did was get a job and start paying my mom's bills. That's all you need to make getting out of bed feel less insufferable. It's the bare minimum, but actually contributing to something in your life is all it takes to not feel crushingly depressed with being a complete loser.
kek we're almost exactly the same, except im only 27
but i truly dont want any of this stuff, i tried living a bit of a normal life but i found myself just not enjoying it
but dont really know what to do, dont wanna die either so im just living this mundane existence
it feels like im just biding time, but waiting for what, i dont know
maybe itll hit me one day but for now this is true depression
🙁
One of the few times I am not feeling racist, poor guy.
idgi am i abnormal. my birthday came and went ten days ago and nobody remembered and im chilling
WELCOME TO HEARTBREAK
probably because his main interest in life is jazz music
I hope he's doing okay.
The first wives club (1996)
from the perspective of a human there is no meaninglessness
your brain cares about the dumbest shit
We should stop being ashamed that our moms still make us cakes for our birthdays just because we live with them.
Other people DON'T have that. They hide from their birthday. Our mothers never let us hide from it. They make sure we're better than those other cowards who have abandoned home and even moved out of state just so they can have sex without mommy accidentally coming in without knocking. Hundreds of thousands of wasted dollars, just so they can jerk off inside of some 5/10 who doesn't love them.
I know who loves me. And it's the only love a man can be sure of, if he has any at all. And it's Mom's love.
my parents died when I was young. I'd fricking kill to be living with mommy and having birthday cakes and stuff like that. it's been years since I opened a gift or something on my birthday. you boys don't know what you got. not even kidding, cherish that shit.
my best friends a 30 yo neet who b***hes about his mom regularly and it drives me nuts. it makes you fricking MORE pathetic, not less, to act like the parent your leaching off of is an inconvenience and not a fricking blessing from God.
God bless you, anon.
I remember lots of stories from lots of anons and at the very least I'll be praying for you tonight.
I intend to find a home that has many bedrooms so my kids can live at home while they work or go to college, until they're ready to start their own families (should I ever get to start my own).
your future kids should stay with you even when they have their own families
Hell yeah fren, well said. Long live our mothers
as long as you don't leech off your parents like a do-nothing NEET
second pic was probably taken by his wife
>cutting the cake weird
>haha look at how he cuts the cake
These feels... I cant handle them
soulless - soulless
women have no soul
thanks Robert Downey Jr.
some of these i find weirdly uplifting because its hard to make friends these days for anybody, but a supportive family (even one thats just going through the motions) really can go a long way. Not everybody has that.
like this one especially, its obviously a family in the midwest of a bunch of boomers but they let her do her own thing
or even this one
like yeah they put their foots in their mouths or whatever, but theyre making an attempt and even if the execution gets an F the attempt comes from a place of love
shrinking family sizes are the source of all the mental illness and anger we see today. just stop moving away and take the extended family pill
Goth fashion for women is just an excuse for plain / fat chicks to wear more makeup than usual to cover up how plain/fat they are. They're not naturally hot enough to be a stacy, so they go for this edgy prefab look to artificially up their sexual value / limit the dating pool. It involves zero creativity so it's not exactly self-expression. All goth chicks look the same. They are the mcdonald's of women.
dang
already hit the wall
Unpleasant dreams and birthday, babybat
ruined
awww she's still so adorable
are goths allowed to just literally paint their face solid white like on the right? she looks like a clown not a goth chick
that "hairline" runs strong in the family
grim
Especially if you're a young guy in that family.
You know it's over already.
the costanza family
>white men hair be like: just turned 25 years old? I'ma head out.
Black people go bald way more frequently
Even black women go bald a lot of the time lol
well whites DID invent baldness, so...
Pretty sure the Atabaskans on that map prove it isn't entirely about Med ancestry.
>that thing
>white
John, pictured with his mother and two younger brothers, 15 and 16 respectively
he never stood a chance
He's kinda cute, kissable nips!
Nice cheekbones too
>mulligan down to 3
>ok i keep this hand i guess
>ever going beyond 5
How one trick pony is the deck that you're willing to go to 3?
Anyone else looking into breaking out of the cycles of reincarnation?
yes, you can escape saṃsāra by not having kids
I hear that helps but it's not enough. Apparently even after you're aware you're reincarnating you still are forced to come back for thousands of lifetimes.
impossible, matter can’t be destroyed. You WILL return to the earth and be recycled into other forms. It’s inevitable
frick out of here with that, an attractive girl cant even fathom the pain of a lonely ugly guy
SOVL
I want to go back bros
I wonder where she is now, probably married with children of her own.
Based
>tfw when several cousins birthday parties were always huge events like 30-50 ppl show up
>decide i finally want one and mom throws a party
>nobody comes
ngl it still stings to this day. never celebrated my birthday after that. always coped and told people i dont like parties or being thr center of attention but it was pure cope.
What the frick that pic is literally me, except I don't have that fancy coffee machine
Do you at least own a shirt?
I do thankfully. Can't say the same about my long hair
I should probably binge adventure time so I can talk to lonely fujos about it
Id buy her flowers just to see her smile
OH MARCELINE
WHY ARE YOU SO MEAN?
good stuff
I'm so desperate I probably would. I'm not joking in the slightest. I need a woman, bros. Any fricking woman. I see girls that are 7/10 at maximum and still desire them. I know that's the best I could do but still end up having nothing.
moron, lower your standards. You should be aiming for 4/10s not 7/10s. The latter only fricks chad
as this anon said you can start with less attractive girls
After that work your way up to attractive ones (you gain confidence)band marry who you want, that's what I did
She's not bad looking, has a nice dog and a family that loves her, you could do far worse (and I'm sure many ITT have).
It's the complete lack of self awareness in this post that makes it so intensely amusing.
incels really are something else
get the frick out of here redditor, this is a comfy thread and you need to leave
nice digits
I just want someone nice.
that's the worst I've seen in a while
the internet told me that they do this for kids with a terminal illness. that part of explaining whats happening to them involves picking out their coffin and asking how they want their funeral themed, like its a part. then when the child dies the parents simply fulfill the dying wishes of the kids and the obviously picked some kiddy theme to the funeral. you may cry now
some of these are obvious autismo wizards but the others just look like normal parties and especially the "extra" parties people have when they visit their gma who baked them a cake or something. it doesnt mean that the sad pan cake was the actual main party or that they didnt do anything to celebrate
>live away from home for work
>thought covid was gonna kill my boomer parents
>used to talk to them once every few weeks
>since 2020 now talk to them every day and end each call with "i love you"
>films
If you count each episode as a film, Twin Peaks: The Return is an 18-film series about getting older, things getting worse, how trying too hard makes thing even moreso worse, and to appreciate the little moments of happiness and little acts of kindness from others.
he's kinda cute tho
cute
where's his mom?
me on the back
nice collection bro
you're only missing a couple
RARE
ive never seen that one
is that a "20" made out of pretzel?
lmao
why am I such a loser
Kino with this feel?
>his smile and optimism
>gone
>all these people have moms who love them
Based
They already won at life
>play a game with myself since i was a teen to see if anyone who's not family says happy birthday to me unprompted
>32 and still waiting
yeah
I love cake and food even if no one but my parents celebrates my birthday with me the fact I get whatever kind of food I want for a meal and a cake really makes it a day to look forward to
>me posting in "feels" threads in my 20s
>see people who are 30+ and miserable NEETs
>imagine how horrible that must be and think there is no way I will ever let myself go so much to not get my shit together by then
>am 31 now and a NEET with 0 life experience and skills
>thinking about my life fills me with such anxiety and shame I need video games or alcohol to distract me
Time just creeps up on you. Every day I told myself I will start tomorrow and quickly these days added up to years without me noticing.
I got my life together at 33 after more than 10 years as a NEET. It's possible but the best advice I can give is that you're not getting any younger. Any idea or plan you have in which you think you're too old and you think "man I wish I started this sooner" or "I wish I thought of this when I was younger" just go for it because you aren't getting any younger and eventually you'll see 31 as young and you'll be saying the same thing wishing you started something at 31
How did you fix your life?
I found the perfect career for me and I just went for it. It's a job thats hard for normies but ironically easy for NEETs, it makes productive use of all my worse qualities and it's a cool job that brings me pride and satisfaction. Im a merchant sailor now, working on container ships. On the ship you get your own room, your own bathroom/shower, and 3 meals a day cooked for you. Most people go insane and can't handle the being cooped up on a ship for months on end with no social life and nothing to do, but as a NEET I'm adept at doing nothing but sitting in my room on a computer all day everyday so I actually thrive at it. The fact I can sit in my room at a desk on my laptop with a hard drive of kino, vidya, and books, and be happy with nothing but that for months actually became a productive and positive thing rather than a negative thing when I was at home on land.
Sounds like life really took a turn for you. Very happy for you man. I couldn't do that because I want a family someday.
I only work 6 months a year, so even though you're isolated while out at sea, you get 6 entire months of NEETdome on land per year with no responsibilities to pursue stuff like that if you want. It's definitely not for everyone, but I can think over other jobs that make use of NEETskills too, like trucker. Basically any job that involves being away from home for stretches of time I think NEETs should look into because NEETs are uniquely good at being entertained with nothing but a laptop and being away from friends/family which are the kind of jobs normalgays usually can't handle
based beyond reckoning
Good form!
What'd you do?
get a job dude. its an incredibly annoying and demoralizing process but it opens the door on many things.
nothing was special about your birth why do we need to celebrate it?
wheres the one with the cake that had a little computer nerd figurine
ah thanks, im apparently moronic
god thats a classic
i vaguely remember a post about this pic from like 15 years ago on /b/
>working class family
>poor as shit
>look at their kitchen
>work hard their entire life, struggling with poverty
>and now this
I have never celebrated my birthday.
I'm sorry, being a Jehovah's Witness must suck
Good for you anon. You've got it figured out. You're gonna make it. I got married at 36 and have a son now.
>being a Jehovah's Witness must suck
I'm not a Jehovah's witness but I had a crush on a girl who was one.
I'm 34 and I'm getting on the ball just now.
It's ok. So I'm 10 years behind when young men realize it's time to stop playing at 24.
At least now I know what to do with my money (literally don't do anything, just stack it until you can get a home that you can afford) and what I want out of life.
It took a long time of taking in everything, even the redpills and the self-hate of old all lead me here. I know what I want and I'm moving towards it.
>when young men realize it's time to stop playing at 24
What world are you living in? I turn 32 soon, and people in our age group are the infantile turbohomosexuals still eating cereal and think swearing in cartoons makes them more sophisticated. Getting your shit together and taking yourself seriously puts you ahead of the curve.
I know what you mean but I was figuring for older generations.
That was my best guess for when men grew up somewhat at least.
Mostly just based off of Alexander the Great conquering the entire civilized world by that age.
Alexander the Great is an outlier and should not be counted.
The world our parents grew up in no longer exists. Gone are the days of mowing lawns to get through college, of walking into a business and taking the help wanted sign down. Things are different now and much of your stress is holding yourself to a standard that isn't applicable. I was the same way, I couldn't understand why my parents were so proud of me when I still needed help to make rent. Everyone needs help, especially when everything is prohibitively expensive to the unestablished. If you're on the way and you aren't making an ass of yourself, you're doing better than you think. Take confidence in that and the confidence will open even more doors.
>tfw american pochos do this and use a real egg and dont break it before hand and basically just slam your head with a rock
Evil
average mexican birthday
Oh, wow. The dark hands really tie it together. That kid will grow up to either be very cucked or very based and racially aware.
I feel like past 21 birthdays shouldn't be celebrated and if anything it feels cruel to do. When you are young getting older is exciting and birthdays come with milestones like being able to drive a car and you don't have the disposable income yet to afford nice stuff so the presents are very welcome. Also presents are easy to buy just buy a toy, video game, phone, laptop...
But once you are older getting older just means worse health and looks. As an adult you have the income to buy whatever you need so the presents are going to be garbage you dont need or someting you cant afford which will make you uncomfortable because it will feel like you now owe something. Buying presents for adults is a headache.
I haven't celebrated my birthday over 10 years and I don't miss it.
if you have kids and a wife they will want to throw you a party and its fun to see them have fun and be happy and while its true you can just buy whatever you want, you can find other ways to get nice stuff on your bday that are just gifts you can order from amazon
For the people I love I always go out of my way to make them feel better on their birthday. From experience, I know the quietening feeling of waking up on one’s birthday in adulthood, and the feeling that you should feel special but do not. I believe everyone’s birthday is a special time when they should feel more important. Everyone deserves to feel on the top of the world, even if just once a year. And with regards to gifts, that’s true to an extent. I can buy anything I want, so when I receive gifts they tend to be something small. But every so often, they are quite special. A girlfriend once bought me a leatherbound journal, which I cherish and fill with sketches every so often. I did not need it, but the thought of someone considering what I like and trying to get me something is truly touching.
This, I personally love nothing more than a well-chosen gift, so I try to do the same for people in my life, I'm broke as shit but the attempt means something and it's wonderful when the gift is actually appreciated.
Zardoz unironically
he looks better without the hair.
And at least he's keeping it short and not wearing it like a hobo.
Today was my birthday bros
23, never even kissed a girl
But I did get a girls number from a dating app today, and plan to have coffee next week with her
Wish me luck frens, I’ve never even held a girls hand or been on a date before
OooooooOOOOoooo, anon's mom was knocked up on Halloween!
Happy birthday!
Happy birthday
Good luck and Happy birthday, Anon.
were all gonna make it bros
happy birthday, incelbro. don't give up, my buddy is like 38 and just started dating a girl for the first time.
Hæpi bidet <3 *rapes you*
Thanks frens
we’re all gonna unironically make it
And even if it doesn’t work out with this girl, I atleast know that I am enough for this attractive girl to actively accept my date invite, which means I could do it with other ladies if it doesn’t work out
good to be positive, but also know you're on a timer and there's a huge drop-off in quality of women after a certain age. get grindin' bwah.
You're going to be okay bro, if the date goes well you can hopefully find some companionship. It it bombs, you gain a little life experience or maybe access to her friends.
I am still upset by this webm, I want to believe it was staged and that kid is not traumatized for life.
Don’t worry lad, I know how you feel. I did kiss girls when I was younger and even had a little puppy love in high school, but I was a virgin till I was 24. It was the most humiliating secret, I hid it from the first serious longterm gf I had until after we had broken up. The first night I had sex I had literally five pumps before I absolutely firehosed her belly and face with semen. I think she kind of knew, or suspected, because of how stereotypical it was.
At the end of the day, just don’t worry about it. You’re gonna frick that girl for sure, and if you don’t frick that girl you’re gonna frick another girl. Be confident. I don’t mean pretend you’re confident, I mean right now understand everything’s gonna be just fine and relax, and everything will get easier with chicks. Trust me. Now go frick that broad.
WATCH ZARDOZ
WATCH ZARDOZ RIGHT FRICKING NOW
I DONT CARE IF YOU HAVE TO PIRATE
>just went to a friend's wedding, talked with his entire family/friends, had several meaningful conversations and really felt confident and like a proper normalgay
>next day, lose all the self-confidence, forget any feelings of normalcy I felt, think of how much of an autistic moron I must actually have been and go back to wanting to an hero
I don't think my brain is physically capable of sustaining happiness
These photos kinda inspire me to be more happy and outgoing honestly, being sad all the time is lame asf but sometimes it happens, just don't want to spend my whole life like that, still an autist though who can't talk have a good conversation
Do you guys remember a time when oldgays used to call out newbies and had some sort of esteem towards being an "original" Cinemaphile user who had been here longer?
Then as time went on, the people that made it, left this site and fewer and fewer young people joined. So the majority of what is left is the people who were doomed. The people who are in the same situation they were in over a decade ago.
Being an oldgay is akin to just being doomed now. I've been posting on this site for well over 10 years having never entered a real relationship or felt like my life is going in a direction I'm happy with during that time. And it looks like my course is set to make this exact same post another decade from now.
ive been posting since '05. married with kids, no debt, Cinemaphile, paid off house, tall, and have a degree. why do you think only wizards would post and why do you think people would stop posting? www.Cinemaphile.org is more normie than ever right now. hell thats why they even did the site split
>married with kids, no debt, Cinemaphile, paid off house, tall, and have a degree.
and you're also mrna vaccinated and your kids are also so all of that work was for nothing
nope ;^)
my wife took one for her job despite my protests and calling her moronic though but it was a jank chink or russian one, not the israelite juice mrna ones
I've been here 13 years and I'm pretty much a normie now.
Pretty much because anywhere else is unbearable.
As for you anon it's never too late, getting your shit together to an acceptable state isn't rocket science.
a) build your discipline by keeping your place clean, and yourself too
b) apply for jobs
c) earn money to enroll and pay for higher education
d) learn how to be social and hide your truly disgusting parts of yourself
I got a job and a fiance, plus my own place.
Don't kid yourself about making it means leaving.
All these years, and I just now realized getting called newbie was a warning more than insult.
You're here forever.
I have been posting here since ~2006-07. I certainly fit the stereotype of an obese dork nerd at that time, but in the years since lost weight, gained muscle, became a womanizer and a mild alcoholic, and overall life of the party before settling down. Many of the horror stories back in 2010-2011 motivated me to become somewhat of a “secret nerd.” I remember how proud I felt when I brought a girl home one night and she saw a Gundam model I had, and said she never thought I looked like I was into Transformers.
The only thing that unifies us is our anonymity. We will never know one another deeply, and that is for the better
is the seaman posting from the ocean right now?
No, I only work 6 months a year. I'm a NEET for 1 more month before I sail again
did you go to merchant marine school? what experience did you need before working on a ship?
You don't need any job experience. You just need to pass a medical (you're disqualified by a bunch of mental diagnosis' so if you're a true disabled NEET collectinf NEETbux then you're out of luck) a passport, and something called a TWIC which you can get on your own before you get the job. Basically get your medical, passport, and TWIC on your own out of pocket and then you can go apply and get hired. I did 1 job like that to make sure I could handle it, then I went to a marine school for the proper apprenticeship after I had already worked one hitch and new I liked the job. The union I joined paid for the school so it cost me nothing and its a paid apprenticeship so you're making money during school. Definitely worth it but I recommend doing at least one job before committing to school to make sure you can handle the life
oh damn so you do need school? i have a degree and was in the navy but im in my mid 30s and feel like im too old for them to want to hire me. i also live near the sea and large ports
You don't "need" the school, like I said I worked my first hitch before I went, but it's absolutely worth it and almost doubles how much money you can make right off the bat. It's also a paid apprenticeship so you're making money while doing it. They send you off to work on ships multiple times before you finish so calling it "school" doesn't even feel right. If you were in the navy then I'm sure you can skip a bunch of steps or fast track them because any time I applied for anything or filled out any form there was also special options and forms for people who were from the navy, but I never looked into it because it didn't apply to me so I couldn't give you specifics.
And for the record the industry is old as frick, absolutely filled with geezers, so don't let your age stop you. Mid 30s and you'll still be one of the youngest guys on the ship lol
alright thanks. ill check it out. im going to be moving soon and having to restart some line of work and doing something like this may be perfect
while i love the solitude to read and work out on a ship im actually married with kids so ill have to decide if its worth it and how they would handle it. dont want to miss anything but i feel like its less of an issue now since you can just video chat literally every day
A family would definitely make it harder, but another thing to keep in mind is that (assuming you're american or canadian) you can work on the great lakes instead of the ocean which are much shorter contracts. You're only gone for 6 weeks at a time on the lakes instead of 2-3 months at a time on the ocean, the downside being I heard it's much more difficult work. Also keep in mind it's not required to live anywhere near the port where you work, I live in the middle of the canadian prairies and just fly to port when it's time
we should become a RAPE HORDE bros
i mean just think about it, 30% of americans are incels, who could stop us?
RAPE HORDE
you son of a b***h, im in
I honestly support it, and if I were emperor, I would assign a israeliteess slave girl to every unmarried man over 27. you only get one though, so you have to make it work.
I don't want to hurt anybody anon, I just want to meet a nice girl who loves me.
I actually fantasize a lot about having a depressed, lonely gf so we can make each other happy, but then it makes me feel bad. Not that that would happen in the first place.
I wasn't with you until that third line. Really hammered it in, repeating it
A man of principle, I can respect that.
>meaninglessness
at least someone is posting movies and not just making it LULZ
are you a teen? give it few months and it will pass, and enjoy still being able to feel somethin
and yes and its not even the worst that could (and will) happen
I'm 30 but considering I spent the last 10 years without any friends and staying at home most of the time I guess I am life experience wise
I wonder if it's also a bizarre coping mechanism. By having this unattainable crush I can ignore attractive women I see and not be like the guys here who lust over every social media girl people post here and go BR2049 "goddammit" scene every time they see an attractive women irl. I also feel no envy towards guys with hot girlfriends or who get laid a lot. In some highly abstract nonsensical way, deep inside, I feel some kind of pride for having "good taste" and "not settling" even if it means being alone. Some part of me doesn't even want this infatuation to be over because I feel like she is objectively perfect and getting an actual gf in my league would be like taking the "blue pill". It's very odd. The brain is a strange thing.
Maybe I should go to therapy for this but I would feel embarassed talking about this IRL. Also what is the therapist going to do besides say "you need to get laid bro".
I really wanted to like that movie but none of the characters were likeable to me. Somehow Royal Tenenbaum had charm and was funny. Paltrow was such a cutie in that movie too, I am a sucker for those types. Both of his sons were sympathetic characters, hell even the guy cucking him was more likeable. Darjeeling had no charm and I hate that I wasted my time on that pretentious bullshit. At least Rushmore still exists.
I'm unironically feeling miserable because I developed a celeb crush out of nowhere. I was just starting to come to terms with my loser life, being fine being foreveralone and finding joy in the small things like watching a good movie or eating out but now I feel this burning sensation of loneliness. Looking at her fills me first with joy and then this heavy feeling knowing she is forever out of reach and I'm like a lower species in comparison. When I see other attractive women I feel nothing.
Is this just my brain misfiring from prolonged solitude? Is this feeling of love just an illusion and I should just go outside and meet people and then this silly infatuation will disappear?
>Is this just my brain misfiring from prolonged solitude?
Yes.
You're rational mind will try to understand it, but it's just kind of a chemical stew, we're not supposed to be exposed to these propagandistic/pornographic images of attractive women all the time. Honestly it's not the women's fault, they don't know what they're doing, they just get money from looking pretty. But for men to not become simps, It's better to be near an actual "normal" woman and get to know them as people rather than live in a fantasy world where nothing could possibly happen because of the remoteness of the desired partner.
I know the feeling. For me it doesn't come from a "I'm a lower species, I'm worthless" place though. Doesn't just with celebrities either, but characters from vidya, VNs, movies, etc. It comes and goes but I find it strangely addictive in a way. Maybe in time you'll feel the same.
It could be worse, you could have developed an unhealthy (actually kind of deranged, frankly) obsession with a fricking twitter artist's OC like me.
>I'm turning 26 in about 3 weeks
This thread really fuels my camera anxiety. It literally ruins my day when a family member snaps a candid photo of me and then shows it or sends it to the family group chat, and I cringe just seeing how fricking weird I look. It's the exact same as these guys with that depressed face looking down at their cake. It's unkempt, it's unbecoming, it's awkward, it's worse than "neutral".
Hahahahaha
frick
I just realized the thread is on page 10
oh n
If you have money, move to a border city in Texas or California. Meet a woman in Tijuana or some other border Mexican coty. Easiest path to meeting a traditional girl that is close enough to home that having a normalized lifestyle is obtainable. There are still vain women, as that’s quite difficult to avoid, but there are several beautiful women which still recognize man as being man and woman as woman.