I remember having and instant and cynical reaction to Yoda using a lightsaber at age 10, but I was also depressed and suicidal after my mom tried to kill me at age 4
Cope, peabrain. your psychological blanket is regressive
2 years ago
Anonymous
What do you believe in?
2 years ago
Anonymous
I believe in a lot of things, and something being the creator of the universe isn't one of them, because I'm not fricking moronic
Image a kid asking you 'well what do you believe in" when you tell him santa isn't real.
Why do you feel compelled to believe in any god in the first place?
this
>everyone who isn't a braindead theist like me is just a white liberal narcissist
2 years ago
Anonymous
So you don't really believe in anything.
2 years ago
Anonymous
I just fricking said I believe in things. I asked you something and you ignored it. Ignoring what people say and repeating yourself while willying engaging in the conversation makes you look like a dishonest piece of shit moron
You thinking you need to believe in something like a god is a huge problem. You are extremely regressive
2 years ago
Anonymous
willingly*
2 years ago
Anonymous
willingly*
Nta but you sound like a gigantic homosexual regardless of whatever the frick you believe in.
Instead of sniffing your own farts on the stranger reciclyng bin why don't you try reading the Church fathers like Crhysostom and Aquinas?
You are clearly so fricking smart and non regressive that I'm sure you would not only understand it all but epicly shit all over it because all the physlosophy and intellectuality you don't like is evidently beneath you.
I've always been cynical, I remember scoring a winning touchdown as a kid and then when everyone was praising me all I could think was "why do you people like me now where were you before" and getting depressed.
I still enjoy things though, I like movies and traveling and prostitutes so I'm not completely out of it and don't think I ever will be.
she obviously didn't "try to kill" you, melodramatic homosexual. anyone trying to kill a 4 year old would obviously succeed, even if she was in a wheelchair.
>I remember having and instant and cynical reaction to Yoda using a lightsaber at age 10
I was a little older but had a similar reaction. >bouncing CGI frog fights Christopher Lee
oof
There is no good or evil. There is only what is. Human female sexuality developed because the alternative was veganal tearing, infection, and death. The transgender movement has its roots in male prison populations, where the choice was to get beaten into submission and anally raped, or to just submit, get protected, and maybe even get lube.
It wasn’t. It was always here. Matter can neither be created nor destroyed. “God” is just adding an extra unnecessary layer to this.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Once in a lifetime reaction.
Dishonest
2 years ago
Anonymous
moronic.
One is describing abiogenesis. The other is describing the universe.
2 years ago
Anonymous
I don't think you understood my point
2 years ago
Anonymous
I don’t think you understood your point.
2 years ago
Anonymous
lol
2 years ago
Anonymous
So what. Matter can remain constant while also believing the Big Bang theory. Ah, but that would too closely corroborate Genesis, so you can't believe that, can you?
>once in a lifetime reaction
Then how come it supposedly only happened once, billions of years ago and never again? Lot of lifetimes in a billion years
2 years ago
Anonymous
Sorry but the universe didn't exist before I was born, and it certainly won't after I die. I made sure of that.
hard pill to swallow. but i doubt most people even know how evil this world is and are just ignorant so they are able to persevere without mental hardship.
truth. About a month ago I resolved to break my doomscrolling cycle. None of that obsessive news and comment browsing anymore. I go to the library once a week to read a respectable un-opinionated weekly newspaper to keep myself informed on matters that might impact my life personally. Frick anything and everything I can't control, it is of no consequence to me and mine.
Ignorance really is bliss and if that offends you think about how much control you really exert over the world at large with your endless engagement with the algorithms. In the end you can only lose your positive outlook on things and win nothing.
>Pessimism is weakness. It takes a powerful soul to look at all the evil in the world and create good.
Your two sentences are unrelated.
An optimist thinks "everything is good" so they have no reason to create anything good. Only those who identify a lack of goodness are motivated to create it.
Acid ruined me too. I was captain of my wrestling team tons of friends and a cute gf just stop talking to anybody and became a anti social autist for some reason after doing 600mcg and freaking out.
The first time I took acid. And it never went back.
Don’t worry, it happens to everyone who takes acid, some people just hide it better than others.
That’s literally what it does, it’s THE effect of the drug, it’s not “something some people just can’t handle,” some people are just stupid and don’t have the ability to put into words the way it feels, and plus it scares people and they lie to pretend it didn’t happen, to protect the EGO, or what’s left of it
I just want to add that it’s not a bad thing, either, but as usual, we can make it that way by choosing not to let go and holding onto something that was never real in the first place. It’s a delusion destroyer, and it works by inducing a delusion.
Its particularly damaging to teenagers, during a heavy trip I convinced myself I dont need anybody and I can make it on my own. Whatever you conceive on that trip has a strong lasting effect on your psyche, I convinced myself i didnt need anybody shut myself off, years later I'm realizing I fricked myself and the years of social isolation in my developmental years might have completely ruined me.
I did acid and isolated myself for years just because I was so stressed figuring stuff out maybe you shouldn't blame yourself for deciding to do something you might well have done anyway.
I remember seeing the movie KRULL during my trip and the idea of the Cyclopses who can see their death really stuck with me. And for some reason I was weird about evil looking eyes for a while after that.
>if you don’t do drugs it’s cuz you’re not cool
have a nice day druggie. Drugs are lame af and making them your entire identity is pathetic
2 years ago
Anonymous
Yup, I was right, it’s the second one.
I never said that, by the way, just that there’s no way you have the connections to get LSD. And I was right, look at you, you’re miserable, who’d want to hook you up?
2 years ago
Anonymous
NTA but you sound like a homosexual.
No wonder some people do jenkem,it'd mean not dealing with pretentious self important gays like you. I'm not into drugs so i'm not hamstrung into choosing between smelling shit methane gas and hear some pot brained moron spout gay esoteric drivel so i can get some wario smiley face pill.
2 years ago
Anonymous
And you sound like a pathetic fricking loser who projects his homosexuality onto others. Being open and honest attracts the outrage of low lives such as yourself, after all.
not him but idk what you're talking about, ive taken acid twice and never experienced ego death or a desire to isolate myself, maybe you're just mentally ill hmm?
2 years ago
Anonymous
you said it yourself, “ego death.” There’s a name for the phenomenon because it’s a real thing people experience on these drugs.
Also, “acid” at this point could be any number of different chemicals. So unless someone specifically says “I’ve done LSD” I assume they haven’t
2 years ago
Anonymous
LSD is one of the few drugs you can be confident is real because it's very cheap and easy to make en mass, idk what its like in your country but in mine acid = LSD always. Secondly, you claimed here
[...]
Don’t worry, it happens to everyone who takes acid, some people just hide it better than others.
That’s literally what it does, it’s THE effect of the drug, it’s not “something some people just can’t handle,” some people are just stupid and don’t have the ability to put into words the way it feels, and plus it scares people and they lie to pretend it didn’t happen, to protect the EGO, or what’s left of it
that EVERYONE experiences ego death from acid just some people hide it better. That is absurd. Sorry you had a bad trip bro but not everyone is as weakmind as you
2 years ago
Anonymous
We’re on Cinemaphile, I’m sorry for not composing my thoughts 100% clearly on the subject, but I guess I should clarify that in addition to someone saying “I’ve done LSD”, if someone is also able to describe the experience of being on LSD, then I will also assume that by “acid” they do in fact have experience with LSD.
As for this whole “weak minded” thing, it just strikes me as projection.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Also, I don’t understand this insistence that I had a bad trip that you keep coming back to. Sounds like more projection. I love acid.
Also, you obviously don’t know what ego death is, so you likely fall into the categories I described of people either being too ill equipped mentally to understand their own thoughts or else you’re a coward, and judging by your insults and the weird debate bro thing you’re pulling, I think you’re just a coward.
Best analogy I can give you is the ego is like a Phoenix. The things we associate and call ourselves, aren’t. The things we spend time doing, our enjoyment of those things, our families, NOTHING. There is nothing you can point to, there is no you. This is why you see the other anons talk about how they changed their entire lives after LSD. A “new” ego emerged from the ashes of the old, just as fragile and built on nothing as the one before. But when you gain the ability to step outside of that cycle of constantly reinventing yourself, like when you’re under the influence of LSD and certain analogues, THAT’S ego death. And no, you don’t need psychedelics to come to that realization. I knew it since I was a child
didn't read lmao
2 years ago
Anonymous
There’s that weasely little ego again.
We both know you did.
2 years ago
Anonymous
i did but you said so much moronic nonsense i'd have to hit the word limit replying seriously. gave me a laugh tho cheers cobba
2 years ago
Anonymous
So you’re a liar? Got it. >Cobba
Holy shit I was right, you’ve NEVER done LSD. Lmao no wonder you got all defensive. Enjoy your analogues bro, sudden cardiac death sounds like a bad time but you do you.
2 years ago
Anonymous
Also, I don’t understand this insistence that I had a bad trip that you keep coming back to. Sounds like more projection. I love acid.
Also, you obviously don’t know what ego death is, so you likely fall into the categories I described of people either being too ill equipped mentally to understand their own thoughts or else you’re a coward, and judging by your insults and the weird debate bro thing you’re pulling, I think you’re just a coward.
Best analogy I can give you is the ego is like a Phoenix. The things we associate and call ourselves, aren’t. The things we spend time doing, our enjoyment of those things, our families, NOTHING. There is nothing you can point to, there is no you. This is why you see the other anons talk about how they changed their entire lives after LSD. A “new” ego emerged from the ashes of the old, just as fragile and built on nothing as the one before. But when you gain the ability to step outside of that cycle of constantly reinventing yourself, like when you’re under the influence of LSD and certain analogues, THAT’S ego death. And no, you don’t need psychedelics to come to that realization. I knew it since I was a child
2 years ago
Anonymous
>LSD is one of the few drugs you can be confident is real
One of the dumbest things I’ve ever read. No, you can’t be certain that the piece of paper you bought had LSD dropped onto it. That’s why testing kits are so common, given the widespread usage of analogues.
2 years ago
Anonymous
except LSD analogues are labelled and sold as such to LSD users wanting to try different highs. ask any dealer and they'll tell you LSD is cheap as frick, easy to make and distribute and not in particularly high demand. shit's not cocaine, there's no incentive to cut it
2 years ago
Anonymous
>except LSD analogues are labelled and sold as such to LSD users wanting to try different highs.
Serious question, are you moronic?
No incentive to sell 25-I as LSD so you can charge more?
Your “dealers” don’t know FUUUCK all about making LSD, dumbass, they’re trying to get your money.
2 years ago
Anonymous
trying to get my money is telling me i should buy a bag of cocaine and a few caps instead a tab sheet for $50. what kind of dealer goes to the trouble of sourcing deadly analogues to save a buck when 99% of their market is weed and caps? everyone else just picks shrooms for an acid-like trip so you're left with an awfully low clientele base to rip off
[...]
So you’re a liar? Got it. >Cobba
Holy shit I was right, you’ve NEVER done LSD. Lmao no wonder you got all defensive. Enjoy your analogues bro, sudden cardiac death sounds like a bad time but you do you.
another swing and a miss on your quest to paint a picture in your head of who you think i am lmao, you're way overinvested in me buddy, just admit not everyone wants to kill themselves after dropping acid and we can move on 🙂
2 years ago
Anonymous
“Trying to get my money”
Dude, you’re Australian.
“Trying to get my money” is selling whatever you can. That’s what dealers do. Why are Australians always this stupid?
2 years ago
Anonymous
Selling cocaine is how you get killed/robbed, not rich.
Screwing people over without them knowing for certain is much more lucrative, hence why your dealers lied to you and sold you research chems and told you it was lsd lmao
it's weird at the beginning of the trip every time, but by the end it's fricking GOATed. my mate and i watched both grown-ups movies after we were about 3 hours in and it was the best shit in the world. sounds like you just don't gel well with acid.
I've done it twice and i didn't have a good time either time. Just felt weird the whole time. And at some point my brain just starts spouting off gibberish like im speaking in tongues in my head and I can't sleep.
If you think about the things that make it weird at the beginning/peak of the trips intensity, you may resonate more with my comment, but maybe not because not everyone is in the same place mentally going in. Some people already have things figured out about their personhood and self identity and others don’t, and for some people it’s just not that important and so they don’t worry about it as much. But I’ve seen people on high doses lose the ability to speak about themselves. I? Me? It’s like a calculator that just keeps reading ERROR. Because they’ve lost their sense of grounding and sense of self, hence the term ego death. but the ego never truly dies in my opinion, Ia survival mechanism.
There’s also like what, a million different chemicals that are all sold on blotters called “acid” at this point. It’s hard to know who you’ve had the same drug as. Real LSD is not easy to find, and often when you do get LSD, it’s not just LSD, but LSD and some analogue added to stretch the dealer/manufacturers supply.
Interesting to hear you say that. Why is it so popular then?
Being hyped up to the point of it being a part of the pop culture, and add to that just a general lack of public knowledge of exactly what it is like to be under the influence of a strong hallucinogen
Acid ruined me too. I was captain of my wrestling team tons of friends and a cute gf just stop talking to anybody and became a anti social autist for some reason after doing 600mcg and freaking out.
[...]
Don’t worry, it happens to everyone who takes acid, some people just hide it better than others.
That’s literally what it does, it’s THE effect of the drug, it’s not “something some people just can’t handle,” some people are just stupid and don’t have the ability to put into words the way it feels, and plus it scares people and they lie to pretend it didn’t happen, to protect the EGO, or what’s left of it
DMT had the opposite effect on me, it snapped me out of my living torpor and caused me to make major changes in my life for the better.
not saying other people aren't important, just that too many put far too much stock in others. if someone could just "make" you be happy there would never be divorces, etc.
what someone else does is give you the opportunity to change/become happier. but they have to be met halfway. it's like someone giving you seeds. it's up to you if you decide to plant and nuture those seeds. too many people are down on themselves and rely on others to make them feel good. and I find that kind of shitty, how others put themselves down like that and don't have enough confidence in themselves.
I am? seemed pretty well reasoned to me. if you don't want to discuss things and merely come here for everyone to agree with you like a hugbox then I guess, uh, go frick yourself.?
Fun fact: only way to NOT lose this high is to leave Cinemaphile. You really need to find reddit/youtube communities that fill the role that Cinemaphile fills >t. divorced
Since I was 15 I've been thinking that nothing has any inherent meaning.
I just try to keep myself busy, have fun, and have as little worries and responsibilities as possible.
When I watched this episode as a teenager and made it part of my personality because I have no personality of my own and every joke I make, opinion I hold, came from someone else.
I turn 30 this year and it just hit me hard, over the last few years I've been finding myself less and less interested in films and TV show but still finding the odd new thing I enjoy but this year everything just seems so uninteresting. I just can't bring myself to watch anything at the moment, maybe it's time to start reading or working out or something
I think it's time I stop using the Internet, politics has consumed every single inch of the Internet, you can't talk about a single topic without someone going insane and turning it political and honestly I'm just sick of it. Time to spend my days reading books and watching old sitcoms on loop
I'm generally reserved and not very intelligent but I primarily enjoy mainstream films, games, music, books, etc. There's a lot of crap, but a lot I like
i thought it happened, turns out its just the current era that's trash. Old films, the western canon of literature, games before they went to shit, mma before it went to shit, etc. We're in the start of our civilizational winter, and the past is more important than ever. The western canon is the most important thing we have still, and I'd suggest reading it bros. At first it won't seem any different than every other piece of media you interact with but at a certain point it'll click.
Reading is actually quite popular in right wing circles, the left however enjoys dodging discussion by shouting at you to read books by random authors you've never heard of. I have had this exact scenario happen half a dozen times in an attempt to shut down discussion and every single time leftists refuse to actually explain their position or summarize the argument the book they're shouting at you to read is making so you can engage with it.
>fitzgerald
my man!
leftists are generally dishonest because they use reading, language and philosophy as means to an end rather than ends unto themselves, less interested in understanding and more interested in outcomes, always full of contradictory assertions. the "good times weak men" heuristic is falsifiable and easy to follow, leftists love to attack those, but ask them to provide one of their own and they dodge the question
anyway anons should never lose sight of the things they love, whatever they are. the trimming away of old interests as we age can feel melancholy when we notice it yes, but it should help bring into stark relief those things which are most important to you
High school. Developed severe anxiety issues to the point where it was hard to function. Got out of it briefly in my early 20's when I started dating a girl I was madly in love with.
Fell back into the shit when that relationship imploded and the reality of how fricked I am really set in. Began depending heavily on alcohol for most social events. I'll be 30 in a year and things aren't getting are getting worse and worse.
>Began depending heavily on alcohol for most social events.
I'm trying to be social at work but not even the alcohol is doing anything. I can be a fun guy but I can't connect to these people at all, not sure if it's just because I'm not allowing myself to open up or because these people just aren't my type of people. Fricking hell I had more interesting conversations with the spiders I found outside than I had with people. I hate being so fricking autistic, I'm lonely as frick.
I've had a similar path. I topedoed a relationship with a sweet, thoughtful girl because I was convinced that I was bad for her and couldn't see a way through to improving. There was always this overwhelming feeling of futility, like the relationship couldn't last and I could never really fully commit because of it, I was always waiting for the other shoe to drop. Eventually I ended it myself because I was convinced it was the "right" thing to do and I've regretted it ever since. That was 9 years ago now.
Also, lots of anons in their late 20s early 30s in this thread.
Whenever South Park started having cope episodes like this >DUDE YOU ARE JUST CYNICAL, LMFAO CARTMAN BURGER IS HILARIOUS >DUDE MEMBER WHEN CARTMAN HAD A THEME PARK?!? DUDE YOU JUST WANT THE SAME OLD STORIES OVER AND OVER! RANDY SELLING WEED IS HILARIOUS!
I went from being depressed in my teens, social in my 20s, and now just bored with most people. I find myself wanting to stay home more and more and work on my hobbies when before I was so dedicated to making good connections and the ideal girlfriend. I think I've come to terms with the fact that I won't find the right partner and would rather make myself happy on my own. I even started writing a story based on my life where things turn out the way I always wanted them to. As sad as that might sound, I've been having a lot of fun writing such a positive story rather than going out on the weekends talking to drug addicted nobodies.
I know, I just read the posts in this thread and was interested in adding my two cents. I was just trying to keep the thread's momentum going, maybe talk things out with like minded people.
Based anon, you took the final redpill to a better life. Realising friends and women are a waste of time and you should instead spend your time making yourself happy, I spend all my free time just doing the things I want a it's great no having to deal with other people's bullshit
It's good to hear someone feels the same way. It's surprisingly hard to find IRL, most people I talk to seem misguided.
I think I realized that my dream of finding the right partner was only ever an adolescent fantasy. I had this whole plan worked out down to the smallest details. Problem was, I never found the girl. She doesn't exist. I found myself asking, "Why bother working myself to the bone for the rest of my life if I can't have what I want? What's in it for me?" Now I've been falling back to keeping to myself like I did in my teens. It's simply more fun and fulfilling. And at least writing my own stories allows me to live out the original dream in a way, since real life refuses to give it to me despite my best efforts.
You shouldn't be living just to find someone else anyway. It's more important to live and be happy, then things will fall into place when you're ready instead of forcing it.
It sounds nerdy and it frankly is, I've had many moments where I thought I can't believe people put up with X or whatever,
but unironically none has been more of an unending depression than what happened with WoW.
It started off as this new social universe which seemed richer even than life at the time and then slowly became more about raiding and gearscore, and less about the worldbuilding, then expansions came and by WOTLK it was mostly just a butchered e-sport and spiralled out of control.
I thought about what could have been, how it could have become more social and developed in that regard, but in the end all it ended up as was a buttonmashing cash shop.
Whenever I think of WoW and its downfall I think about the inevitable trajectory of mankind towards being just that, some bugman cash shop.
Idk that gets me
Blizzard was never good. Maybe that's the problem. You could have literally experienced that "new world" feeling with any online game but for you it happened to be one of the most addictive pointless games ever made by a company that at one point was fricking owned by Activision.
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I don't think everything is shit, but I have difficulty liking newer things. I keep looking to older media for things to enjoy. If I try to listen to or watch new stuff I end up getting irritated and shutting it off. And by new stuff I mean stuff produced these days. I am discovering and enjoying music, movies, books, and tv shows that were made earlier. I guess if I were to put a time frame on it I would say sometime after Obama took office and before Trump left. Somewhere in that 12 year period something happened. TV, books, music, movies. It's all shit after some point that occurred somewhere in there. Or if I like something contemporary initially, I'm not allowed to like it for very long because anything that persists to get sequels it inevitably ends up going to shit after the first season. I just don't know.
hasnt. i guess you could say recently as every mainstream tv/movie/video game is literal shit but i syill find gokd movies/games i missed from pre 2015 so its not me
started at 21, manifested completely at 26. Manifest meaning once you realize everything is shit and are aware of how your perspective has shifted, and how hilarious this process is. Life ultimately becomes a little easier ironically.
Not sure if this makes sense but hopefully to some of you it does. You see this clown world for what it truly is, an absurd, infinite loop of memes, cultures, and trends.
When I started working and studying at the same time. It's not that I don't have any energy left when I come back home; it's just that I don't feel all of this is worth the little time I have any more. I know it's Cinemaphile but this has affected more my enthusiasm while playing videogames, especially single player experiences. VERY few games and series are worth it now
When I started browsing this shithole.
For a while everything from outside here seemed like absolute shit, then I realized everything in here is also absolute shit.
4th grade
I remember having and instant and cynical reaction to Yoda using a lightsaber at age 10, but I was also depressed and suicidal after my mom tried to kill me at age 4
too bad she didn't finish the job
who was paying her?
Lotta loyalty for a tired mom
amazing
*upvotes*
If he was a woman and this was irl you would be pissing yourself to comfort him
No we wouldn't comfort you even if you were female
correction: If he was a woman and this was irl, I would be pissing inside of her
get over it
Oh my god, shut up. Your such a baby. There are people who had it way worse than you, mr. I am the center of the universe.
Like me. Women are not jumping on my wiener, I bet you've never felt true sadness like that.
The center of the universe is everywhere
>traveling through space is like going back in time
Spacetime is a thing, yes.
Everyone travels at 1 second per second.
>the universe is infinite
>this disproves any and all spirituality
NOOOO THERE HAS TO BE A CREATOR OTHERWISE WHERE DID WE COME FROM? I AM 5 YEARS OLD, GOD CREATED US. JESUS LOVES ME
>GOD CREATED US. JESUS LOVES ME
Unironically yes
Cope, peabrain. your psychological blanket is regressive
What do you believe in?
I believe in a lot of things, and something being the creator of the universe isn't one of them, because I'm not fricking moronic
Image a kid asking you 'well what do you believe in" when you tell him santa isn't real.
Why do you feel compelled to believe in any god in the first place?
>everyone who isn't a braindead theist like me is just a white liberal narcissist
So you don't really believe in anything.
I just fricking said I believe in things. I asked you something and you ignored it. Ignoring what people say and repeating yourself while willying engaging in the conversation makes you look like a dishonest piece of shit moron
You thinking you need to believe in something like a god is a huge problem. You are extremely regressive
willingly*
Nta but you sound like a gigantic homosexual regardless of whatever the frick you believe in.
Instead of sniffing your own farts on the stranger reciclyng bin why don't you try reading the Church fathers like Crhysostom and Aquinas?
You are clearly so fricking smart and non regressive that I'm sure you would not only understand it all but epicly shit all over it because all the physlosophy and intellectuality you don't like is evidently beneath you.
You can suck it till you get disgusted
At least your legs and one of your arms weren't blown off
That's really fricked up, if that's true then I'm sorry that happened to you anon
I've always been cynical, I remember scoring a winning touchdown as a kid and then when everyone was praising me all I could think was "why do you people like me now where were you before" and getting depressed.
I still enjoy things though, I like movies and traveling and prostitutes so I'm not completely out of it and don't think I ever will be.
Wow you must be literally the most special person to have ever been born. Frick off dweeb
no she didn't if she actually did you would be dead. Kids are weak, adults are strong.
As is her right! her body her choice, Chud.
Your mother should have aborted you, loser.
she obviously didn't "try to kill" you, melodramatic homosexual. anyone trying to kill a 4 year old would obviously succeed, even if she was in a wheelchair.
>I remember having and instant and cynical reaction to Yoda using a lightsaber at age 10
I was a little older but had a similar reaction.
>bouncing CGI frog fights Christopher Lee
oof
that is the most reddit life story I ever heard I wont lie
edmund mcmillen made a game about your life at least
Do you post this in response to everything you ever see every single day?
>after my mom tried to kill me at age 4
she must really suck. who tries to kill a 4 year old and doesn't succeed?
8th grade
Baby Sneed?
Elaborate
That's literally a South Park plot. The one where Butter's dad is gay so his mom tries to kill Butters.
>can’t even kill a 4 year old
Women ugh, am I right lads!?
Browsed reddit
this, people downvoted my joke and everything just felt like shit after that
it gets worse every day
around 2005 so when i was 12 years old
Pessimism is weakness. It takes a powerful soul to look at all the evil in the world and create good.
>he says on Cinemaphile.org
That's the "looking at evil" part.
There is no good or evil. There is only what is. Human female sexuality developed because the alternative was veganal tearing, infection, and death. The transgender movement has its roots in male prison populations, where the choice was to get beaten into submission and anally raped, or to just submit, get protected, and maybe even get lube.
>There is no good or evil. There is only what is
lol
God isn’t real man.
Explain how the universe was created man.
It wasn’t. It was always here. Matter can neither be created nor destroyed. “God” is just adding an extra unnecessary layer to this.
Dishonest
moronic.
One is describing abiogenesis. The other is describing the universe.
I don't think you understood my point
I don’t think you understood your point.
lol
So what. Matter can remain constant while also believing the Big Bang theory. Ah, but that would too closely corroborate Genesis, so you can't believe that, can you?
Once in a lifetime reaction.
>once in a lifetime reaction
Then how come it supposedly only happened once, billions of years ago and never again? Lot of lifetimes in a billion years
Sorry but the universe didn't exist before I was born, and it certainly won't after I die. I made sure of that.
>Human female sexuality developed because the alternative was veganal tearing, infection, and death.
hot
It is truly the easy mode of life. Thomas Ligotti is a little b***h.
Cuck mindset
Raising my wife’s son to pwn the pessimists
An unironically powerful quote
I disagree with this, but I respect it.
hard pill to swallow. but i doubt most people even know how evil this world is and are just ignorant so they are able to persevere without mental hardship.
truth. About a month ago I resolved to break my doomscrolling cycle. None of that obsessive news and comment browsing anymore. I go to the library once a week to read a respectable un-opinionated weekly newspaper to keep myself informed on matters that might impact my life personally. Frick anything and everything I can't control, it is of no consequence to me and mine.
Ignorance really is bliss and if that offends you think about how much control you really exert over the world at large with your endless engagement with the algorithms. In the end you can only lose your positive outlook on things and win nothing.
unirojically based
Its weird admiring a point of view while at the same thinking its one only fools adopt
>Pessimism is weakness. It takes a powerful soul to look at all the evil in the world and create good.
Your two sentences are unrelated.
An optimist thinks "everything is good" so they have no reason to create anything good. Only those who identify a lack of goodness are motivated to create it.
>An optimist thinks "everything is good" so they have no reason to create anything good
lolwut
Never
Frick you pathetic losers
hard to tell. its not as sudden as the show makes it out to be more of a slow process
The first time I took acid. And it never went back.
Acid ruined me too. I was captain of my wrestling team tons of friends and a cute gf just stop talking to anybody and became a anti social autist for some reason after doing 600mcg and freaking out.
Don’t worry, it happens to everyone who takes acid, some people just hide it better than others.
That’s literally what it does, it’s THE effect of the drug, it’s not “something some people just can’t handle,” some people are just stupid and don’t have the ability to put into words the way it feels, and plus it scares people and they lie to pretend it didn’t happen, to protect the EGO, or what’s left of it
I just want to add that it’s not a bad thing, either, but as usual, we can make it that way by choosing not to let go and holding onto something that was never real in the first place. It’s a delusion destroyer, and it works by inducing a delusion.
Its particularly damaging to teenagers, during a heavy trip I convinced myself I dont need anybody and I can make it on my own. Whatever you conceive on that trip has a strong lasting effect on your psyche, I convinced myself i didnt need anybody shut myself off, years later I'm realizing I fricked myself and the years of social isolation in my developmental years might have completely ruined me.
I did acid and isolated myself for years just because I was so stressed figuring stuff out maybe you shouldn't blame yourself for deciding to do something you might well have done anyway.
I remember seeing the movie KRULL during my trip and the idea of the Cyclopses who can see their death really stuck with me. And for some reason I was weird about evil looking eyes for a while after that.
no it doesn't
god you psychedelic gays are insufferable
You’re either
1. Lying
2. Never took real acid
I’m betting it’s the second one because you aren’t popular and couldn’t find it.
>if you don’t do drugs it’s cuz you’re not cool
have a nice day druggie. Drugs are lame af and making them your entire identity is pathetic
Yup, I was right, it’s the second one.
I never said that, by the way, just that there’s no way you have the connections to get LSD. And I was right, look at you, you’re miserable, who’d want to hook you up?
NTA but you sound like a homosexual.
No wonder some people do jenkem,it'd mean not dealing with pretentious self important gays like you. I'm not into drugs so i'm not hamstrung into choosing between smelling shit methane gas and hear some pot brained moron spout gay esoteric drivel so i can get some wario smiley face pill.
And you sound like a pathetic fricking loser who projects his homosexuality onto others. Being open and honest attracts the outrage of low lives such as yourself, after all.
not him but idk what you're talking about, ive taken acid twice and never experienced ego death or a desire to isolate myself, maybe you're just mentally ill hmm?
you said it yourself, “ego death.” There’s a name for the phenomenon because it’s a real thing people experience on these drugs.
Also, “acid” at this point could be any number of different chemicals. So unless someone specifically says “I’ve done LSD” I assume they haven’t
LSD is one of the few drugs you can be confident is real because it's very cheap and easy to make en mass, idk what its like in your country but in mine acid = LSD always. Secondly, you claimed here
that EVERYONE experiences ego death from acid just some people hide it better. That is absurd. Sorry you had a bad trip bro but not everyone is as weakmind as you
We’re on Cinemaphile, I’m sorry for not composing my thoughts 100% clearly on the subject, but I guess I should clarify that in addition to someone saying “I’ve done LSD”, if someone is also able to describe the experience of being on LSD, then I will also assume that by “acid” they do in fact have experience with LSD.
As for this whole “weak minded” thing, it just strikes me as projection.
didn't read lmao
There’s that weasely little ego again.
We both know you did.
i did but you said so much moronic nonsense i'd have to hit the word limit replying seriously. gave me a laugh tho cheers cobba
So you’re a liar? Got it.
>Cobba
Holy shit I was right, you’ve NEVER done LSD. Lmao no wonder you got all defensive. Enjoy your analogues bro, sudden cardiac death sounds like a bad time but you do you.
Also, I don’t understand this insistence that I had a bad trip that you keep coming back to. Sounds like more projection. I love acid.
Also, you obviously don’t know what ego death is, so you likely fall into the categories I described of people either being too ill equipped mentally to understand their own thoughts or else you’re a coward, and judging by your insults and the weird debate bro thing you’re pulling, I think you’re just a coward.
Best analogy I can give you is the ego is like a Phoenix. The things we associate and call ourselves, aren’t. The things we spend time doing, our enjoyment of those things, our families, NOTHING. There is nothing you can point to, there is no you. This is why you see the other anons talk about how they changed their entire lives after LSD. A “new” ego emerged from the ashes of the old, just as fragile and built on nothing as the one before. But when you gain the ability to step outside of that cycle of constantly reinventing yourself, like when you’re under the influence of LSD and certain analogues, THAT’S ego death. And no, you don’t need psychedelics to come to that realization. I knew it since I was a child
>LSD is one of the few drugs you can be confident is real
One of the dumbest things I’ve ever read. No, you can’t be certain that the piece of paper you bought had LSD dropped onto it. That’s why testing kits are so common, given the widespread usage of analogues.
except LSD analogues are labelled and sold as such to LSD users wanting to try different highs. ask any dealer and they'll tell you LSD is cheap as frick, easy to make and distribute and not in particularly high demand. shit's not cocaine, there's no incentive to cut it
>except LSD analogues are labelled and sold as such to LSD users wanting to try different highs.
Serious question, are you moronic?
No incentive to sell 25-I as LSD so you can charge more?
Your “dealers” don’t know FUUUCK all about making LSD, dumbass, they’re trying to get your money.
trying to get my money is telling me i should buy a bag of cocaine and a few caps instead a tab sheet for $50. what kind of dealer goes to the trouble of sourcing deadly analogues to save a buck when 99% of their market is weed and caps? everyone else just picks shrooms for an acid-like trip so you're left with an awfully low clientele base to rip off
another swing and a miss on your quest to paint a picture in your head of who you think i am lmao, you're way overinvested in me buddy, just admit not everyone wants to kill themselves after dropping acid and we can move on 🙂
“Trying to get my money”
Dude, you’re Australian.
“Trying to get my money” is selling whatever you can. That’s what dealers do. Why are Australians always this stupid?
Selling cocaine is how you get killed/robbed, not rich.
Screwing people over without them knowing for certain is much more lucrative, hence why your dealers lied to you and sold you research chems and told you it was lsd lmao
Interesting to hear you say that. Why is it so popular then?
it's weird at the beginning of the trip every time, but by the end it's fricking GOATed. my mate and i watched both grown-ups movies after we were about 3 hours in and it was the best shit in the world. sounds like you just don't gel well with acid.
I've done it twice and i didn't have a good time either time. Just felt weird the whole time. And at some point my brain just starts spouting off gibberish like im speaking in tongues in my head and I can't sleep.
If you think about the things that make it weird at the beginning/peak of the trips intensity, you may resonate more with my comment, but maybe not because not everyone is in the same place mentally going in. Some people already have things figured out about their personhood and self identity and others don’t, and for some people it’s just not that important and so they don’t worry about it as much. But I’ve seen people on high doses lose the ability to speak about themselves. I? Me? It’s like a calculator that just keeps reading ERROR. Because they’ve lost their sense of grounding and sense of self, hence the term ego death. but the ego never truly dies in my opinion, Ia survival mechanism.
There’s also like what, a million different chemicals that are all sold on blotters called “acid” at this point. It’s hard to know who you’ve had the same drug as. Real LSD is not easy to find, and often when you do get LSD, it’s not just LSD, but LSD and some analogue added to stretch the dealer/manufacturers supply.
Being hyped up to the point of it being a part of the pop culture, and add to that just a general lack of public knowledge of exactly what it is like to be under the influence of a strong hallucinogen
It had the opposite effect on me. Damn near cured my autism and gave me a lot more empathy and positivity.
DMT had the opposite effect on me, it snapped me out of my living torpor and caused me to make major changes in my life for the better.
nothing happened to me after taking acid. i just went back to my usual autistic self
About the same time as this episode aired. I was just over 30 and going through my first divorce.
>getting married under 30
set yourself up there
17... ever since then my parents said its like a switch flipped in my brain to where I am always melancholy. I dont even know what triggered it.
it didnt because I'm not an old man inside a young body. I still take an active interest in everyday life and the people around me.
When what happened?
14. then I came around and am no longer a miserable twat. you'll grow out of it, sport.
I feel I've come to realize
How fast life can be compromised
Step back to see what's going on
I can't believe this happened to you
Exestentialism becomes bearable if you find and outlet for it, the only problem is motivating yourself to let it out productively.
Actually now at 32.
I'm almost 30 and it just un-happened to me a little while ago when I met this incredible girl. She's really great bros. I want this for all of you
>meets a girl
>turns life around
>still posts on Cinemaphile
Cinemaphile is literally full of cucks.
non-sequitur
Why wouldn't someone post on Cinemaphile if they have a good life?
Autism
I realized recently that I only post here at the lowest points in my life
>he posts on Cinemaphile when he's not eating
Congrats man
>meeting someone will change your life
so tired of hearing this shit.
it happens bro
not saying other people aren't important, just that too many put far too much stock in others. if someone could just "make" you be happy there would never be divorces, etc.
what someone else does is give you the opportunity to change/become happier. but they have to be met halfway. it's like someone giving you seeds. it's up to you if you decide to plant and nuture those seeds. too many people are down on themselves and rely on others to make them feel good. and I find that kind of shitty, how others put themselves down like that and don't have enough confidence in themselves.
dude just drink some whiskey and smoke a joint
relax dude
>relax
I am? seemed pretty well reasoned to me. if you don't want to discuss things and merely come here for everyone to agree with you like a hugbox then I guess, uh, go frick yourself.?
Hoping on this happening for me soon
>finally not fat after being fat 25 years
>still 1 year left in college
>grades are good, job after is a gurantee
>money is okay
Think I'm still depressed as frick but I will try to find a girl this year bros.
Just wait until the novelty wears out and you're left feeling like shit again.
Fun fact: only way to NOT lose this high is to leave Cinemaphile. You really need to find reddit/youtube communities that fill the role that Cinemaphile fills
>t. divorced
>putting pipi in meat hole will fix all my problems
You're for a rude awakening.
I'm 24 but same here. A supportive, kind, thoughtful and loving girl does wonders. I didn't know life was meant to have this much colour.
See you in 3 years.
Here’s to hoping.
Reality is going to hit you like a tonne of bricks and it'll re-happen in 1-3 years.
2006. Anyone who was born in the early 90s knows this shit is true.
You're so special mr. millenial. Tell me more, please..
What are your pronouns zoomer?
The day I was born.
Since I was 15 I've been thinking that nothing has any inherent meaning.
I just try to keep myself busy, have fun, and have as little worries and responsibilities as possible.
sounds like you're avoiding responsibility
When I watched this episode as a teenager and made it part of my personality because I have no personality of my own and every joke I make, opinion I hold, came from someone else.
I am the hermit crab man
2014
after the 50th time you posted this shit thread
2017
I turn 30 this year and it just hit me hard, over the last few years I've been finding myself less and less interested in films and TV show but still finding the odd new thing I enjoy but this year everything just seems so uninteresting. I just can't bring myself to watch anything at the moment, maybe it's time to start reading or working out or something
This year when I turned 36.
I don't play vidya, care about politics or have any interest in girls that aren't my grillfriend.
Oh and I spent 30% of my waking time keeping my lawn looking absolutely perfect.
*Sip*
thanks for reminding me. I need to mow the lawn.
I think it's time I stop using the Internet, politics has consumed every single inch of the Internet, you can't talk about a single topic without someone going insane and turning it political and honestly I'm just sick of it. Time to spend my days reading books and watching old sitcoms on loop
i've never been happy
Never did because I'm not a stuck up homosexual. I began to appreciate things more as I grew older because I was able to understand them better.
Used to like RLM. But now after their blatant shilling for Kenobi, I am straddling the edge here
I'm generally reserved and not very intelligent but I primarily enjoy mainstream films, games, music, books, etc. There's a lot of crap, but a lot I like
>Kane and Lynch 2
>worst of the decade
you fricking homosexual
Things were never good
2003? i was 16ish
Frick off grandpa
i thought it happened, turns out its just the current era that's trash. Old films, the western canon of literature, games before they went to shit, mma before it went to shit, etc. We're in the start of our civilizational winter, and the past is more important than ever. The western canon is the most important thing we have still, and I'd suggest reading it bros. At first it won't seem any different than every other piece of media you interact with but at a certain point it'll click.
You haven't read any of those and you never will. Reading is a left wing activity.
Pity they don't understand anything they read.
Reading is actually quite popular in right wing circles, the left however enjoys dodging discussion by shouting at you to read books by random authors you've never heard of. I have had this exact scenario happen half a dozen times in an attempt to shut down discussion and every single time leftists refuse to actually explain their position or summarize the argument the book they're shouting at you to read is making so you can engage with it.
>fitzgerald
my man!
leftists are generally dishonest because they use reading, language and philosophy as means to an end rather than ends unto themselves, less interested in understanding and more interested in outcomes, always full of contradictory assertions. the "good times weak men" heuristic is falsifiable and easy to follow, leftists love to attack those, but ask them to provide one of their own and they dodge the question
anyway anons should never lose sight of the things they love, whatever they are. the trimming away of old interests as we age can feel melancholy when we notice it yes, but it should help bring into stark relief those things which are most important to you
High school. Developed severe anxiety issues to the point where it was hard to function. Got out of it briefly in my early 20's when I started dating a girl I was madly in love with.
Fell back into the shit when that relationship imploded and the reality of how fricked I am really set in. Began depending heavily on alcohol for most social events. I'll be 30 in a year and things aren't getting are getting worse and worse.
*are getting. Fricking a
>Began depending heavily on alcohol for most social events.
I'm trying to be social at work but not even the alcohol is doing anything. I can be a fun guy but I can't connect to these people at all, not sure if it's just because I'm not allowing myself to open up or because these people just aren't my type of people. Fricking hell I had more interesting conversations with the spiders I found outside than I had with people. I hate being so fricking autistic, I'm lonely as frick.
I've had a similar path. I topedoed a relationship with a sweet, thoughtful girl because I was convinced that I was bad for her and couldn't see a way through to improving. There was always this overwhelming feeling of futility, like the relationship couldn't last and I could never really fully commit because of it, I was always waiting for the other shoe to drop. Eventually I ended it myself because I was convinced it was the "right" thing to do and I've regretted it ever since. That was 9 years ago now.
Also, lots of anons in their late 20s early 30s in this thread.
Whenever South Park started having cope episodes like this
>DUDE YOU ARE JUST CYNICAL, LMFAO CARTMAN BURGER IS HILARIOUS
>DUDE MEMBER WHEN CARTMAN HAD A THEME PARK?!? DUDE YOU JUST WANT THE SAME OLD STORIES OVER AND OVER! RANDY SELLING WEED IS HILARIOUS!
This literally never happens to anyone.
It just went gradually.
Around 6th grade.
It never happened because I'm not a whiny gay. If You can enjoy old stuff but now new stuff you aren't a cynical butthole, new stuff is just shit.
Never happened, i mean yeah there is some shit i dont like but there is also shit i like. I enjoy life
I went from being depressed in my teens, social in my 20s, and now just bored with most people. I find myself wanting to stay home more and more and work on my hobbies when before I was so dedicated to making good connections and the ideal girlfriend. I think I've come to terms with the fact that I won't find the right partner and would rather make myself happy on my own. I even started writing a story based on my life where things turn out the way I always wanted them to. As sad as that might sound, I've been having a lot of fun writing such a positive story rather than going out on the weekends talking to drug addicted nobodies.
Am I on a good path?
>asking Cinemaphile
my brother..
I know, I just read the posts in this thread and was interested in adding my two cents. I was just trying to keep the thread's momentum going, maybe talk things out with like minded people.
Based anon, you took the final redpill to a better life. Realising friends and women are a waste of time and you should instead spend your time making yourself happy, I spend all my free time just doing the things I want a it's great no having to deal with other people's bullshit
It's good to hear someone feels the same way. It's surprisingly hard to find IRL, most people I talk to seem misguided.
I think I realized that my dream of finding the right partner was only ever an adolescent fantasy. I had this whole plan worked out down to the smallest details. Problem was, I never found the girl. She doesn't exist. I found myself asking, "Why bother working myself to the bone for the rest of my life if I can't have what I want? What's in it for me?" Now I've been falling back to keeping to myself like I did in my teens. It's simply more fun and fulfilling. And at least writing my own stories allows me to live out the original dream in a way, since real life refuses to give it to me despite my best efforts.
You shouldn't be living just to find someone else anyway. It's more important to live and be happy, then things will fall into place when you're ready instead of forcing it.
It sounds nerdy and it frankly is, I've had many moments where I thought I can't believe people put up with X or whatever,
but unironically none has been more of an unending depression than what happened with WoW.
It started off as this new social universe which seemed richer even than life at the time and then slowly became more about raiding and gearscore, and less about the worldbuilding, then expansions came and by WOTLK it was mostly just a butchered e-sport and spiralled out of control.
I thought about what could have been, how it could have become more social and developed in that regard, but in the end all it ended up as was a buttonmashing cash shop.
Whenever I think of WoW and its downfall I think about the inevitable trajectory of mankind towards being just that, some bugman cash shop.
Idk that gets me
Blizzard was never good. Maybe that's the problem. You could have literally experienced that "new world" feeling with any online game but for you it happened to be one of the most addictive pointless games ever made by a company that at one point was fricking owned by Activision.
After my blonde english e-gf ghosted me. I've been chronically depressed ever since.
You needed this lesson. E gf is worse than being single
Reminder that it's that blackpill gay dbdr spamming these threads
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9/11/01
when i started coming here at 12 back in 2013
I don't think everything is shit, but I have difficulty liking newer things. I keep looking to older media for things to enjoy. If I try to listen to or watch new stuff I end up getting irritated and shutting it off. And by new stuff I mean stuff produced these days. I am discovering and enjoying music, movies, books, and tv shows that were made earlier. I guess if I were to put a time frame on it I would say sometime after Obama took office and before Trump left. Somewhere in that 12 year period something happened. TV, books, music, movies. It's all shit after some point that occurred somewhere in there. Or if I like something contemporary initially, I'm not allowed to like it for very long because anything that persists to get sequels it inevitably ends up going to shit after the first season. I just don't know.
hasnt. i guess you could say recently as every mainstream tv/movie/video game is literal shit but i syill find gokd movies/games i missed from pre 2015 so its not me
What's the reference? I stopped watching South Park after the High school musical episode around 2008.
Stan finds everything shit, like music sounds like farts to him and it's about growing up and being jaded
14 then went away at 17 then came back at 22 now 26 is madness and feces of all flavors
after I left the military
Take the reading pill, tv and films are a dead medium now
maybe like 25. im autistic though so I can still get really into something
started at 21, manifested completely at 26. Manifest meaning once you realize everything is shit and are aware of how your perspective has shifted, and how hilarious this process is. Life ultimately becomes a little easier ironically.
Not sure if this makes sense but hopefully to some of you it does. You see this clown world for what it truly is, an absurd, infinite loop of memes, cultures, and trends.
2007-2010, like most people.
When I started working and studying at the same time. It's not that I don't have any energy left when I come back home; it's just that I don't feel all of this is worth the little time I have any more. I know it's Cinemaphile but this has affected more my enthusiasm while playing videogames, especially single player experiences. VERY few games and series are worth it now
The moment I finish high school and got to uni.
When I read Human action
When Black person rap became what everyone listened to and every movie had to have homosexuals shit or blacks. So like 5 or 6 years ago I guess
When I started browsing this shithole.
For a while everything from outside here seemed like absolute shit, then I realized everything in here is also absolute shit.
what does this have to do with anything?