nope, not really. but i haven't really been "hanging in there" for the last 15 years so i'm kinda fricked now. it's Ls all the way down and i'm almost at the bottom
Tried to quit sugar, was impossible and instead ate less sugar with longer intervals, worked. Decided to try it out with alcohol, same results. I drink like once a month at average amount within the proper contexts like social situations. Had quit a lot of shameful experience with the family, didn't want them to see me like that. My brother who I look up to told me no one likes an alcoholic. Whatever your reason for drinking is, try to convert it into anger/hatred, and use that energy for something important. I drank because I couldn't accept my reality after a certain event, and now that I no longer care for consequences I can do things I couldn't do before. It's true what they say, you got to fill the void. Replace the bad or the good you've lost with something else.
>workout >socialize/clubs/team sports >hobbies, especially creative ones
anything that keeps you busy or turns into some kind of growth. if it's done with people it's even better. sooner or later, even alcohol wont give you the effect you want, and that's when something weird happens inside you; you either go insane or become so desperate you do things you never though you'd do. i despise "normies" but it turned out doing what they do helped immensely. for the first time ever i like to feel sunshine, i like to connect with people, i went from a twink nerd who skipped gym class into a gym enthusiast. the beginning is hard, and the discipline to keep going is too, but when it becomes routine and you look back knowing what shitty life you had, it keeps you going. i wasted my 10s and 20s, i wont waste my 30s, and there's nothing i hate more than the fact i didn't do anything sooner
>even alcohol wont give you the effect you want
What did you want from alcohol at first? I thought about it giving me the creative juice or killing time till I go to bed.
2 weeks ago
Anonymous
two years ago my fiance was a park worker, got run over and passed away. we were together for almost 11 years. when her father told me the news i tried to end myself minutes afterwards. my life has always been shit and i never wanted to live in the first place so she was the only reason i had to keep going, i simply lived for her sake. but her gone was a reality i couldn't accept so i drank from the moment i woke up for a year so i couldn't feel the pain as much. went to the ER for alcohol poisoning, and now i got alcoholic neuropathy. emptied my savings account on cheap vodka and could barely pay rent. i can now accept this reality, but i have to keep myself occupied with things that has some sort of meaning.
2 weeks ago
Anonymous
shit man, sorry to hear it. atleast you had a legitimate reason. hope it gets even a bit better.
Objectively? No. I’m fed, sheltered, there are people who love me. So why do I want to die? I just do, do I need a reason? I’m not happy, I’ve never been happy, not even as a kid. I had a fricking shit childhood and it’s permanently messed me up. I don’t know what happiness, joy or contentment feels like. There’s nothing to look forward to. I have no goals or ambition. I come home from work, eat, then sleep. Sleep is an escape from the boredom I feel. Bouts of anhedonia that are assuaged by nothing. Theres just nothing but the coming days.
You had a bad childhood? I have never met anyone that had a good one. Cut your parents some slack, as they most certainly had a shit childhood and had a self destructive little shit like you on top of that. Fricking whiners... shitting and jerking off in public is less stomach turning than whiners. It least there I could have some hope I would see something new.
his big target for laying blame is his shit childhood. You think it was a handsy pastor? I took it as being mommy and daddys fault.
2 weeks ago
Anonymous
You can say you had a bad childhood, and it can be because of your parents, without blaming them. My dad has OCD and didn't take his meds, for instance. Did he do a lot of fricked up shit to me? Yes. Have I forgiven him, and do I understand his mental illness? Yes. Are there still scars? Frick yeah.
Or your parents can just fricking die.
2 weeks ago
Anonymous
Yeah, thats where I am at. Mine are dead. When you do not have anyone around to physically hang your blame on you tend to take it on yourself and get over it. Some call that maturity.
2 weeks ago
Anonymous
Hanging everything on yourself is not necessarily healthy. Other people objectively fricked me up when I was a kid, besides just things I fricked up for myself. It would be extremely unhealthy for me to hang that all on myself. In fact I was a nervous wreck for years because I did exactly that.
Maturity for me is accepting that happened and forgiving those people instead of acting like everything would be okay if only I was perfect and stronger. Seems like you still have a lot of your own unresolved issues though, sorry about your parents anon.
2 weeks ago
Anonymous
Maturity isn't taking everything on yourself, it's taking what you should on yourself and accepting there are things people can't control. I understand you want to be able to control everything given your situation but you're just making things horrible for people around you and setting yourself up for more pain when anything else bad happens to you.
NTA but you've never met anyone with a good childhood because of an epidemic of bad parenting. Doesn't mean that this is how it should be. Also he never mentioned his parents.
Maybe human children by nature see shit that way out of self absorbed victimhood? It could just be that. Guy says he cannot even identify happiness.
2 weeks ago
Anonymous
I've seen happy children. I've met people who speak fondly about their childhood. Plenty of people have written fondly about childhood. I don't think that's how it naturally is. We're supposed to have at least one parent's love and attention for a number of years. No one has energy to raise kids like that anymore even if you have good intentions because you need a dual income household to survive and working conditions have gotten worse.
I am 49. I own my home and vehicles, work in a rewarding and self driven profession, and have never fricked a woman over 35. My health is good and I seem to only get smarter and stronger. Could be worse. I could be you, you poor c**t.
36 year old, recently quit job because I was miserable. Been almost a year, savings and investments are good so I'm doing fine, I can afford pretty much anything I want, but I no longer have a purpose. My pathetic soul crushing 60 hour a week job at least encouraged me to do something... now I just sit inside all day, sleep excessively (or dont sleep for days), watching tv and play video games. At most I leave the house once a week.
My sole enjoyment out of life right now is cooking dinner for myself. I usually crack a few beers, listen to music or podcasts and try out some recipes. I look forward to it pretty much all day. It's a pathetic existence and I'm not sure where to go from here.
I'm making a shitton of money at the time and moving up in my field. And not missing a single workout. Looking and feeling better than ever at 37. Late bloomer but I'm here to stay
Because most people are selfish like you. Affection on someone such as yourself is wasted. Video games are a fricking waste of time, I’d kill an entire family for someone who genuinely wants to be around me.
nope, not really. but i haven't really been "hanging in there" for the last 15 years so i'm kinda fricked now. it's Ls all the way down and i'm almost at the bottom
>finally get gf
>just want her to leave me alone so I can spend more time 3D modeling like when I was single
i beat my alcoholism, now to the next 999 problems
Thats already a huge accomplishment!
i replaced the booze with anger and hatred, and now i will use it for fitness purposes
>beat my alcoholism
how?
Tried to quit sugar, was impossible and instead ate less sugar with longer intervals, worked. Decided to try it out with alcohol, same results. I drink like once a month at average amount within the proper contexts like social situations. Had quit a lot of shameful experience with the family, didn't want them to see me like that. My brother who I look up to told me no one likes an alcoholic. Whatever your reason for drinking is, try to convert it into anger/hatred, and use that energy for something important. I drank because I couldn't accept my reality after a certain event, and now that I no longer care for consequences I can do things I couldn't do before. It's true what they say, you got to fill the void. Replace the bad or the good you've lost with something else.
>you got to fill the void
I tried to fill the boredom with alcohol.
>workout
>socialize/clubs/team sports
>hobbies, especially creative ones
anything that keeps you busy or turns into some kind of growth. if it's done with people it's even better. sooner or later, even alcohol wont give you the effect you want, and that's when something weird happens inside you; you either go insane or become so desperate you do things you never though you'd do. i despise "normies" but it turned out doing what they do helped immensely. for the first time ever i like to feel sunshine, i like to connect with people, i went from a twink nerd who skipped gym class into a gym enthusiast. the beginning is hard, and the discipline to keep going is too, but when it becomes routine and you look back knowing what shitty life you had, it keeps you going. i wasted my 10s and 20s, i wont waste my 30s, and there's nothing i hate more than the fact i didn't do anything sooner
>even alcohol wont give you the effect you want
What did you want from alcohol at first? I thought about it giving me the creative juice or killing time till I go to bed.
two years ago my fiance was a park worker, got run over and passed away. we were together for almost 11 years. when her father told me the news i tried to end myself minutes afterwards. my life has always been shit and i never wanted to live in the first place so she was the only reason i had to keep going, i simply lived for her sake. but her gone was a reality i couldn't accept so i drank from the moment i woke up for a year so i couldn't feel the pain as much. went to the ER for alcohol poisoning, and now i got alcoholic neuropathy. emptied my savings account on cheap vodka and could barely pay rent. i can now accept this reality, but i have to keep myself occupied with things that has some sort of meaning.
shit man, sorry to hear it. atleast you had a legitimate reason. hope it gets even a bit better.
Not really.
>nagato even seen by hairy slavs
she left me for a colombian
No I genuinely want to kill myself. I’m over 30.
really that bad?
Objectively? No. I’m fed, sheltered, there are people who love me. So why do I want to die? I just do, do I need a reason? I’m not happy, I’ve never been happy, not even as a kid. I had a fricking shit childhood and it’s permanently messed me up. I don’t know what happiness, joy or contentment feels like. There’s nothing to look forward to. I have no goals or ambition. I come home from work, eat, then sleep. Sleep is an escape from the boredom I feel. Bouts of anhedonia that are assuaged by nothing. Theres just nothing but the coming days.
You had a bad childhood? I have never met anyone that had a good one. Cut your parents some slack, as they most certainly had a shit childhood and had a self destructive little shit like you on top of that. Fricking whiners... shitting and jerking off in public is less stomach turning than whiners. It least there I could have some hope I would see something new.
where does he even blame his parents, you fricking weirdo?
his big target for laying blame is his shit childhood. You think it was a handsy pastor? I took it as being mommy and daddys fault.
You can say you had a bad childhood, and it can be because of your parents, without blaming them. My dad has OCD and didn't take his meds, for instance. Did he do a lot of fricked up shit to me? Yes. Have I forgiven him, and do I understand his mental illness? Yes. Are there still scars? Frick yeah.
Or your parents can just fricking die.
Yeah, thats where I am at. Mine are dead. When you do not have anyone around to physically hang your blame on you tend to take it on yourself and get over it. Some call that maturity.
Hanging everything on yourself is not necessarily healthy. Other people objectively fricked me up when I was a kid, besides just things I fricked up for myself. It would be extremely unhealthy for me to hang that all on myself. In fact I was a nervous wreck for years because I did exactly that.
Maturity for me is accepting that happened and forgiving those people instead of acting like everything would be okay if only I was perfect and stronger. Seems like you still have a lot of your own unresolved issues though, sorry about your parents anon.
Maturity isn't taking everything on yourself, it's taking what you should on yourself and accepting there are things people can't control. I understand you want to be able to control everything given your situation but you're just making things horrible for people around you and setting yourself up for more pain when anything else bad happens to you.
NTA but you've never met anyone with a good childhood because of an epidemic of bad parenting. Doesn't mean that this is how it should be. Also he never mentioned his parents.
Maybe human children by nature see shit that way out of self absorbed victimhood? It could just be that. Guy says he cannot even identify happiness.
I've seen happy children. I've met people who speak fondly about their childhood. Plenty of people have written fondly about childhood. I don't think that's how it naturally is. We're supposed to have at least one parent's love and attention for a number of years. No one has energy to raise kids like that anymore even if you have good intentions because you need a dual income household to survive and working conditions have gotten worse.
Thought the same since I turned 16. Now 35+ and two failed attempts. Just don't do it if you don't have a gun.
No. I fricked myself up beyond repair. I'm just not fit to look after myself, and now it's too late.
I took a month of work to go to japan. I'll see how it goes.
I have never left America and doubt I ever will. Don't really want to.
I am 49. I own my home and vehicles, work in a rewarding and self driven profession, and have never fricked a woman over 35. My health is good and I seem to only get smarter and stronger. Could be worse. I could be you, you poor c**t.
36 year old, recently quit job because I was miserable. Been almost a year, savings and investments are good so I'm doing fine, I can afford pretty much anything I want, but I no longer have a purpose. My pathetic soul crushing 60 hour a week job at least encouraged me to do something... now I just sit inside all day, sleep excessively (or dont sleep for days), watching tv and play video games. At most I leave the house once a week.
My sole enjoyment out of life right now is cooking dinner for myself. I usually crack a few beers, listen to music or podcasts and try out some recipes. I look forward to it pretty much all day. It's a pathetic existence and I'm not sure where to go from here.
I'm making a shitton of money at the time and moving up in my field. And not missing a single workout. Looking and feeling better than ever at 37. Late bloomer but I'm here to stay
>Be sad and lonely
>Finally get gf
>Want to be left alone to play video games
Why are we like this?
Because most people are selfish like you. Affection on someone such as yourself is wasted. Video games are a fricking waste of time, I’d kill an entire family for someone who genuinely wants to be around me.
who the frick wants to be around an eager family annihilator?
Women?
>got a new gf
>got a raise at already overpaid job
>getting a new flat next week
>getting in shape
>summer is coming
20yo wouldn't have believe that